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Title: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on June 06, 2019, 09:02:45 pm
Hello friends! I thought I should start a journal!

I am in year 12 this year doing Physics, Chemistry, English, Japanese, Methods. My favourite subjects are chem and physics. I did bio last year and loved how it!

Right now the only extracurricular activity I do is playing the clarinet, and I’m in the school concert band, clarinet choir and also playing in a quartet for two others doing VCE music performance. Last year I went to Japan with 6 others in the clarinet choir which was really awesome!

Actually, I forgot, I also am in the debating team. Speaking in front of people is like the worst thing and super scary, so I forced myself to join the debating team. I’m really not very good at public speaking (actually that’s a lie, I got a good score on the presenting argument sac I English last year, however, the only reason for that is because I was able to practice it a billion times before hand, and I was still nervous). I have done two debates so far, the first one went great! I was first affirmative speaker so I didn’t have to rebut or improvise or anything! The second debate was a ‘secret’ debate where we found out the topic an hour beforehand. (super weird topic: “We should stop giving gifts”) I hadn’t finished writing what I was going to say, but I thought, ‘ah it’ll be fine I know what I want to say I’ll improvise’ MISTAKE. I had run out of my script and then got stage fright and started stammering out random sentences that I’d already said and standing in silence attempting to form coherent thoughts in my mind. But I was proud of myself and I know the next time I do it it’ll be a fraction less scary and it was a great chance to improve my confidence. Ooh yes, I’m one of those people, the annoyingly optimistic people who attempt to be super positive most of the time.

Off topic, but sort of related, last year I really disliked English and my grades decreased along with my enjoyment, but this year I decided to do the ‘fake it till you make it’ thing where you pretend to love English, so whenever I wanted to complain I’d always say ‘I love English I’m so excited’, and now I actually really like it. (It could be just having a great teacher this year though). But also your brain can be easy to deceive so I try to say I’m excited about SACs and stuff and I think it makes me sort of excited, (but I could just be a nerd and like them anyway). Also, unpopular opinion, but I’m sort of excited for the GAT.  .  .     Is anyone still here? But multiple choice isn’t that bad and is sort of fun. Also I feel like it sort of unites the cohort, because everyone in the state is all suffering enjoying the same test all at once and there’s all the memes too! I have had a lot SACs these last two weeks, (everyone here probably has too), but I feel like everyone most people in my year level are feeling sort of more bonded, (or maybe I’m overthinking it), but I have definitely spoken to more different people than I normally do as we have all shared a common enemy (VCAA) purpose and goal. I just googled it and it says in times of disaster people become more friendly and the shared stress leads to cooperative behaviour. Cool!
Gap year

I am hoping to do a gap year in the Navy next year. I have done the initial stage of the application process (the YOU session), and next I need to do the assessment day which includes a medical examination, psychological interview, and a job interview. I am really excited for it and I hope I get in because I am still undecided on what I want to do in the future. Also I think it would help with personal growth and make me more independent and confident and build leadership skills. I originally wanted to do the helicopter pilot gap year, but I found out recently that I couldn’t, because I have a history of asthma, so my preferences are now maritime warfare officer, marine engineer and electronics engineer.

Goals to improve people skills
Right now people have described me ‘nice’ and ‘polite’ and I’d also say I am shy and more of a listener and passive person. I really want to improve my confidence and assertiveness because they are really important life skills. In the vast majority of jobs the academic side is probably only half of it (I think), the social/people skills are also super important. Like, you might be super suitable for a job but how will the employers know that if you can’t communicate that to them in an interview. So along with pushing myself to achieve the best study scores I can get, I also want to become the best person I can be in terms of people skills. I would describe myself as empathetic and also friendly, but also I think some of that friendliness that I really want to exude doesn’t come across because I feel too awkward trying to start a conversation and then I get nervous, I might seem standoffish or unfriendly. I really admire the people who are just able to make everyone around them feel comfortable and at ease and can start conversations with anyone. By the end of the year I really want to become more charismatic and better at interacting with people. I have read books like ‘The Charisma Myth’ and ‘Captivate’, I recommend them, they’re really interesting. Also, I give off an introverted vibe, but I actually really enjoy being around other people and would label myself as an extravert internally. Also, I am an overthinker. I really enjoy psychology (not the subject, just in general) and also like behavioural science stuff, its really cool to read about and like notice like the social interactions of humans haha. I think my personally would suit a job like a psychologist or something, that would be cool, but I don’t know if I would be able to deal with it mentally or emotionally. My dream job would be to be an inspirational speaker, that would be awesome! I am thinking probably I might do a bachelor of science though and so something sciency in the future. I was also considering engineering, but I sort of don’t know if I’d like to work as an engineer, as I am finding it hard to study for methods, I love physics though. If I do the ADF gap year and enjoy it, I might end up going to ADFA and doing engineering.

Subjects
Math Methods: I finished the 4 period SAC today, the first two components were fine but I didn’t do too well on the last two, they were hard. I have always been a more mathsy person than an English person, so I’m hoping to get a 40 in methods. I am in the accelarated maths class, which I’ve have for 4 years with the same teacher and I’ve been in my teachers ‘list of 40s’, but also earlier in the year I feel like I might have dropped off the list after getting a gasp 48% on a test, because honestly I think this year I really have been neglecting methods. I find it the hardest subject to study for.

English: I am really liking English this year and am trying hard, and I have a fabulous teacher. I was hoping to get over 30 at the start of the year but now I’m aiming for a 37.

Japanese: Yes, I am one of those annoying half japanese kids who get high marks without appearing to do much work (I am though). My dad is Japanese so I have grown up speaking it. Fun fact: he pretended he couldn’t speak English when I was little(and I believed him) so I always had to speak to him in Japanese. However I really needed to learn all the writing stuff, because I didn’t really know how to write, but I’ve caught up now. I’m aiming for a 40.

Physics: Probably my favourite subject. I really like it, and my teacher’s great and I have gotten (equal) top of the cohort for the last two SACs. Hopefully I can get a 40.

Chemistry: Hard but fun. We have tonnes of smart people in my cohort so its really competitive for SACs. For the first SAC I got the top mark, but for the second I didn’t do that well, and the 3rd I did on Tuesday and it was pretty hard. Aiming for 40, but that might be too high.

I also need to improve my fitness to pass the navy fitness test, which includes situps which are fine, a beep test which I should be okay with and pushups which I cannot yet do. But also, if I get in there will be a lot of fitness training , so I want to be as fit as possible. Right now I have started doing yoga from YouTube (‘Yoga with Adriene’-I recommend!) also I have tried to run around the block as well.

If you’ve seen my sewing thread, you probably know I like sewing! I want to improve to the point I can make all kinds of clothes.

I enjoy reading, although I feel guilty as I have barely read much this year, so I really want to read more books!

Thanks for reading my rambling! I hope it was somewhat enjoyable, it was actually really fun to just write whatever came to mind. Goodnight!!

From Sarah!  ;)

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Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Snow Leopard on June 06, 2019, 09:27:05 pm
Is it hard to do a language in Year 12?
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: katie,rinos on June 06, 2019, 09:35:43 pm
Right now the only extracurricular activity I do is playing the clarinet, and I’m in the school concert band, clarinet choir and also playing in a quartet for two others doing VCE music performance. Last year I went to Japan with 6 others in the clarinet choir which was really awesome!

