ARGHH

[Surgeon]

F*** my life.

I can never seem to achieve what I want to.

I f***** up my two 3/4s last year and made a promise to myself that I would study extremely hard and get a high ATAR.

I'm too f****** stupid to do that though.

The reality is starting to set in that I won't get a 50 in English and Business Management and I won't get a 40 in Chemistry and Methods.

I mean for f**** sake, I've got a chemistry SAC tomorrow and I suck at everything!

I just wonder why I've got such high goals, sometimes.

It just feels as though it would be easier to give up. I don't want to do that though.

I feel like just curling up in the fetal position in my bed and crying myself to sleep, letting all of my worries, pain and stupidity out.

I feel worthless.

I'm so f*****. So incredibly f***** that I can help but just laugh manically.

I have no idea what to do.

I have no idea how I'll react if I get a shit UMAT result. Onl about a month until results.

Sorry for posting this, I just had to get it off my chest and my parents aren't understanding.

[FlorianK]

calm down and do your trials

[saheh]

Heeeeeeeeeeeey
I feel exactly the same, so you're not alone
The whole achieving thing is the absolute bummest feeling, when you pour your heart and soul into something, and never quite get it, or just second best, you question yourself, why can't I be good enough, why not me?


I've just been reading a lot lately and have come to the realization that this is just a small section of our life, a tiny blip in existence, so why should we be made to feel like this? ..I mean there are people who are so much worse off, so we should just relax, and realize it isn't the end of the world

I reckon it's all about just picking ourselves back up again, and carrying on
Don't let the system define you
I've shifted my perspective, and I'll be happy with whatever scores I get at the end of the year, because I know I'll never be the best, but I am proud of myself for at least trying, and I'm not letting this year get to me because what's the point? It's a small part of our lives..and really after this year and once in uni, the whole score system doesn't matter that much

Keep your chin up and I hope this helps a little, if not just realize you're not the only one

[Surgeon]

calm down and do your trials

No where near starting trials yet!!!!

Heeeeeeeeeeeey
I feel exactly the same, so you're not alone
The whole achieving thing is the absolute bummest feeling, when you pour your heart and soul into something, and never quite get it, or just second best, you question yourself, why can't I be good enough, why not me?


I've just been reading a lot lately and have come to the realization that this is just a small section of our life, a tiny blip in existence, so why should we be made to feel like this? ..I mean there are people who are so much worse off, so we should just relax, and realize it isn't the end of the world

I reckon it's all about just picking ourselves back up again, and carrying on
Don't let the system define you
I've shifted my perspective, and I'll be happy with whatever scores I get at the end of the year, because I know I'll never be the best, but I am proud of myself for at least trying, and I'm not letting this year get to me because what's the point? It's a small part of our lives..and really after this year and once in uni, the whole score system doesn't matter that much

Keep your chin up and I hope this helps a little, if not just realize you're not the only one

I just can't bring my self to continue right now man. I just want to give up. I'm physically, mentally and emotionally tired.

[Hancock]

Dude, you can chill. Not copping a 50 for anything is absolutely fine, it just means you are like the other 99.7% of the state that didn't. Even not going 40+ is absolutely fine. Not getting into Medicine isn't going to make everyone hate you or look down on you, similarly, after 1 month of knowing what your ATAR is, no one gives a fuck.

I've seen you on the forums before about high expectations that you have on yourself and your from your family, but they aren't going to stop having you as their son/daughter (? sorry) because your not going to become a doctor/lawyer/engineer/anything prestigious (not sure if you would consider engineering prestigious but I do  ).

Too many Year 12 students think that <99 is horrible. No, it's absolutely not. Anything you achieve is ultimately what you earned, and you should be proud of that, even if you get 78.40 like my mate who had extreme family problems in Year 12.

[ktrah]

I feel like just curling up in the fetal position in my bed and crying myself to sleep, letting all of my worries, pain and stupidity out.

Do this.

Seriously, you should take a break, at least for the rest of tonight - go to bed, get some sleep and feel refreshed for tomorrow. Realise that not getting a high ATAR is not the end of the world even if it seems that way right now. You're obviously not stupid and there are a lot of people in way worse situations than you, so chill out for a bit and think about how lucky you are. Your determination will get you where you want to go eventually.

[Surgeon]

Dude, you can chill. Not copping a 50 for anything is absolutely fine, it just means you are like the other 99.7% of the state that didn't. Even not going 40+ is absolutely fine. Not getting into Medicine isn't going to make everyone hate you or look down on you, similarly, after 1 month of knowing what your ATAR is, no one gives a fuck.

I've seen you on the forums before about high expectations that you have on yourself and your from your family, but they aren't going to stop having you as their son/daughter (? sorry) because your not going to become a doctor/lawyer/engineer/anything prestigious (not sure if you would consider engineering prestigious but I do  ).

Too many Year 12 students think that <99 is horrible. No, it's absolutely not. Anything you achieve is ultimately what you earned, and you should be proud of that, even if you get 78.40 like my mate who had extreme family problems in Year 12.

It's not just my family's expectations of me that drives me.

I hate being second best.

I don't want to live my life doing a job I don't like, making hardly any money, regretting not studying in year 12 and f****** around too much.

I love the best of everything. Whether it be clothing, pens, cars, houses, food, gadgets.

It might sound extremely shallow, but that's me.

I just want to make my self proud. I've given up on caring about what anybody else thinks, including my parents.

If they're not happy with me after I give it my best shot, they can f*** off.

I feel like just curling up in the fetal position in my bed and crying myself to sleep, letting all of my worries, pain and stupidity out.

Do this.

