Hey mango8
Just want to say your entries are pretty funny so far! Can't wait to hear more
Good luck :)
I'm loving your journal so far, it's really in-depth and philosophical, which I love. Good luck this year, I look forward to more insights on life, the universe and everything. where included in everything is, dare I say it,loveYear 12?
Damn, so refreshing to see someone who sees through all that bullshit. Funny, cos we're the weird ones for not caring about those three things.
Gl with year 12
I’m just waiting for these holidays to come to do a gigantic catch up because boy do I have a lot to catch up on. Right now I’m just taking it day by day and being plunged into the deep end of multiple sacs each week.Hahaha, same! But I'm sure it's more intense for you! You'll get through it! :)
Since starting this journal, I have often wanted to post more, because I have so many thoughts, it is only a hope when scribbled or scrawled somewhere, the thoughts will begin to form some sort of coherence, clarity for me, and I’ll feel as if I’m writing to people who care and will listen to what I have to say (albeit that can’t be said for real life), but I thought it would be too much and my most important thought of: WHAT WILL PEOPLE THINK flooded my mind, because that’s all that seems to matter, not what I think or feel, but what everyone else needs or thinks or feels. And today, upon pondering this, I realised, this is my journal, my space, a tiny potion in the internet, a little vortex of a forum that I can call mine, and I can, for once, do it for me, and what I wish to do. How nice! Speaking to walls is typical, commonplace. Not being heard or understood, but this space will be for me, and I hope some of you may at least be able to find solace in what I write. Because you know, it would actually be nice to not be taking to walls for a change, and feel people on here might actually care. Or maybe that's too much to ask. It always seems to be, not for me to, oh that's expected, but for people to reciprocate.I love your journal and I'm sure lots of people on AN love it too ! It's unique and I like how you pour out your soul into these entries! Your journal is one of my favourites because of how long it is(which I really like because I have more to read in the morning on my way to school)! Also how deep and philosophical they are and how you talk about issues in society today and the expectations of society! Keep those entries coming!
Guess which journal has already got my nomination for AN Journal of the year? ;) Just letting you know that I do look at other journals.
Just have a quick question for you, how do you escape from the metaphorical 'bubble' of school and studying?
Your insights are pure gold! I really enjoyed reading every word of your last update. Sleep well (or at least sleep better than what you said you've been), best of luck for this week, and continue being the unique soul you are!
Good to see you back, mango8. 👍
Heyooo Mangooo!
Yes its me! I FOUND YOUR JOURNAL!!!! YAYYYYYY!
Ok, low-key just binge read (hehe cos we both LOVE to read) your journal and I wanna reply and say hi from all up till now because I feel rude not having stumbled across this before (even when I looked if you had a journal and somehow failed)
Firstly omg GIVE ME YOUR HUMOUR! Girl you are so funny! Love you to bits already!
- reading....SAME! I love to read but never get the time to just sit for a few hours and drink some tea and read. literally I am taking a gap year after year 12 and starting my own job called FULL TIME READING!
- I admit, I also exaggerate to me humourous, do you always get people that just never understand your humour no matter how obvious it is because girrrrrrl same!
- Relateable in the sense that I freak out over nothing but dont realise until later and just want to go back and slap myself in the face so hard and say WAKE UP LEXIE!
- Also love and appreciate when people not only take time to read but also comment on our posts....( hense my existence right here right now as you read this and now smile....hopefully....ok if not now you smiling....hehehehe)
Hope this aint creepy but I am gonna quote you on two things because I can relate to them soooooo much
1. " Its just really difficult being forced into an environment with so many toxic people whose values, language and behaviour are miles away from yours." Girl every.single.day for me. I hate it and what I hate more is my school screams "individuality, be yourself, everyone is accepted" When bitch you liar! Every day I walk into that school gate and suddenly I am not good enough, I am judged, teased and ignored, and rumours are spread and suddenly the 'safe place to learn' becomes the jailhouse of scrutiny and toxic people.
AlSO MANNNN THIS IS MY ANTHEMMMM THIS STATEMENT IS MY GOD AND I CANT BELIEVE YOU SAID THIS AND I AM SO IN AWE OF YOU FOR SAYING IT....
"Its a well known fact...book characters and dogs = infinity times better then humans. Dont even try to argue." BITCH I am singing this from my rooftops! YASSSSSS!!!!
and literally I swear every high school's library is the worst place to go for anything quiet. My library is always so loud and noisy! like ugh!
hope me commenting was ok xx Loving your journal so far! Keep it up girl xx
I love your journal and I'm sure lots of people on AN love it too ! It's unique and I like how you pour out your soul into these entries! Your journal is one of my favourites because of how long it is(which I really like because I have more to read in the morning on my way to school)! Also how deep and philosophical they are and how you talk about issues in society today and the expectations of society! Keep those entries coming!