You play the clarinet!!!!  (same!) ;D
Are you learning any pieces at the moment? What grade are you up to? Your Japan trip sounds amazing! :)

What are your favourite books?
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Bri MT on June 07, 2019, 09:11:11 am
I prefer impromptu public speaking to prepared & I don't think there's anything lesser about being more comfortable with prepared - most people are!  The really important thing is that you've seen something outside your comfort zone and targeted it as an opportunity to learn & grow rather than avoiding; it's a fantastic attitude to have and I'm sure it'll take you far :).

You're certainly right that for jobs you also need social skills - it's great that you're working on this early :). I know a course that combines science and soft skills like communication (mine).

Hmm yeah to study physics at a uni level you'll definitely need maths.  Imo uni maths has a different feel to highschool maths (I prefer uni maths) so it's worth trying a couple of math units to see of you like it.


Thanks for starting a journal - so far it's fantastic! :)
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Evolio on June 07, 2019, 04:40:06 pm
Hi OwlBird83!
Nice to meet you and it's really fantastic that you started a VCE Journal.
Looking forward to the future updates.

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Right now I have started doing yoga from YouTube (‘Yoga with Adriene’-I recommend!) also I have tried to run around the block as well.
When I read this, I literally screamed. I finally found someone who does 'Yoga With Adriene'! How are you finding it so far and have you done any of the 31 day challenges? Which videos do you do?

See you around
 :)
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on June 07, 2019, 05:16:58 pm
Is it hard to do a language in Year 12?

Hi Snow Leopard!
For me, because I am ahead, it's not too bad. I find the stuff we do in class not very challenging, but my school is not very strong in languages in my opinion. My dad is a Japanese teacher at another school, and they are way more ahead than us. The grammar book that we are doing this year they finished last year, so I completed it all on the school holidays, so its pretty easy when I am doing it again in class. I have been doing a lot of the VCAA past exams at home, so that is quite time consuming, and my dad has encouraged me to translate the reading and listening parts, which I haven't done much of. I started learning french in year 7-9 and it was so hard, so I feel really lucky that I have grown up with Japanese. It's a totally different subject to the other ones I am doing so it's nice to have a change. I haven't really been working much on my detailed study yet, so I'll probably be doing a lot on the holidays, and also preparing for the oral. So, essentially, the class part isn't that hard, but to get a good score I think you have to spend a lot of time outside of class doing past exams and memorising your detailed study.

You play the clarinet!!!!  (same!) ;D
Are you learning any pieces at the moment? What grade are you up to? Your Japan trip sounds amazing! :)

What are your favourite books?
Cool!!  ;D I think I might be up to grade 4 level maybe. I did the grade 3 exam in year 9, but haven't done anymore since. For the VCE quartet, two of the others (who are the ones being assessed) are really good, they've been playing since primary school, so I feel nervous because they are tonnes better, but also they have harder parts (I'm playing 3rd), I do have to practice the pieces more though. For their exams we are playing "Eine Kleine", "La Copa" and "Bagatelle". I really like playing in a quartet, it sounds cool! I haven't really been learning any solo pieces, mostly band and quartet stuff and duets that I play in my lessons. Yeah, Japan was really fun! I have been before to visit my relatives, but it was the first time I didn't go with my family, and I got to do a home stay for 4 days which was really exciting! We played at our sister city's 'Australian Fair' and also got to go sight seeing in Tokyo!

My favourite book series is either The Mortal Instruments series by Cassandra Clare or A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J Maas. I really have to reread them sometime, because I have forgotten a lot of what happened.

I prefer impromptu public speaking to prepared & I don't think there's anything lesser about being more comfortable with prepared - most people are!  The really important thing is that you've seen something outside your comfort zone and targeted it as an opportunity to learn & grow rather than avoiding; it's a fantastic attitude to have and I'm sure it'll take you far :).

You're certainly right that for jobs you also need social skills - it's great that you're working on this early :). I know a course that combines science and soft skills like communication (mine).

Hmm yeah to study physics at a uni level you'll definitely need maths.  Imo uni maths has a different feel to highschool maths (I prefer uni maths) so it's worth trying a couple of math units to see of you like it.


Thanks for starting a journal - so far it's fantastic! :)

Thanks for your reply! Yeah hopefully this journal will motivate me to go out of my comfort zone more to improve! My English teacher said something the other day (it was something to do with essays though) but to "make it your strength", which I thought applies to life. I agree that avoiding things that make you uncomfortable will cause you to get trapped in a vicious cycle where you get worst at something because you avoid it and therefore you avoid it more.
That's good to know, (re uni maths). I do enjoy the homework sheets with past exam questions my teacher gives us because they are less repetitive and more interesting.

Hi OwlBird83!
Nice to meet you and it's really fantastic that you started a VCE Journal.
Looking forward to the future updates.
When I read this, I literally screamed. I finally found someone who does 'Yoga With Adriene'! How are you finding it so far and have you done any of the 31 day challenges? Which videos do you do?

See you around
 :)
Hi Evolio! Nice to meet you too! That's cool that you do 'Yoga with Adriene' too!! She just seems like the sweetest person! Doing yoga is a really good study break and I think I am getting more flexible. I haven't done any of the 31 day challenges, I really should do one though! There are so many videos to choose from I normally just find a random one that sounds fun!  ;D Yesterday after our last component of the maths SAC (which was really hard), my friend and I spend the whole period 6 just doing yoga and stretching on the ground in an empty classroom, which I think was a good way to relax after a SAC heavy week! It was funny when teachers walked by and were like 'what are they doing?'.
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Joseph41 on June 07, 2019, 05:20:37 pm
Awesome work with the debating. Not doing more debating stuff is probably one of my regrets from VCE. Like you, definitely not a fan of it on the surface, but think it would have been great developmentally.

P.S. What were your arguments for the gift debate? Haha.
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on June 07, 2019, 06:01:12 pm
Awesome work with the debating. Not doing more debating stuff is probably one of my regrets from VCE. Like you, definitely not a fan of it on the surface, but think it would have been great developmentally.

P.S. What were your arguments for the gift debate? Haha.
Thanks! Yeah, after I first decided and told the teacher I was definitely doing it I regretted it so much and wished I didn't, but leading up to the first debate I changed my mind and was glad I signed myself up, and it is much less scary than I had built it up to be.  :D

For our arguments, we took an emotional stance where we emphasised that relationships shouldn't be build on materialistic objects and since mother's day was coming up, we talked about how mother's day is a day where mothers and children can enjoy building human connection and spending time together, rather that focusing on the materialistic side of what the child will buy the mother. We also talked about the wasteful side, environmental impact and consumerism. It was really surprising that we ended up winning, I thought the other team were all really good speakers, it was super close and we were only one point ahead. The main reason we won was because the other team neglected our initial defining of a gift, and started talking about the 'gift of life' or 'the gift of time'. My friend who was our third speaker is also an amazing public speaker and brought our score up.
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Joseph41 on June 07, 2019, 06:07:05 pm
Nice one. Do you think it's improved your communications skills so far?
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on June 07, 2019, 06:51:02 pm
Nice one. Do you think it's improved your communications skills so far?
I think probably every time I do public speaking I will slowly get more comfortable by a fraction (hopefully), but I reckon that doing the debates have probably made me slightly less nervous for future ones. I can't really tell if I was less nervous for the second debate because I couldn't prepare before I went for that one, but if it was another prepared one I think I would definitely have gotten better. I am also excited for the speech we have to do in English and I don't feel that scared for it yet.
I think that my body has strengthened the neural pathway (or whatever happens in the brain) to make it a habit for my body to start the fight or flight response if I know I will have to do a presentation or when I consider speaking to someone I don't know, so it's hard to break that built up habit where my body tells me speech=time to run! haha. I think I still need to do more debates to desensitize myself more. It's annoying that despite the knowledge that we are not in immediate harm from being eaten by a predator or something, that that leftover evolutionary survival instinct still kicks in when it's not relevant for the majority of modern day situations.
One thing I read was to tell yourself that the nerves are just excitement, so you start thinking that you are just super excited about something instead of nervous! Self brainwashing!
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: mango8 on June 13, 2019, 08:32:46 pm
Hello friends! I thought I should start a journal!


