VERY worried. I seem to have a 'don't give a damn' attitude lapsing into my fragile mentality.
E.g. studied heaps for Further Maths and was quite pumped for it and when I got to the last question about the four point moving average and/or centred or whatever it was I failed to comprehend, in that moment, I just didn't give a damn about school anymore...
After the Maths SAC, instead of studying for English or another Maths SAC on Thursday, I went to the school library and printed off potential courses I am interested in and instead went to my careers advisor on some clarification. Priorities gone astray?
Also today I went to my politics teacher and asked where I could improve and how I was disappointed with my marks - he just said I should control what I can control, that I am underestimating myself and should not worry about anything else. I wanted to know what the top students were doing years previous, and spent 40 minutes talking to my teacher about this. Waste of energy?
People who hardly studied before and are now trying to a degree, are being Albert Einstein's and coming up with new and effective ways of getting fantastic objective marks, which supersede my own which has been built on the foundation of a strong work ethic from about Year 7 1/2 onwards.
I and my politics teacher are getting disappointed with my application of energies towards certain subject matters.
I seem to find it hard to concentrate fully, with all the external VCE pressure/competition going on at the moment. E.g. students wanting me to fail in Business Management...
Numerous factors which are out of my control and yet I cannot stop worrying about them... It's like I am the only one thinking about these things...