Me seeing the thread title
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I want to ask, How introverted are you?
Just being at a party drains my energy. The only way for me to replenish that energy is to spend loads of time by myself. All alone. I haven't really had many opportunities to practise my social skills. I hardly ever got invited to parties in my high school days. I'm scared to approach people. What if I can't add anything to the conversation? What if it's awkward? What if no one at the gathering shares my interests? Everyone else seems to have someone to talk to, why not me?
Mood. I'd rate my introversion (pretty damn close to 100% when I last did Myers-Briggs), especially as I tended to (during school, anyway) to gravitate towards more introverted friend groups and I was easily less sociable than everyone else. Parties and mass gatherings creep me out but two particular situations change my behaviour significantly - close interaction either with people I'm not well acquainted with or conversely those I know really well. The former will make me overcompensate significantly and do things like talk quicker, panic and try to modify my perceived personality so they like me, etc. The latter will make me feel really comfortable and sort of put me in a bit of a bubble.
I also want to ask, How has lockdown affected your social life?
I'm loving it at home - I don't have to interact with many people outside my family if at all. On the rare occasions when I do have to go outside though, it's become a lot harder and I involuntarily do weird stuff when there's a lot of people around. I get to spend a lot of time alone which is nice, but I've become significantly more self-conscious and much less comfortable with being alone, so I'm a bit stuck in the middle :/
Finally, would you like to be a more outgoing person? Why?
I'd like to think so, but I just don't see it happening.
Curious to see everyone else's responses!