Hello Sarah! Not sure if you remember me but I am a frequent visitor to your sewing thread! And I remember that one time we were counting haha. Anyway, when I saw your journal pop up, I was honestly thrilled! We seem to have a lot in common, and I'm excited for your updates to come. It's great you have kept up with so many extracurriculars in Year 12. AND OH MY GOSH MORTAL INSTRUMENTS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH <3
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on June 14, 2019, 07:13:42 pm
Hello Sarah! Not sure if you remember me but I am a frequent visitor to your sewing thread! And I remember that one time we were counting haha. Anyway, when I saw your journal pop up, I was honestly thrilled! We seem to have a lot in common, and I'm excited for your updates to come. It's great you have kept up with so many extracurriculars in Year 12. AND OH MY GOSH MORTAL INSTRUMENTS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH <3

Hi Mango!! Thanks for your reply! Yes I remember you!  ;D I enjoyed reading your journal, and I agree, we seem similar! The Mortal instruments are actually the best! All the best with year 12!! <3  ;)

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Hey guys! What’s up!
The weather’s been quite nice this week! I am a summer person and prefer the warmth, so the sun was nice. But also the rain was good too!

The GAT!
I have not found a single person who agrees with me yet, but is there anyone else who found the GAT fun?  Some of those maths/problem solving ones were quite enjoyable, especially at that moment when it clicks and you get it! The writing tasks weren’t that great, but multiple choice was pretty cool! Also, I love all the memes!

Personal Development eww that sounds too formal and clinical
I went to a party on last weekend which was like the second I’ve been to this year (I am not really a party going person). I was sort of scared because none of my close friends were going and I wasn’t sure if there’d be people there I knew well. When I arrived there were only about six people there and they were all guys, so I awkwardly stood sort of near them. Then about 6 more guys arrived and I felt really awkward and I tried to resist the urge to look at my phone. I spoke to a few I knew so that made me feel a bit better. Then after a while more girls started arriving and some people I am friends with came and I felt more comfortable. At first when people were dancing I physically (mentally) couldn’t bring myself to dance, even though I was thinking that I knew I looked worse when I was standing stationary with a group of people who were dancing. I reckon I’m a fabulous dancer when I’m cleaning my room or doing the dishes and there’s no one around haha. I kept mentally telling myself to just loosen up and move to the beat. But it’s like peeing in public, that ingrained behaviour you have trained yourself not to do your whole life and then you just can’t do it. (sorry bad analogy but it reminded me of a time when I was at the beach with my friends and I tried to pee in the ocean but my body physically kept say no no this no toilet and holding it in) sorry too much information. Back to the story, but I kept mentally preparing myself and telling myself that I was able to dance in front of people at the year 10 formal, so why was think any different. I finally started being able to dance, when I finally dissolved the mental block on my body and overcame the initial worries of being judged! Yay! I think the more time I spend with people the more comfortable I become. The rest of the party wasn’t too bad! Most people there I knew sort of.

Formal
We had formal after the GAT. If you guys read my sewing thread, I decided not to wear that jumpsuit that I made, instead I wore a dress that I bought ages ago from the op shop that was blue and sequiny. I love opshops! Half of my friendship group decided not to go, but luckily I had a friend who I stuck with and two others. Like how I mentioned before, I finally felt able to dance after being there for 3 hours, maybe it was adrenaline. I felt bad for my vegetarian/vegan friends because they barely got anything for dinner, only two small slices of eggplant, some mushrooms and a smear of pumpkin. Everyone else had chicken parmigiana with chips and there was a chocolate lava cake dessert, which was delicious but super rich.
 
School
It’s mid year exam week for us (probably everyone else too?), and I’ve done English, and had chemistry and methods today. I wasn’t feeling prepared at all for chemistry because was thinking I’d have the whole of Thursday to study, but then I was super tired after formal and slept a lot and ending up doing next to nothing. But also I ran! (around the block) I feel weird using the phrasing: ‘I went for a run’, because I feel like it’s something sporty/fit people say, and I would not classify myself as one. I ran around the block 3 times this week and I am so proud of myself! But, the chem exam went really well! It was much easier than the practice one she gave us and I felt confident! The methods exam was pretty good too! (Except this one question where we needed the formula for the surface area of a sphere and no one knew it). I just have my Japanese and Physics exams on Monday, and then we start unit 4! Yay! Wow this year is just going so fast!

ADF Gap Year application
I have booked my assessment day for next week! I’m super nervous, but let’s not dwell on that, because the more I say it the more I feel it. I’m so excited! I spoke to one of the people on the phone yesterday, and I found out that if I pass the assessment day, after that I have to do the Officer Selection Board, because even though I’m just applying for the gap year, the jobs I’m applying for are officer roles. I was really hoping to avoid the OSB, because its all about your leadership skills and public speaking and scary fun stuff like that! But that won’t be for some months. For the assessment day which I’m doing next week, I basically have to prepare for the interview part like a regular job interview and research the job, Navy and ADF, because their goal is to see if I understand the lifestyle and role and see how suited I am. I once spoke to someone who said, “I look forward to job interviews because I see them as an opportunity to sell myself” or something like that. I reckon it’s such a great mindset to have and I’m going to try and adopt that, to see it as an opportunity to practice and improve interview skills.
Hope you guys have a great weekend and good luck if you have midyear exams!  ;D
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Joseph41 on June 19, 2019, 04:56:36 pm
GAT - I don't know if fun is the word I'd use haha, but I didn't mind it. I think the key is not putting too much pressure/expectation on yourself, and accepting that there are probably going to be questions that are sort of out of your comfort zone/skills/passions. Glad you found it enjoyable! ;D

P.S. For the "line thing" (loved it hahaha), you can use:

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Although I think I might actually prefer your way. :P
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: caffinatedloz on June 21, 2019, 10:51:09 pm
I too love your line thing. :D At our school, we did the AGAT today (the GAT for Year 10's) and I also found the mathsy and problem-solving questions surprisingly fun. The pick the odd pattern out or the next pattern in the sequence ones drove me insane. Can't wait to read more!
laura <3
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Snow Leopard on June 22, 2019, 06:04:26 pm
I too love your line thing. :D At our school, we did the AGAT today (the GAT for Year 10's) and I also found the mathsy and problem-solving questions surprisingly fun. The pick the odd pattern out or the next pattern in the sequence ones drove me insane. Can't wait to read more!
laura <3

What's the AGAT?
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: caffinatedloz on June 22, 2019, 06:29:21 pm
What's the AGAT?

