I feel like l am not improving. Help.

[shadows]

I was ambivalent whether I should have posted this because I feel kind of selfish whining on atarnotes when I know there are people out there with bigger problems. I don't know if me posting this will even  help me improve. Let me get this straight. My results are good. I can't go blab around saying how shit my results are because if I am getting As etc for practise exams, then the majority would score lower than that..... I think I would have been happy with the results I am getting... but I am not.
Considering I have put so much work into Methods this year my only 3/4. I feel the need to do good. I feel like I deserve to get a really good score. Because I was never seen as the smart guy,
and a lot of people thought I was joking when I told them I was doing methods 3/4 this year, and told me I would have regretted my decision and should have done psych instead...

I am starting to panic as my exams are like next week, and I feel like my practise exam results are starting to get worse. o.o.

I honestly don't know what I am expecting. Sometimes I just get really confident and I feel like I can smash those exams and that I am in good-stead, but sometimes I feel like I just won't make it. Like now.

It is terrifying. It's kind of weird because I am actually proud of myself and I amount of work I have put in to this regardless of what score I get... But then I feel like I need to get a score that will disprove all who have doubted me. I have always refrained from setting a score I should achieve for, because It would suck if you did not get it.

I really want a 40. I don't know why. I think I want to be a teacher and do a bachelor of education, maybe with a science degree. I definitely don't need a 40+ to get into that course. But I just want that score. So come exam day, when everyone goes and checks the small amount of people who got a 40+ , there. my name will be there.

I don't think anyone expects me do get a 40. There's 2 people everyone's betting will get 40 in methods... but not me. I haven't really shared my SAC scores throughout the year, because no one really asks me (thank god), and I think a lot of people think I gave up on the subject along time ago...

Is it really that conceited to just want a 40 in methods to rub it in people's faces?

I did an exam 2 2007 and I did not finish. D: Really disappointing and quite scary considering I am wanting a 40.

I got a 63/80. A+ cut off . But just.       I got 36/40 for exam 1 (2007)
and my sacs are A...  so I don't think that would make a 40. I feel like my goal is soo close yet soo distant. Time and time again I feel like the only things tripping me are silly mistakes and my use of time. (I start taking my time and go through slowly, and near the end I realise that I am short for time and rush everything etcc)

Gah! Why am I whining anyway? I honestly don't know what to expect come next Wednesday.


 

[Starlight]

To be honest, I think you might just need a break from doing a methods paper. By giving yourself a day off, you will be fired and ready to go the extra mile the next few days. You've got to give yourself the time to relax your brain for just a little while, you know you've got the foundations and I assure you all your knowledge will not be lost in a day of closing all your maths books.

[Starlight]

Wish me luck on English in two days' time

Good luck to the entire English cohort in two days time.

[lala1911]

Make a mistake log. Log whatever you lose marks on. Set aside time to improve on it. Re-do the question(s).