So this is something that I honestly would've never seen myself doing. Just went through year 11 being severely impacted through COVID and honestly it seriously messed me up way more than I ever thought it would. Just to keep in mind I do go selective, so I swear these marks are devastating to me. I went from being a solid A - B student to a C - B one instead.
Honestly, I don't how or why, but covid broke me tbh. I've never been that hardworking of a student I guess. I procrastinated a bunch, finished assignments the day of or even the period before so I guess it was only a matter of time till reality caught up with me. It just hurts because I started 2020 thinking that this would be the year I could get my shit together only for it to be the complete opposite. Interesting how life works isn't it. You tell yourself you want to do or achieve something and then life throws something completely unexpected at you that completely breaks your spirit.
This is one convo that I vividly remember happening at the beginning of the year that has honestly just been on repeat through my mind.
"Hey mum, why can't I tell my friends about my europe trip! I'm so excited I want to talk about n get excited about it with them."
"I don't want you jinxing the trip okay, what if something happens to cancel it,"
"We've already booked the tickets, it's not like something can happen to completely stop us from entering Europe or something stop being so paranoid."
Ah such famous last words. To be fair I never did tell anyone until after the whole pandemic thing become a reality. But it really did feel like it was the universe or gods way of telling me to stop being so cocky and to never forget how unpredictable this world really is.
Anyway, this whole thing has sent me spiralling. I completely bombed my prelims, and I didn't do to well in my first line of assessments either so that's fun. I'm just worried that it's slowly returning. I mean its just the first actual week of hols and there's already clusters. My next entry will defs be more related to my HSC progress but I just needed to let this out lol. See you soon!
So this is something that I honestly would've never seen myself doing. Just went through year 11 being severely impacted through COVID and honestly it seriously messed me up way more than I ever thought it would. Just to keep in mind I do go selective, so I swear these marks are devastating to me. I went from being a solid A - B student to a C - B one instead.
Honestly, I don't how or why, but covid broke me tbh. I've never been that hardworking of a student I guess. I procrastinated a bunch, finished assignments the day of or even the period before so I guess it was only a matter of time till reality caught up with me. It just hurts because I started 2020 thinking that this would be the year I could get my shit together only for it to be the complete opposite. Interesting how life works isn't it. You tell yourself you want to do or achieve something and then life throws something completely unexpected at you that completely breaks your spirit.
This is one convo that I vividly remember happening at the beginning of the year that has honestly just been on repeat through my mind.
"Hey mum, why can't I tell my friends about my europe trip! I'm so excited I want to talk about n get excited about it with them."
"I don't want you jinxing the trip okay, what if something happens to cancel it,"
"We've already booked the tickets, it's not like something can happen to completely stop us from entering Europe of something stop being so paranoid."
Ah such famous last words. To be fair I never did tell anyone until after the whole pandemic thing become a reality. But it really did feel like it was the universe or gods way of telling me to stop being so cocky and to never forget how unpredictable this world really is.
Anyway, this whole thing has sent me spiralling. I completely bombed my prelims, and I didn't do to well in my first line of assessments either so that's fun. I'm just worried that it's slowly returning. I mean its just the first actual week of hols and there's already clusters. My next entry will defs be more related to my HSC progress but I just needed to let this out lol. See you soon!
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I'm interested to follow your journal. :)
So this is something that I honestly would've never seen myself doing. Just went through year 11 being severely impacted through COVID and honestly it seriously messed me up way more than I ever thought it would. Just to keep in mind I do go selective, so I swear these marks are devastating to me. I went from being a solid A - B student to a C - B one instead.
Honestly, I don't how or why, but covid broke me tbh. I've never been that hardworking of a student I guess. I procrastinated a bunch, finished assignments the day of or even the period before so I guess it was only a matter of time till reality caught up with me. It just hurts because I started 2020 thinking that this would be the year I could get my shit together only for it to be the complete opposite. Interesting how life works isn't it. You tell yourself you want to do or achieve something and then life throws something completely unexpected at you that completely breaks your spirit.
This is one convo that I vividly remember happening at the beginning of the year that has honestly just been on repeat through my mind.
"Hey mum, why can't I tell my friends about my europe trip! I'm so excited I want to talk about n get excited about it with them."
"I don't want you jinxing the trip okay, what if something happens to cancel it,"
"We've already booked the tickets, it's not like something can happen to completely stop us from entering Europe of something stop being so paranoid."
Ah such famous last words. To be fair I never did tell anyone until after the whole pandemic thing become a reality. But it really did feel like it was the universe or gods way of telling me to stop being so cocky and to never forget how unpredictable this world really is.
Anyway, this whole thing has sent me spiralling. I completely bombed my prelims, and I didn't do to well in my first line of assessments either so that's fun. I'm just worried that it's slowly returning. I mean its just the first actual week of hols and there's already clusters. My next entry will defs be more related to my HSC progress but I just needed to let this out lol. See you soon!
Hey there!
I am also a year 11 student from Victoria completing two unit 3 and 4 subjects this year. I can totally understand what you’re saying about how this year has panned out and what it has taught you…
I was never a grade A student to begin with, and I deeply admire your determination and motivation to do well in school (a lot of my friends couldn’t care less about this sort of stuff). I also went through a stressful time this year and I know that everyone in the world has been impacted a lot by it..
I remember breaking down in tears in front of my English teacher at school at the beginning of the year and telling her how overwhelming it felt to be faced with so many assessments and how stressful I was finding my social life (I have always been a very introverted person and found it difficult to make worthwhile friends.. Year 11 made me realise how toxic some of my friends are..).
Please remember that you are never alone in whatever problems it is that you are facing. Life has a way of giving you reminders about what is and isn’t important and along with the roller coaster of Year 11 and 12, rewarded for all of your efforts.
Try your best to keep your spirits high!! :)
(P.S. Sorry about making this so long!!)