The AGAT is a test that our school runs for Year 10's that is a 45-minute version of the GAT and helps them to stream classes.
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Snow Leopard on September 26, 2019, 01:16:45 pm
How's Yr12 been going Owlbird83?
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on September 26, 2019, 10:52:57 pm
Hi SnowLeopard, thanks for asking! It’s been mainly good!  ;D

I know I have thoroughly neglected this journal oops. I keep thinking of writing, but I don’t get around to it.

This year has mainly gone against my expectations in that year twelve has not been as stressful as I expected it too be. However, recently I have felt like the days are flowing faster and the time until exams has been decreasing at an alarming rate.

Today I actually burnt a piece of paper that I wrote all of my worries on haha. My brother thought I was weird. I read about it and thought I’d try it for fun. Did it help? I can’t really tell you, maybe. But there is a lot of research on how your mind can be influenced and tricked into believing things. I also did a ten minute meditation, which I never do, but it definitely made me more relaxed! We did some meditation the other week in my English class and it totally boosted my mood! Again, there’s the placebo effect where maybe the fact that I expected meditation to calm me down was the reason my brain decided to do it. I’m probably overthinking. At the start of the year I decided to have such a positive mindset and reaction to everything, but I think that it’s slipping a bit. I have to try and maintain a good mindset.

My school has practice exams on in the holidays, and today were the first ones. I had methods exam one and also English. They went better than I expected them too! My friends decided to do a ‘quote vomit’ beforehand and we were meant to go around a triangle and say quotes, but my mind kept going blank, and I was not feeling good about it, but luckily when I went into the exam I remembered some. Argument analysis is the best! (unlike the other two).

I am both happy and disappointed with my Navy gap year application. I was called two days ago to say that I was a successful candidate, which I was really grateful for, but I need to take another test for asthma after failing my first one, and so I think I am unlikely to get in.

My fitness is not going that good. I hardly did any excersize for about two months, until the start of September. I blame the cold weather, I am not really a winter person, and the cold makes me just want to sit under many blankets. I finally pushed myself to jog around the block and have done that a few times in the warmer weather. My flimsy arm muscles I built have degraded back to nothingness. I can now to about two pushups, I really have to work on that, in case I end up getting through to the defence force fitness test.

The non-holidays! My methods teacher instructed us to do nothing except study, (I think it was only semi-serious), whereas my English teacher told us to make sure we rest a bit if we are feeling drained form the term and also to do a spring clean to clear our heads and make us feel more in control. I agree with this, cleaning and organising your desk/room makes everything better! I am so proud of my desk it looks amazingly organised (not that I ever study on it, I always study on the dining table). My holidays have been moderately productive. I really have to work on doing a little bit for each subject everyday, because I know that seems more logical and better for the long term, but I can’t help only studying for the next thing coming up. I was only doing English and Methods because of the practice exams today.

Improving my social skills!
Towards the end of last term I think my self esteem might have dipped a bit and I started thinking I was uninteresting and boring to talk to. I think I have mostly overcome this, at least I have tried to, because that kind of mindset causes a vicious cycle where by believing that others find you uninteresting causes you start to act that way and put less effort into interactions. I read something ages ago that sort of relates: when you are getting to know someone or talking to someone, if you make a comment about something such as them being a kind person or that you get along really well with them, even if it is not true, people will start to act kind or act like you know each other well, (or something like that). Also, I have noticed that if I believe someone has I higher expectation of me, I tend to be more interesting/talkative. When I begin talking to someone new and I immediately label myself as shy or awkward or project those vibes, I tend to act that way for the rest of the conversation. However, in interactions that begin in a more high energy way or I initially project myself as more confident, I put in more effort to stay that way and don’t let myself fall into just listening. One thing I must do though is to stop saying ‘yeah’. Surely there are many more potential replies to someone than just ‘yeah’. Also I need to have opinions! Opinions are what makes people interesting and individual (imo). When people ask my opinion on things I have to stop defaulting to ‘yeah its good’. It’s funny how stuff we learn at school teach me things about life in unexpected ways. For example, for English, some feedback on my practice essays were that I need a stronger sense of voice; an opinion. Also, for my Japanese Oral, I have to expand my answers and give extra details, like what I should be doing in real life!

So I went to the Atar Notes Lectures last weekend! English was surprisingly good, I learnt more than I expected to! Methods was not that good because I zoned out for a lot because I was tired because it was the second lecture in the day, and methods : (, but the presenter was so cool! . Chemistry was really good revision, it refreshed a lot of concepts in my brain!
Surprisingly, the highlight of the lectures was talking to random strangers sitting next to me! I try to push myself out of my comfort zone and do things that make me uncomfortable, because that’s the only way to make them comfortable! I had conversations with four people over the course of the two days, and it was really enjoyable! Also, after being with the same cohort of kids for six years, it’s really refreshing to get to know completely new people! And it definitely got easier to talk! Sometimes when the challenge to myself enters my brain to say something to someone, my heart starts beating crazily fast as I think ‘okay now’ … ‘say it now’ … ‘quick before you lose the chance’ and my heartbeat increases with speed the longer I wait. This time it was better though, I tried to break the ice before my brain realised I was going to put myself in a potentially life threatening situation, avoiding the release of (too much) adrenaline to ‘fight or flight’. The first person I spoke to was coincidentally a forum member! If you are reading this hi! Also, the second person I spoke to was a guy, which is double the scariness!

I was proud of myself, not that it’s big, but I’m trying to appreciate small victories. On Sunday, I was waiting for my mum and brother on a bench in the city, and these people came to the bench and were opening some kind of combination safe thing stuck to the bench and I asked them what was inside, just with out thinking, the words flowed out! You may be know picturing me as socially inept, because I am praising myself for speaking to a random person in the streets, but it was the fact that I felt no hesitation or nervousness, which was different to normal. I am socially inept though. (Think positively, stop labelling) . (It turned out to be a safe for their apartment key in case you were curious).

School!
(Btw I am using exclamation mark to try and make myself excited! )
Physics and chemistry are both going good! They are my favourite subjects and I am hoping to get over 40 for both. However, I know that I haven’t been revising all the content as much as I should have been. During the last week of school I had a methods and chem sac and that it all I was focusing on up until then. Physics I have gotten the top score for a couple of sacs, and also my best friend has also for some other sacs. How cool is food chemistry! I love how it relates so much to life! I have been eating more citrus than usual, because vitamin C is cool!

Methods!!!!! Yay methods!!!  The worst So fun!! I am disappointed in myself with methods. I don’t know if I already said this in a previous post, but I have been in the accelerated maths class for four year and have always been in my teachers ‘list of fourties’, but this year I sort of stopped enjoying it as much and I haven’t been putting as much work into it, because I would rather study for other subjects. She said I am on the border of her list of fourties, but I think I have dropped off. I want to get a fourty because I don’t want to let her down, but I don’t know if it’s possible. By that, I mean I don’t know if I’m willing to put in the effort to make it possible. I did slightly better on our last sac, probability, I got about eighth in the class.

English! I have been working harder in English this year because I really want to get a good score in it. Interesting fact: my teacher said that each year people who tend to get certain scores sit in certain locations in the room, and she can almost predict our scores from where we sat. I think that’s pretty funny! My aim for my study score has increased throughout the year from a 30 to a 40. I think aiming for a 40 might be a bit of a stretch though, maybe 37?