Don't think about what other people will think. Like, who cares? This is you and this is for you so do you! Do what you please and don't get swallowed up my other people's judgements!
I know no one probably actually cares but I just need to get it out. (Warning: A lot of negativity and swearing)God I'm fucking tiredI fucking hate my school and the coordinators and 'higher up' people. And I've realised, that all of them, aside from one who I can't understand how the fuck he got his role when he can't even speak english or make any sense whatsoever, are privileged white assholes. So it's okay. Because everyone else is less. Nothing. They can be fucking rude and ill mannered and deplorable and act like pieces of shit over and over again, but I have to take it, don't I? Time and time again, I take it. Because I'm not only merely a stupid fucking teenager but I'm not white!!!!!!!!!! Therefore, I am lower. I have always been respectful and polite, especially to my elders. But that's meant that I take things when I shouldn't. Over and over and over again, I take it all. And I'm fucking exhausted and done with all of them who make absolutely no fucking effort to actually UNDERSTAND things at all but rather do as they please, say as they please and think it's fucking okay. They are all just fucking pieces of shit and it's gone on for all the years I've been at my fucking shit hole school. I have to see emails and have one sided conversations (because I don't fucking exist do I?) and take it every single fucking time. And if I try to speak up, (because I deserve that, don't I), what do you think? Does it work in my favour? Or do I feel even more worthless than I already do? God I'm so tired of this, every single fucking day.
FOUR MORE MONTHS AND I'LL BE DONE. NEVER HAVE TO EVEN LOOK AT THOSE PIECES OF SHIT AGAIN, EVER, NOR WILL THEY RETAIN POWER AND PRIVILEGE OVER ME ANYMORE, AND I WON'T NEED TO KEEP TAKING IT AND STILL BEING FUCKING NICE EVERY DAMN TIME. Why the fuck do so many people like them even exist?
God, that sound awful! You would think that this wouldn't happen in today's age, especially in Australia, but apparently it's too hard. Keep pushing through Mango! As you said, only four months to go then you can tell them toSpoilerGo Fuck Themselves
she’s not just good, she is stupendous at EVERYTHING. How unfair is that? When people not only have a flair for one thing but for EVERYTHING. I remember once there was someone who was stellar at maths and science, then she read her paragraph in english, and I was astounded, and she was simultaneously musically talented AND could draw so well too. Why do some people get to be like that?
Wild suggestion - but maybe it is because they actually work ridiculously hard and put in an insane amount of effort behind the scenes?? There is nothing "unfair" about it. If anything, it just shows their work ethic, perseverance and self control.
I hope this didn't sound too attacking, just some food for thought. Good luck with your studies and VCE.
Hi Mango!
I love your journal!
What are your favourite books (other than the Mortal Instruments ;) )? Do you have any recommendations for someone who enjoys fantasy?
;D
Hi Mango! :)
I've really enjoyed your journal entries so far and am also doing History Revs and Chemistry. I'm not sure if you've mentioned this thus far, but which two revolutions are you studying? It's definitely a challenging subject, but my teacher mentioned something that helped me to view this subject in a new light. If you can come to view the figures that you read about as not just names in a textbook, but real people that have made mistakes just like you and I, the subject becomes a little bit more enthralling.
At the high school I went to people used to care a lot about what scores the high achievers were getting so its nice to hear that that's not the case at your school (for math at least anyway). Kudos for using the achievement of others as motivation rather than feeling threatened or bitter about it (as can too easily be the case for people sometimes) :)
As for how the questions are created (I feel like this was a rhetorical question but I'm going to answer it anyway) some teachers pull directly or tweak questions from VCAA and/or company papers.
Nice to hear about the progress you're making with realising to change up your study + receiving help from your chem teacher - hopefully it's mainly uphill from here :)
I would give you advice for tolerating lit but I left it as soon as I could (end of year 11) because I was frustrated with feeling like I wasn't learning anything so yeah... (I didn't have issues with my teacher but the class just wasn't working for me).
Finally, in response to sharing personal info with the AN community (from an earlier post) please never feel like you're obligated to do this. There are things I wouldn't have shared if I'd had a VCE journal that impacted my year 12; you've got to make the choice of what you're comfortable with and you think would be beneficial to you. From your posts I get the impression that you're experiencing a tough time (and have been for a long time) and I wish you the best of luck in overcoming the difficulties you face - but neither myself, nor anyone else here, has the right to the information of what it is unless you choose to give it to us. Being vulnerable can be empowering and there's a power in deciding who you share your stories/realities with & how - no one model is right for everyone.