Seriously, you should take a break, at least for the rest of tonight - go to bed, get some sleep and feel refreshed for tomorrow. Realise that not getting a high ATAR is not the end of the world even if it seems that way right now. You're obviously not stupid and there are a lot of people in way worse situations than you, so chill out for a bit and think about how lucky you are. Your determination will get you where you want to go eventually.

To be completely honest, I wish I could cry. I really do. I've just become detached from myself. Teachers, friends and family keep asking me what's wrong and stuff. I was very extroverted and jubilant only weeks ago but year 12 is taking the life out of me.

[charmanderp]

Just curious, why do you feel like you aren't going to get a 50 for English? If you write your exam essay like the ones you've posted in the examples thread, you almost definitely will (adding on from your Unit 3 #1 ranking).

[Starlight]

Surgeon, it sounds like you are about to explode. In saying this however I think that at least some stage in year 12 everyone feels this way.

Getting a 50 isn't the end of the world, I mean the difference between a 45 to 50--> big deal.

I think you need to get your priorities straight, instead of cramming everything in with your free sessions at school, organize everything you aim to achieve that night.

Also, i've noticed your sleeping habits (as you've stated) really aren't helping, Going to sleep at 2 am isn't healthy. And I think what's worse is that you're probably doing homework/ trying to catch up until that time. I think it would really help if you watched a tvshow or something before you go to bed, like once a day won't kill you, you will stop getting so stressed after a while (hopefully).

If you're working incredibly late into the night then there is a problem with how well you are studying. Take a while to find out how you learn best.

Methods, seriously if you do a BILLION practice papers it honestly doesn't matter your sac scores. It's all about exam method.

[Starlight]

Also, how many times do you see your teachers. It just adds to the stress esp. with something like methods where you can look at a problem for like 3 hours and eventually ignoring it. Seriously GO to your teachers maybe every third day or something asking them past exam approaches, strategies etc. Same for whenever you can for every other subject.

The only way I ever improved in a subject was asking questions.

[Surgeon]

Just curious, why do you feel like you aren't going to get a 50 for English? If you write your exam essay like the ones you've posted in the examples thread, you almost definitely will (adding on from your Unit 3 #1 ranking).

I just feel like I will crack under the pressure come exam time.

I could easily get 20/20 on all 3 sections if it wasn't 3 hours back to back. No use complaining about that though, that will never change.

The only way I can get a high score is by writing heaps. I can't be more succinct than I already am, and if I start leaving stuff out, it will no longer be a high scoring piece.

After writing one essay in an hour, my mind is a mess and my hand is aching. I don't know how I will write 3 back to back.

Surgeon, it sounds like you are about to explode. In saying this however I think that at least some stage in year 12 everyone feels this way.

Getting a 50 isn't the end of the world, I mean the difference between a 45 to 50--> big deal.

I think you need to get your priorities straight, instead of cramming everything in with your free sessions at school, organize everything you aim to achieve that night.

Also, i've noticed your sleeping habits (as you've stated) really aren't helping, Going to sleep at 2 am isn't healthy. And I think what's worse is that you're probably doing homework/ trying to catch up until that time. I think it would really help if you watched a tvshow or something before you go to bed, like once a day won't kill you, you will stop getting so stressed after a while (hopefully).

If you're working incredibly late into the night then there is a problem with how well you are studying. Take a while to find out how you learn best.

Methods, seriously if you do a BILLION practice papers it honestly doesn't matter your sac scores. It's all about exam method.

I really need 50 in Bus man and English because I'll do shit in methods and chem and my two subjects from last year are terrible.

I've tried sleeping earlier, I just can't do it. I'm going to bed at 1-1:30 these days and waking up at 6:30-7. Despite finding it very difficult to get out of bed, I'm not particularly tired for the rest of the day. I wish I could sleep earlier. In year 10/11, I used to sleep at 3-4. Not because I was studying either :/

Also, how many times do you see your teachers. It just adds to the stress esp. with something like methods where you can look at a problem for like 3 hours and eventually ignoring it. Seriously GO to your teachers maybe every third day or something asking them past exam approaches, strategies etc. Same for whenever you can for every other subject.

The only way I ever improved in a subject was asking questions.

I see my teachers every 2-3 days

[charmanderp]

Or get a tutor. I've NEVER been tutored myself before this year, but then realised that I'm woeful at Methods. Got a tutor who explains things very thoroughly and clearly in a basic manner and it has seriously prevented me from tearing my hair out, even though my SAC marks aren't too flash.

[Hancock]

Yeah I understand what your saying, because I'm exactly like that too. However, being in a job that pays well, and being in job that you love are not mutually exclusive. You can get jobs that you like that pay shit all, or get jobs that pay extremely well that you hate. You first have to find out what you want to do (Med or Law from what I've been seeing, not a stalker guys).

When you find out what you actually want to do as a job, which is difficult for a year 12, I think you won't be as stressed. But take the advise from a lot of people here and take a day off or 2. It'll clear you head.

[pi]

Getting a 50 isn't the end of the world, I mean the difference between a 45 to 50--> big deal.

This. There are so many people on AN aiming for 50, some will get there (and have got there) and some won't. But seriously, not getting a 50 is a VERY long way from a disaster, as El2012 correctly said.

For me, I was realistic, I knew I would never get there so I planned my aims accordingly. If you've got an aim for a 50, it should be an AIM, not a source of self-pressure. If it's the latter, then it's not a realistic goal.

As I've said before, my reasoning is that we should all no play a numbers game, but instead, play a "do the best we can" game.

[Starlight]

Surgeon, for methods etc. Perhaps post your questions here, maybe you don't like the way your teacher explains concepts to you. When exams are right around the corner, use vcenotes to your advantage. I asked a billion questions for my chem exam for uni and at least someone responded each day I asked them.