Japanese! I probably haven’t been working as hard as I should be. I reluctantly entered the Japanese speech contest and came first in the environmental division! I was so nervous, my cheek and mouth was involuntarily having a party and I couldn’t stop them from shaking with fear (oops that sounds a bit drastic, it wasn’t as bad as last year I think). I’m glad I entered though, because it forced me to memorise a lot of my detailed study. I really should have memorised everything by now but I still don’t feel uber confident. My mock oral is next Thursday, so I hope that will force me into memorising. Japanese is the subject I neglect a bit, I have been doing homework for other subjects in some of the classes. My dad has been telling me to work on my Japanese though, because his students are way ahead of me. I am aiming for maybe 41 (hopefully).

I feel like that sums up my life mostly!
Enjoy the rest of your holidays/nonholidays!
Good luck for exams!  :D ;D

Thanks again SnowLeopard for prompting this journal entry, I probably wouldn’t have written otherwise, and it was enjoyable to write!  :)
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Snow Leopard on September 26, 2019, 11:11:17 pm
Hi SnowLeopard, thanks for asking! It’s been mainly good!  ;D
I am both happy and disappointed with my Navy gap year application. I was called two days ago to say that I was a successful candidate, which I was really grateful for, but I need to take another test for asthma after failing my first one, and so I think I am unlikely to get in.
Good luck! I hope it goes well.

cleaning and organising your desk/room makes everything better!
I agree an organised desk = a organised mind.

Also, for my Japanese Oral, I have to expand my answers and give extra details, like what I should be doing in real life!
Any advice in general for LOTE's. How do you find balancing one in Yr 12 and is there anything you would've done differently for it from the start of this year/ when you were doing U1/2?

Great job on improving your social skills!
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Comet striker on September 27, 2019, 07:25:24 am
Ey wassup owlbird,
I'm here checking out all the journals and I c yours. How you doing ma dude? I've been pretty grateful for that guide you posted on the Biology thread. Came here to say I appreciate it.
Keep doing wht you're doing ma dude <3
Alucard
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on September 27, 2019, 10:46:07 am
Good luck! I hope it goes well.
I agree an organised desk = a organised mind.
Any advice in general for LOTE's. How do you find balancing one in Yr 12 and is there anything you would've done differently for it from the start of this year/ when you were doing U1/2?

Great job on improving your social skills!

Thanks!  ;D

I think one thing I would have done differently is to start memorising my detailed study earlier in the year. The oral exam has really crept up on me (mine's in week two next term), and although it only counts for 12.5% for Jap, I am way more nervous for it than the written one. I guess learning it too early isn't good because you might forget it, but with memorising speeches, I have learned that you need it to marinate in in your brain for at least 2 weeks or more I think, so you can move it into your long term memory or something. I haven't researched this enough, so I can't say it like it's a fact but from my experience, I might practice the speech a tonne for a few days and I still cannot say it without forgetting bits and pausing, but then after maybe a week or two without that much more practice it flows out much more easily.

Also, I think it's good to finish learning the grammar before the start of year 12, so you can focus on doing practice exams and working on your detailed study in year 12, (I know some schools do this, but not mine). Make sure you feel confident with the grammar patterns.

This is sort of Japanese specific, but I really should have learnt all of the kanji earlier in the year. I am still not confident with writing them all, so it was a mistake to leave it until this late when I am busy with other subjects.

Good luck Snow Leopard! I hope this helped a little.


Ey wassup owlbird,
I'm here checking out all the journals and I c yours. How you doing ma dude? I've been pretty grateful for that guide you posted on the Biology thread. Came here to say I appreciate it.
Keep doing wht you're doing ma dude <3
Alucard

Hi Alucard! Thanks for your reply!
I really appreciate your appreciation! I'm so glad you found it helpful!  ;D
Good luck for the exam!!
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: caffinatedloz on October 07, 2019, 07:32:20 am
Today I actually burnt a piece of paper that I wrote all of my worries on haha.
That sounds super cathartic.

I also did a ten minute meditation, which I never do, but it definitely made me more relaxed! We did some meditation the other week in my English class and it totally boosted my mood! Again, there’s the placebo effect where maybe the fact that I expected meditation to calm me down was the reason my brain decided to do it. I’m probably overthinking.
Meditation in class- that's cool. ;D Does that happen often or was it just a one off?

English! I have been working harder in English this year because I really want to get a good score in it. Interesting fact: my teacher said that each year people who tend to get certain scores sit in certain locations in the room, and she can almost predict our scores from where we sat. I think that’s pretty funny! My aim for my study score has increased throughout the year from a 30 to a 40. I think aiming for a 40 might be a bit of a stretch though, maybe 37?
Wow that's crazy, but probably also right. I guess she thinks people sitting in the middle of the front row will be trying the hardest? Maybe you're doing well and working hard because of all of those awesome debating skills.😝😂

I feel like that sums up my life mostly!
Enjoy the rest of your holidays/nonholidays!
Good luck for exams!  :D ;D
Enjoy your first day back at school!
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on October 07, 2019, 06:57:11 pm
That sounds super cathartic.
Meditation in class- that's cool. ;D Does that happen often or was it just a one off?
Wow that's crazy, but probably also right. I guess she thinks people sitting in the middle of the front row will be trying the hardest? Maybe you're doing well and working hard because of all of those awesome debating skills.😝😂
Enjoy your first day back at school!

Hi Laura! Thanks for your reply!  ;) ;D
The meditation was just a one off, I think someone randomly suggested it and my teacher was like 'sure why not', I want to do it more often! They actually used to run meditation at lunch last year but I never could go because it clashed with clarinet choir! I say this, but I never do it at home though. That should be a goal: do more meditation. But I have been trying to do more yoga!

I hope you enjoyed your first day back too!

Its weird how at the start of term things just go back to normal like the holidays never happened!
It was really fun seeing you guys at the lectures! Sorry if I was stuffing my face with pizza for most of the time. Free food just tastes double as good as regular food!  ;D

I had my second or third last band rehearsal today after school. I feel like I should be more sad, but I honestly don't really feel that emotional or anything. The end of year concert is soon, which is exciting!

AAAAHHHHH!! THE ORAL EXAM! is in like 10days  :o It's come so quickly! At my mock oral, I was given the advice to be more confident in myself- which is also a challenge in everyday life, so ... But I wasn't feeling that good about it up until just before, when my dad was practising with me in the car on the way home from band, and I actually could answer the questions. My main worry is that nerves will incapacitate my face and vocal chords. But, positive mindset, it'll be fine!!...

I got my results back from the Physics and Methods practice exams we did at school on the holidays and they weren't that bad! For the physics I was second? in the class, and my friend (who beat me by two marks) and I are waiting to find out if anyone in the other class beat us.(I'm too competitive) The methods ones were alright.

My friends are planning to stay in a holiday house for a few days after exams - (sorta like schoolies but instead of parties and drinking we'll be playing boardgames and beach volleyball and doing yoga and cooking). I'm so excited! We are still researching where to go but I'm super excited about it, and hopefully knowing that I have that to look forward to will motivate me more. I have been more motivated recently though. Last term around the middle I was feeling pretty drained and didn't have the energy to study, but hopefully that feeling has been washed away for good.

