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HSC Journal- The Final Years of School
clovvy:
Half yearlies surely stress me out to the point of difficulty sleeping and have my daily thoughts disrupted, well at least I have seen the councellor and have come up with plans on tackling them...
Whenever I feel anxious, I know it can hinder my overall progress so I tried to keep telling myself a little progress is far better than none at all...
So I decided to:
1.write all of my worries
2.write the causes and reason
3.write down the current situation
4.write down possible solutioms
5.execute it, and put worry aside (which is not easy tbh)....
So today I felt better than my usual mornings with this approach, and knowing that creative is my weakest, I decided to practice for 40 minutes and see how I go (a friend is also there).. I am using the Sydney Girls 2016 paper as a stimulus and it went terribly... I recognize how weak I am in it, as well as my lack of vocabulary and ability to comprehend texts for short responses.... I got stressed but I have to keep telling myself it is better to know sooner than later... I know I am struggling now but I can still do better in the actual exam
... I have to keep telling myself that...
I may have a perfectionist attitude and prone to ditch drafts if I hate it... So my progress is very very slow..
Same goes for physics as I have difficulty understanding and remembering contents... I panicked and it did affect me for days, so I write about that too and do more passpapers open book at first.. I am scared but that will not help.. So I just have to do what I have to do..
Now it seems that the HSC is more about mind game than it is about content as the syllabus is there and it tells you exactly what I needed to know, so remaining positive must be something I struggled with the most..
jamonwindeyer:
I like that you've got strategies in place to keep yourself healthy Clovvy, and to get yourself geared up for exams.
Half yearlies are seriously no big deal, definitely not worth getting stressed about. Work as hard as you can, keep yourself feeling good, and whatever happens happens - Just one chance out of many to do well this year ;D
clovvy:
Update on exams:
Basically I know that in exams it won't help if you are anxious as it hinders your performace on the day and won't let you think clearly. It is evident with my performance. First week I felt no anxiety at all for Physics which let me think more clearly. My 2U exam I have a little bit of anxiety that doesn't hurt much.
Today I had english, I have prepared for my essay and my creative which is not too great... In the exam and before the exam, I conditioned myself to not be anxious and keep telling myself I will do better this half yearly than my year 11 half yearly as I have prepared more... But the opposite seems true as I get anxious after 40 minutes and as a result it eats away 1 hour of my exam as I froze and could not write after not being able to answer 2 of the short response question (I am slow at interpreting and analysing)... The anxiety left me virtually no time for creative and I only finished my intro and incomplete first and second paragraph for essay... I was devastated because the question works very nicely with my prepared essay.... I have lost about 23 marks and most likely lost most of my marks in the essay and bits and pieces of mistakes in my short responses.... I was horrified at the end as I have indeed prepared for this exam yet anxiety gets the good of me, it took me one hour to really remove the anxiety that hinders me from working... That whole paper 1 was horrific, not because it was hard.. But it was because of anxiety attack that came out of nowhere from merely going over 40 minutes for short response... as a result I failed to maximise my marks... Right after the exam, I decided to see the councellor where we chatted for a few hours.. She told me that she is more than willing to help if there is a possibility appeal and I by the way she sees it, I do suffer from anxiety (my summer holidays became unproductive because of this too, I did not relax yet I am not getting much work done because of it, it was prolonged and it took tremendous amount of effort to put it aside, which is why I was able to cope with physics which arguably is one of my weakest yet fail to do so with english)... Therefore she suggested that if possible I should make an appeal and get a misadventure form signed and get a doctor certificate (I haven't been to doctors for these kind of stuff after year 11)..., I refused to get special provision simply because I believe I do not deserve it at all, and that I have no mental illness of any sort.. Even though I was given the suggestion to appeal, I do not believe I have any right to do so as I do procrastinate a lot with my own fingernails (yeah one of those habits do distract me, I tried on multiple occasions to resist it)... Assuming 0 out of 15% (definitely not 0, I should get marks here and there somewhere), I have lost 1% and 4.5% on my previous assessments for english... To make up for this for a band 6 or high band 5, I might need to get 100% on ALL of my other assessments which seems impossible... Therefore I do wonder if there is any possiblity to make up for this (my rank definitely drops drastically from here)
Now I have no time to stress and learn to move on for my next exams,I learn this from first hand experience in term 1... Now I do wonder if I should get an appointment with a GP or not
jamonwindeyer:
--- Quote from: clovvy on April 09, 2018, 07:39:02 pm ---Here I am sitting at my study table still feeling the impact of that exam... The devastation of paper 1 discovery for half yearlies.. I cannot bear how I lost 1 hour to anxiety where if I keep calm, I could at least finish with my essay as the question works with my essay..... That got into my study for my next exam which is not good, and at the same time I do feel that I need to find a way to calm down... tomorrow is my extension 1 followed by chemistry on the same day. Extension 2 after that.... Now now I just hope anxiety did not get the good of me again like it did for english....... In all honesty, this half yearly do make me feel like the atar goal of 97-98+ is drifting away due to that english exam for paper 1 but I cannot let that get into me, I have read Jamon's article about half yearlies over and over again, desperately trying to keep positive regardless of situation... man this sucks!!...
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Don't despair, you are jumping to conclusions before you've gotten results! They probably won't be as bad as you think ;D
Best of luck for the rest of the exams. Stay positive!
dcesaona:
I can relate to you so much at the moment. I do english standard as well and I am determined (as you are) to get a band 6! In fact, I think I may have read a sampler of your creative that you posted in one of the forums - and I think I commented on it with improvements! ;) Btw, I remember really loving it! Anyways, I get really anxious, like you, about exams and I have the same strategy. I write down what's stressing me out (I do this on ATAR notes as well as in a physical diary so I can get down more details etc.) A problem I have (which I don't think you do, having read almost all of your posts in this thread) is motivation, so I also include a quote at the end of every entry haha.
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