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"How to cruise through the HSC with a state of ignorance" A story by Fergus

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Fergus6748:
Heya guys, it's been way too long and a bunch of things have happened so I'm gonna break these down into small posts like this tiny one just so I don't get overwhelmed. Also i had tryed to make a really long one but while I was writing it I accidentedly closed the tab and lost everything I wrote so Im not falling down that hole again. First and foremost, I started watching Brooklyn Nine Nine again, it was an accident at first since I clicked on the wrong thing, but then I started watching it and now I have to watch the whole thing over (cause its B99!!). Thats as good a start as any other!!

Fergus6748:
Numero uno post (not including the first). The last time I posted way back at the start of trials. I had just completed my first paper (English Paper one trial) I enjoyed it just as I enjoyed writing Paper Two, the biggest thing that got me down though was my marks. I felt that I had prepared reasonably well for them coming in (couldve down heaps more, but Im inherently not overly motivated for english) so it was a pretty big shock when I was sitting bottom twenty people with 51% on my trial. I got my mark back a few weeks ago so Im not too angery anymore, but at the time I thought i had been scammed. particularly on discovery essay with a 9/15. Of all the parts, I felt most confident about that. I ran out of time for both papers so I didn't complete Mod A and creative and the marks reflected that (7/20 and 6/15 respectively) but that was already a given going in. I also didn't finish the five marker short answer so I dropped those marks as well (10/15). I was expecting better marks from mod b and c, particularly mod b as I smashed that during internals, I got 12/20 for both of those. English was a pretty big disappointment overall. Ive never been very good at english and havent held much love for the subject but I was pretty devastestated to get those marks. I had been seeing a tutor throughout the year and had really picked up on my english study but aparantly that wasn't worth much. I dont wanna gripe too much about my teacher since it is largely my fault for not doing well, but I seriously dont like my teacher. she hasnt been very supportive for me over the past two years and is only concerns herself with the people she likes/those who do well (namely not me), an opinion shared by most of my year, so its not just my subjective opinion. anyway gripe over. Ive mostly gotten over that anyway as if it was going to happen to one of my subjects im happy it happened to english. English is a subject that obeys no laws of reason and to attempt to better yourself by understanding it would only leave you burned for the effort. I am not an english person, and never will be. my heart is solely set upon STEM, and actually useful and constructive fields of study. Now wait you might say that english makes us think. and you would be wrong of course as english as a subject goes out of its way to belittle and insult those who try to understand it. Philosophy on the hand, is a field that provokes great thought and encourages everyone to partake without causing people to think that their perspectives don't matter. As you can see, I have very distinct/sharp thoughts about HSC English that I could go into for great length but I did say that my gripes were over a few lines up so i will leave it there. thank you for reading all my tangents about english and its uselessness within society. Until next time!!

Fergus6748:
Kinda left the post hanging there for a bit. My other subjects ranged from fine to pretty good, or at least ranking wise. Marks wise was bit eh. I was more worried about my rank, since Im working on boosting my marks now with da past papers. Maths I got 87% which was pretty good, and Im happy with that, but Extension 1 maths I got 66% which was a bit disappointing getting back but expected. Extension kinda got put aside on the study pile. Economics 65-70% (not sure on the figure), which was alright, chemistry I got (61%) which ranked pretty well and is my average mark over the year so I wasnt too stressed over the mark. Physics got me 68% which I messed up since I didnt prepare for the optional topic very much so that cost me. Oh yeah forgot, for economics they made us study the whole course rather than the standard first three topics for the exam. so we had to press and prepare the fourth topic (we did topic three last after topic four) just before trials. That was pretty cruel and annoying but it worked out ok. Overall the trials was a stressful experience and pretty draining. I spent many weeks afterwards trying to relax and rejuvanate myself. It was a pretty difficult slog to get back into a study mindset after those few weeks off. Ill leave it there.

Fergus6748:
Heya. I think I've gotta fess up to not being able to commit to this journal. I started middle of the year and have only made a few posts which isn't the worst.

There is a fair bit of melancholy going around as we're in the final weeks of exams, that we are finally free to do what we want. That's the thing though. After 13 years of school, to be cut off now having known nothing except school is a very scary thought and quite encompassing if you grant it space to grow. I'm honestly a little afraid of what the future holds. I what to follow my passions but it is so easy to lose sight of what's important and lose motivation to strive for your goals.

I've got four more exams left over the next two weeks. I don't think I've prepared enough for them. Every paper I do only really serves to highlight how little I know on answering exam questions. While some might be quick to say that I'm just not good at exams. Reality is that we are a community of unique people living in the rigid and uniform world of our elders, that doesn't really grant a lot of room to innovate and grow in our own directions. That's the way of it in a constantly evolving world, we are subject to the whims of those who came before. It's so easy to fall into the entrapping circular thought of frustration and anger at the issues of the world. Society is incredibly interesting and frustrating at the same time. The best thing that any of us can do is try to keep an openmind to the perspectives of others. Anger only escalates situations whereas compassion and reason provide solutions.

Not too sure what this post and further this journal is and what it is evolving into as I undergo some of the biggest coming of age changes in my life but I guess the only thing for it is to take day by day. Peace out to any one reading.

Fergus6748:
Phew!! Two more exams done!!! So so close to finishing. Struggling to keep up the work grind to the end. Although with freedom so close, it is incredibly tempting to just relax completely. *Sigh* all well. Ever forward. So basically, I have finished Extension 1 Maths and Physics and only have Chemistry and Economics left. Whoop, Whoop!!

Extension was uber hard. From what I've been told a lot of people struggled, which is great for all of us!! I didn't have any expectations gonig in and wasnt to suprised to see that it was a really hard test after Advanced Maths. Personally, I didn't manage to finish the exam. Question 14 was really big struggle and it didn't help that I was only figuring stuff out in the last 30 minutes, aha. I spent most of the paper reading through the questions and getting the easy stuff out of the way and then trying to tackle everything else, and the last 30 minutes scrambling to write everything I managed to figure out at the end. It was a really weird feeling, Maths was one of the subjects I kinda took for granted, I didn't really put much thought to it, as it is a pretty straight forward subject and all my others needed more of my attention. So, I really enjoyed the maths classes and will miss it, funnily enough.

Physics was ok. It wasn't too hard but wasn't too bad either it was just average. I put a fair bit of work into it and felt pretty good coming out of it. Kinda blancked ;) on the standard model question in the optional topic so I kinda just figuratively spewed my thoughts onto the page for the seven-marker. Most of my year, shared my thoughts about the test as it not overly significant. Physics is my favourite science just not my best, frustratingly enough which pretty much sums up my expereince of studying Physics in the HSC. I hope to go on and further study physics at uni and try and get into a research position or maybe even teaching. It's still pretty undecided. Overall, I enjoyed physics as a subject just not necessarily in class.

Really, it has been a really weird exam period. For almost half of our time at school has been teachers hyping up the HSC, and it really wasn't much of an experience. Granted, I haven't finished my exams yet but I'm sure that I'm not alone in saying that the HSC has been overhyped all these years, and it is not as climatic as I was expecting. To be graduated, but still going to school in exams, is a really weird feeling. We can't go back but we are still stuck in place before we can move forwards.

Thanks a bunch!! I really enjoyed school particularly year 12. Without a doubt the best year of my schooling. I will miss it.

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