Hope everyone had a good start to the term!  ;D
I will try and update this journal after the oral exam, so I may or may not be freaking out!  :)
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on October 30, 2019, 08:26:49 pm
Hi everyone! How are you! I hope you had a good start to exams today, or if you don't do English, Goodluck!   :)

I wrote this two weeks ago and didn't post it, but here are my belated thoughts on my Jap oral:
I had my oral for Japanese (today), and I am really happy with it! – (two weeks ago). Almost all of the questions that they asked were ones that I had practiced the answer to! There were a few false starts, some pauses and some weird improvised answers to the few unexpected questions, but ultimately, good!!
Also, I was very nervous, but not as nervous as I know I can get. Yes, my face was trembling a bit at the start, but it went away. My heart was beating super fast the whole time, but not as fast as it could get! The assessors were both super nice, and laughed a couple of times when I attempted to say something funny, so that was nice! I also remembered to smile, which was something I struggled with in the practices. It went so much better than the mock oral!! Apparently, smiling and stuff rather than looking like you would rather not be there, can make around a 10% difference to your marks, so it’s pretty important.

Spoiler
My advice on dealing with nerves!
It may not work for everyone, but it works (to an extent) for me. Deny any nerves, don’t say you’re nervous, act very chill, don’t scrunch up your body language as if you are nervous, tell yourself and others you are excited, don’t tell people that you are scared, focus on the positive adjectives such as confident, relaxed, excited. I know these things are probably not true, but you can trick your brain into believing they are.
Deep breaths.
Yoga! I did some morning yoga that was very good in helping wake me up and be a bit more calm.
Freestyle dancing. Probably not for everyone, but very fun to release some nervous energy.
Avoid others beforehand.

Spoiler
fun excerpt
Examiner: What's your opinion on this?
Me:
Examiner:
Me:... it good

I have been going to school to study everyday in the silent study area, which is a good thing for me, because I find it hard to make myself study when I am at home. However, yesterday, the day dragged on, and I started getting bored, I reread both my texts though (Black Diggers and The Longest Memory) and also went on walks with my friends, which was nice. My brain was attempting to find the tiniest ways to procrastinate. I had forgotten to put on deodorant, so my brain decided that I could walk to the shops and buy some deodorant, which would use up some time, so my friend and I walked there and back. It was such a nice temperature yesterday with the wind and the warmth. I also kept drinking a lot of water so I had an excuse to get up from my seat and go to the bathroom every so often. I have had clarinet choir practices at lunchtime too, so they are fun. I never really appreciated them that much, but now that school is over for year twelves I feel like every clarinet rehearsal is an extra thing I can enjoy before I leave the school. One of the year 8s asked me why I was still at school, and thought I was in Uni now haha.

So… the English Exam! I’m so relieved English is over!!! It went really good though!! I started nervous crazy smiling when I first flicked though to look at the prompts! The prompt for section A (Rear Window) was basically word for word the prompt to the practice exam I wrote on Sunday! I am so grateful to my teacher because she had said she had a feeling that the topic would come up on the exam and it did! Also for section B, the topics was really good, I had written a couple of essays on change, and it was my best topic I think! The analysing argument section is always my best section, but I felt like since the article was so bland, I didn’t particularly write anything particularly significant that sounded good. I spent like 50 mins on the first article though, and then went over the hour with my hand buzzing furiously trying to finish, I forgot the image in the second article though oops. I guess it’s no use aiming for a study score now, but I’m hoping for 38 or 39. A 40 would be super cool, but I’m not sure it’s possible.

I actually have the best exam timetable! I have methods next week then the week after chem and physics, then the week after Jap. My methods teacher saw my timetable and was like, well you’d better get 40s in everything then, because you have week gaps in between. One of my friends will have finished her exams by next Thursday, but she has two days with two exams!
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on November 13, 2019, 02:22:02 pm
Hi everyone!!  ;D

I had my physics exam this morning (2nd last exam), and am now sitting in the science centre and I’m cold.

I went to find a heater, but it didn’t turn on, so I went to the pres space, which is equally cold. Oh well. Hopefully typing this will generate a bit of extra body heat. The pres space is completely empty, which is super weird, because it’s the largest room in our school and it’s set up in exam conditions. In the window on the left the coordinators are talking. I’m only a tiny bit scared because one of the coords walked past me a few times when I was sitting and eating in the science centre, which is against the rules and she has told me off for it before, but I didn’t engage in eye contact, and tried to look cold (not hard) and maybe she took pity on me because I’m in year 12 doing exams?

I didn’t bring any Jap stuff today, and thought I would relax, because I still have a whole week to study, and it’s the exam I’m feeling the least stressed about. I have thoroughly neglected it over the past 3 weeks though (actually sorta the whole year). I did a lot of practice exams at the start of this year though, because it’s different to the others in that you don’t really have a tonne of new stuff to learn. Hopefully I can get a 40!

Methods exam
Very not good, definitely one of my 10%s. Hopefully I can still scrape a 35? I’ve said this before, but I’ve let down my teacher who has believed I could get a 40 for the past 3 years, (excluding this year probably).

Chem
AHHHH. I was hoping chemistry would be my best subject. It’s the subject I have spent the most time studying for and was maybe in the top five in the cohort. I think my teacher was expecting me to get a 40. I did a lot more practice exams for chem than my other subjects. I felt like the exam was super long and I rushed a lot. After discussing it afterwards, I realised I made some dumb mistakes, and I had skipped a few questions too because I was running out of time. I spent way too long on the multiple choice, (maybe just under an hour). Also, I had to pee really bad, and so I had a toilet break which cost me about 5 mins or so. It’s really unusual because I’m normally super paranoid about going to the toilet right before. Maybe it’s because I had a smoothie and kept drinking water the whole morning. The examiner/supervisor was nice because she did a bit of a jog with me toward the toilets, even though she was old. ;D

Physics!!
Yay! The exam I’ve felt the best about! It was so much shorter than chem, and I had time spare at the end. There was nothing I found particularly difficult. The 4 mark one about the Xray diffraction and finding the frequency stumped me a lot, and I came back to it at the end and was super mad at it. I spent like 20 mins trying to think of how to do it, and then it finally came to me!! And so I’m really happy about that. From some of the discussion, I know there are a few things I’ve gotten wrong, but hopefully I didn’t make any calculator error (which I always seem to do). But because a lot of people found it easy, it’s gonna be more competitive, so hopefully I can get maybe in the low 40s? I wanted to beat bio, so maybe over 42?

I just realised I’m not really cold any more! Is it a secret heater, or maybe typing does generate a lot of warmth haha.

I’m really looking forward to going to Phillip island with my friends!! It’ll be so cool to relax and be independent! And I have so many crafty projects I want to do after exams. I have to find a part time job as well.

Thanks for reading!!
Owlbird!  ;D

(I was recently told that I use a lot of exclamation marks!)
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Erutepa on November 13, 2019, 02:37:23 pm
Hi everyone!!  ;D

I had my physics exam this morning (2nd last exam), and am now sitting in the science centre and I’m cold.

I went to find a heater, but it didn’t turn on, so I went to the pres space, which is equally cold. Oh well. Hopefully typing this will generate a bit of extra body heat. The pres space is completely empty, which is super weird, because it’s the largest room in our school and it’s set up in exam conditions. In the window on the left the coordinators are talking. I’m only a tiny bit scared because one of the coords walked past me a few times when I was sitting and eating in the science centre, which is against the rules and she has told me off for it before, but I didn’t engage in eye contact, and tried to look cold (not hard) and maybe she took pity on me because I’m in year 12 doing exams?

