I have read this thread with great interest. Thank you to Strawberries and all subsequent contributors.
At the time, I was happy with my ATAR. It got me into my course, and that's all I had really aimed for at the start of the year. But over the following weeks, it started to hit me that I hadn't scored perfectly. There were people out there who had done better than me. Maybe that meant I failed?! Did I waste the entire year?! Did I let down my friends and family?!
The ATAR does matter, of course, but only for a very short period of time. I sort of lost sight of that, and spiralled into a disgusting and hurtful process of self-doubt and regret. Over time, I realised how truly irrational and unappreciative I was being, but the fact remains that that is how I felt at the time. I was upset about my results.
I think that's the hard thing with VCE. A lot of people put absolutely everything they have into it. Some less so. Some not at all. But at the end of the day, there are thousands upon thousands of students who want to do well. There are finite 99.95s and 99.90s and whatever else to hand out, so of course some people will be upset and angry come results day (or the following days, in my case). It's so easy to forget that ATARs are not a reflection of you in your entirety. They do not make you 'better' or 'worse' than anybody else.
Anyway, I didn't really begin this post to speak about my ATAR experience. Rather, I wanted to speak about a related albeit slightly different one. If this thread were titled Any university students/graduates still upset about the level of prestige associated with their university degree? it would be right up my metaphorical alley. I think this is related insofar as different ATARs and different courses are weighted differently in terms of prestige or status or whatever. Some of this is just social bullshittery, granted, but that doesn't really help.
I did Arts, I loved Arts (I think I've made this clear in some of my more recent posts), and I would recommend Arts to a lot of incoming students. But:
- My brother studied Laws;
- My best friend is studying Science; and
- My girlfriend is studying Medicine.
No matter what I do, or what marks I get in Arts, there is always a part of me that devalues my own achievements. Seeing these people close to me go off to work or have countless hours at uni, compared to my five contact hours (lel), makes me feel truly insignificant and unworthy. Bangali was saying earlier in the thread how she feels similarly compared to people on this forum, and that holds entirely true for me, too.
It's not that I'm 'upset' about my degree, as such, it's just that I'm typically surrounded by people doing these other things - these useful, valued-by-society things.
To answer the OP more directly, I don't think it's strange or uncommon to feel as you're feeling. I obviously don't know your full situation, but I really think it will just dilute in time. Helpful? Not really, but I think accurate. I hope everything goes well for you.
(Also, side note: to assume that anybody hasn't experienced failure based purely on their VCE results is, I think, pretty ridiculous. Not a single person do I know that has had lived a perfect life. Not a single person do I know that has not experienced failure.)