I didn’t bring any Jap stuff today, and thought I would relax, because I still have a whole week to study, and it’s the exam I’m feeling the least stressed about. I have thoroughly neglected it over the past 3 weeks though (actually sorta the whole year). I did a lot of practice exams at the start of this year though, because it’s different to the others in that you don’t really have a tonne of new stuff to learn. Hopefully I can get a 40!

Methods exam
Very not good, definitely one of my 10%s. Hopefully I can still scrape a 35? I’ve said this before, but I’ve let down my teacher who has believed I could get a 40 for the past 3 years, (excluding this year probably).

Chem
AHHHH. I was hoping chemistry would be my best subject. It’s the subject I have spent the most time studying for and was maybe in the top five in the cohort. I think my teacher was expecting me to get a 40. I did a lot more practice exams for chem than my other subjects. I felt like the exam was super long and I rushed a lot. After discussing it afterwards, I realised I made some dumb mistakes, and I had skipped a few questions too because I was running out of time. I spent way too long on the multiple choice, (maybe just under an hour). Also, I had to pee really bad, and so I had a toilet break which cost me about 5 mins or so. It’s really unusual because I’m normally super paranoid about going to the toilet right before. Maybe it’s because I had a smoothie and kept drinking water the whole morning. The examiner/supervisor was nice because she did a bit of a jog with me toward the toilets, even though she was old. ;D

Physics!!
Yay! The exam I’ve felt the best about! It was so much shorter than chem, and I had time spare at the end. There was nothing I found particularly difficult. The 4 mark one about the Xray diffraction and finding the frequency stumped me a lot, and I came back to it at the end and was super mad at it. I spent like 20 mins trying to think of how to do it, and then it finally came to me!! And so I’m really happy about that. From some of the discussion, I know there are a few things I’ve gotten wrong, but hopefully I didn’t make any calculator error (which I always seem to do). But because a lot of people found it easy, it’s gonna be more competitive, so hopefully I can get maybe in the low 40s? I wanted to beat bio, so maybe over 42?

I just realised I’m not really cold any more! Is it a secret heater, or maybe typing does generate a lot of warmth haha.

I’m really looking forward to going to Phillip island with my friends!! It’ll be so cool to relax and be independent! And I have so many crafty projects I want to do after exams. I have to find a part time job as well.

Thanks for reading!!
Owlbird!  ;D

(I was recently told that I use a lot of exclamation marks!)
Well done on your exams!!!
I seem to have gone about the same as you in chem methods and physics - that is to say dissapointed by chem and methods and very suprised by physics. Hopefully both methods and chem turn out alright and that we are perhaps making it out worse than it actually is.
Good luck with your Jap exam and with the more immediate stuggle of staying warm!
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: caffinatedloz on November 13, 2019, 05:06:29 pm
I’m really looking forward to going to Phillip island with my friends!! It’ll be so cool to relax and be independent! And I have so many crafty projects I want to do after exams. I have to find a part time job as well.
That sounds like so much fun!! You'll have to show us some pictures of your crafty projects. ;D

Good luck preparing for Japanese!
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Snow Leopard on November 24, 2019, 04:50:39 pm
How'd the Japanese exam go, Owlbird83?
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on November 24, 2019, 06:32:12 pm
How'd the Japanese exam go, Owlbird83?

Hi Snow Leopard!!

It went really well! Apparently it was an easy exam this year, which is not the best, because I know I definitely lost some marks, and plus I always lose marks from writing wrong particles/kanji, but mainly, it was pretty good! I think normally 10 marks can be lost to still get a 40, but since it's easier this year, it's most likely less than that, so although a 40 would be nice, I'm predicting a possible 37?

I actually freaked out about a week before the exam, because I did last year's practice exam, and got a score that correlated to a 33 SS. I had done zero Japanese since the oral, and completely focused on all of my other subjects because I didn't feel like Jap was that bad. So after that, I studied the most I had all year I think, and did 7 practice exams in 3 days plus writing out the kanji/words I'd gotten wrong 20 times each. Then the day before, I also spent the whole day at school doing more parts of exams, but I was very tired and my hand was sore from writing, and I don't think it was helpful. I'm grateful to my dad for being strict and motivating me to study so hard those last few days though, because I didn't really have a good mindset, and thought I couldn't really be bothered and that no extra study would help me improve, and was ready to accept the possible 33.

Wooo! Exams over!!

I made a large list of things I wanted to do after exams. I haven't done any yet though. My main priority is getting a part time job. I have applied for heaps, so hopefully someplace accepts me!

Today was such nice weather! I had a good day because I always feel happy when it's sunny and warm! I went with my family and did some bushwalking, and then we went to a market and bought heaps of cheap fruit and vegies. And then I went for a run and did some yoga! I feel very productive!


Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: caffinatedloz on November 25, 2019, 06:39:17 am
I feel very productive!
It sounds like you were very productive! You must be enjoying your freedom!!

Best of luck with the part-time job situation! ;D
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: eemmaa on December 27, 2019, 09:55:14 am
Hey Owlbird! How's life post-VCE? What are your plans for 2020?
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on January 30, 2020, 12:34:30 pm
Hey Owlbird! How's life post-VCE? What are your plans for 2020?

Hi eemmaa! Thanks for your post!!  ;D

I'm doing a bachelor of psychology as Monash uni this year!


It has been a long time!
I was going to post and then I have been lazy!


It feels too late to describe my feelings about my scores, so I’ll do it really briefly!
Spoiler
Methods: 37 A bit higher than I expected after feeling horrible about the exams.
English: 41 Yay! Around what I expected and I was really happy!
Physics: 41 A bit lower than I expected considering the exam seemed so easy. I lost 23 marks according to the statement of marks, which was a lot more than I thought lol.
Chemistry: 42 I was very amazed. How did I do better on chem than physics! Chem was so hard! I expected in the thirties. I lost 26.5 marks on the exam.
Japanese: 43 Yayayay! I was proud! I did better than any practice exam.
Atar: 98.2 Much higher than I expected! I was very surprised!
I feel like I’m dredging up something that’s now irrelevant by posting this so late, but I feel like I need to put the scores in my VCE journal or it seems incomplete hehe.


UNI THOUGHTS!!!

Wooo! So exciting!
I’m nervous though about making friends and meeting new people.
I’m so excited about the o week activities. I was looking through them all, and I want to go to everything, but there are some time clashes haha. I should be trying to make new friends and be social, but I don’t feel comfortable going to major activities that my friends aren’t going to. I’m normally (slightly) less nervous about doing things by myself, maybe once I’ve been to a couple of things I’ll start feeling less nervous to be social.

I had been originally thinking of doing a bachelor of science, but then the night before preferences closed I freaked out and thought ‘what am I doing with my life?!!’ and I changed to physio, but then the next day, I changed to a Bachelor of Psychology, and stayed with that. I’m excited to do psychology! Even though I didn’t study it in VCE, it’s an interesting topic, so hopefully I will enjoy it, because I do like reading articles and researching psych stuff. The main reason I changed was because I had no end goal for science and I was worried I’d graduate with no job. I feel more comfortable knowing I have something to aim for now. It’s 6 years altogether to become a psychologist.
I’m really happy with my decision of Monash uni, (I mean I haven’t studied there yet, but I do feel content with the vibe of everything so far).

I still haven’t found a part time job ahhhh. I feel un-independent and dependent, and lazy. I’ve handed in many resumes at my local shops and applied online for all the big companies. I only got one opportunity for a phone interview, but I was rejected. Another of my friends is feeling the same as me, I feel bad for her, since she’s been looking for a job much longer than I have. I’ll keep trying and applying, so hopefully before uni starts I can find somewhere.

It’s cool that we have so long for holidays! I haven’t done a large amount of the productive stuff I planned on doing these holidays yet.
I keep switching between ‘ahhh I want uni to start right now, why is it still a month away’ and ‘ahhhh my holidays are depleting and I’ve done nothing productive, uni is coming too so soon’.

Goodluck guys with starting off the year!!
 ;D ;D ;D
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on February 16, 2020, 09:00:33 pm
Hi!  ;D ;D ;D

I’m currently sitting at a library after my first tutoring session ahhhh!!  (or I was when I first started typing this post)

I was not planning on becoming a tutor this year, exemplified in my after-exam-chucking-out-of-every-resource-I-owned which is a bit annoying when I think about notes and stuff I no longer have heh heh.

My chemistry teacher messaged our class asking if anyone wanted to tutor one of her students, and I originally thought ‘nah I can’t’ because I had considered tutoring before, but never actually thought I was capable. However, after thinking for a whole day, I decided to message her back with a message that highlighted my uncertainty, but possible interest in tutoring. I was hesitant because I was worried that I lacked the social skills and confidence to teach someone. Also, although I got the second highest score for chem in my cohort I was/(am) worried that I wouldn’t be able to answer some questions or not be good at helping someone else understand how to answer questions. There is another student from my class who didn’t get as high score as me, who is tutoring one of this years year 12s, but he has very high people skills and confidence and teacher-ness, whereas I am socially awkward.

My chem teacher seemed to think I would be a good tutor though, and so I got really excited about being able to teach someone!! It is a great opportunity for me, and I really enjoyed chemistry last year, and felt confident in most of the course.

My current goal is becoming a psychologist, but before then I want to have built up my people skills enough that I am comfortable in talking to people one on one and can carry conversations so I can make the other person feel comfortable, so I think tutoring is a step in the right direction for me.

I think there’s a scale of charisma/people skills where everyone is at, with the top level is being comfortable and making everyone around you feel comfortable and relaxed and valued. It is my goal to get there.

I have revised so much chem recently, because I had flushed my mind of all VCE. I think I must have a bad memory, idk, I think I purposely chose to forget everything when the exam was over, and deleted it all from my brain-files, now I’m trying to fish out what I can from my brain-recycle bin, and relearn stuff.

Luckily my student aHH that sounds weird, I am tutor AHHH! sent me some stoichiometry questions that she didn’t understand, so I was able to do them at home, and felt less worried about anything unexpected popping up.
I feel like I don’t YET, have the ideal confident manner of a tutor. I don’t want to be too self critical, but I need to stop saying ‘umm’, ‘I think’ ‘random stuttering and pauses’. I think labelling yourself as ‘awkward’ and ‘bad at talking to people’, can cause you to display those characteristics more than you actually are though.

Thinking positively, I feel really happy about teaching her stoichiometry!! She said she had never understood it, but now she gets what to do!! Yay!! I feel like I achieved something!! I think I was able to explain it well enough, and convey the information clearly mostly, and I felt confident in my knowledge on the content! I feel a bit uncomfortable getting paid, because it makes me question whether I am worth receiving money for my time, and the quality of my teaching. Also, I thought it would be too much pressure, but its good because now when I am relearning chemistry, it’s not my marks on the line, it’s someone else, so it’s even more important to understand it. I think it went well though, and she seemed happy, and expecting to continue tutoring throughout the year, so I really hope so!!

Also, after we had been sitting at a table in the library for about 30mins, I realised we were sitting in the ‘quiet area’ oops, it was too late to move I think, but I felt bad for those studying around us, because they might have been disrupted from the talking.
I feel like this evaluation sounds too negative overall, because I’ve focussed on my insecurities, but it was so exciting to tutor someone!! I really hope I can make a strong positive influence on my students chemistry confidence and knowledge and marks!!!

Change of topic!
I recently started a gratitude journal that I have actually continued for 19days so far without missing any days!! It’s so fun! It’s on my phone, on an app which is why I think I have been so good at adding entries because I am addicted to my phone! hehe. Not only this, I started using an app called ‘daylio’ where you click a smileyface (either rad/good/meh/bad/awful), and click the activities you did that day! I really like it, I’m not sure what benefit it is meant to have, but I like seeing the line graph showing my mood for the past week/month/year. It had made me more mindful and conscious of how I feel and what I do each day, because it feels like there are endless holidays, so at it’s encouraging me to evaluate my days make them more meaningful, rather than let them flow away mindlessly. Also, my friend found a fitness app called ‘fiton’, where you can do workouts, and challenge others, which is an awesome idea because I thrive from competition!! I feel much more motivated to do it when I have to beat someone else! (we are both still on one workout each hehe).

Thanks for reading!!  ;D ;D ;D
Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Sine on February 16, 2020, 10:13:44 pm
I was in a similar position to you after year 12 – starting tutoring in the summer holidays that I got my ATAR and study scores. You will get more comfortable over time and it is a great way to enhance your communication skills. 

I have revised so much chem recently, because I had flushed my mind of all VCE. I think I must have a bad memory, idk, I think I purposely chose to forget everything when the exam was over, and deleted it all from my brain-files, now I’m trying to fish out what I can from my brain-recycle bin, and relearn stuff.
At least this shows that you have commitment towards your students – definitely not something that every teacher/tutor has. 
I feel like I don’t YET, have the ideal confident manner of a tutor. I don’t want to be too self critical, but I need to stop saying ‘umm’, ‘I think’ ‘random stuttering and pauses’. I think labelling yourself as ‘awkward’ and ‘bad at talking to people’, can cause you to display those characteristics more than you actually are though.
Again, you definitely will improve with time – Anecdotally the first tutoring lesson is tough for most people. Also pausing to answer questions is not a bad thing – it shows that you are actually thinking and considering all the factors before you go for your explanation.

Also, I thought it would be too much pressure, but its good because now when I am relearning chemistry, it’s not my marks on the line, it’s someone else, so it’s even more important to understand it. I think it went well though, and she seemed happy, and expecting to continue tutoring throughout the year, so I really hope so!!
Definitely felt the same way in terms of it being so important to properly understand/explain concepts for students.

Happy to answer any questions you had :) Also I'm assuming you will be tutoring at Monash, Clayton?


Title: Re: Owlbird's Journey!
Post by: Owlbird83 on February 17, 2020, 08:56:08 am
I was in a similar position to you after year 12 – starting tutoring in the summer holidays that I got my ATAR and study scores. You will get more comfortable over time and it is a great way to enhance your communication skills. 
At least this shows that you have commitment towards your students – definitely not something that every teacher/tutor has.  Again, you definitely will improve with time – Anecdotally the first tutoring lesson is tough for most people. Also pausing to answer questions is not a bad thing – it shows that you are actually thinking and considering all the factors before you go for your explanation.
Definitely felt the same way in terms of it being so important to properly understand/explain concepts for students.

Happy to answer any questions you had :) Also I'm assuming you will be tutoring at Monash, Clayton?

Hi Sine! Thanks for your reply!

Hopefully I will become more comfortable over time! I'm excited to teach her more chemistry!

Thank you! I read some of your posts on the tutoring thread that were helpful to me!  :)

I'm tutoring at a library near my high school!