Have had a hectic weekend in terms of emotions, but it managed to be one of the most productive ones yet! I didn't do anything besides my major work, which I deeply regret, but I'm also super happy with the progress I've made on my project. I spent 10+ hours in total (the remainder of the days I spent at work) on it and edited maybe 5-6 seconds? Which is honestly amazing - I've had a major creative streak lately, so I'm trying to maximise my use out of it while it lasts!! My first progress draft is due today, and while I haven't finished, I reckon I've done more than anyone else in my class anyway.
On Saturday at work, my supervisor was in a bad mood and took his anger out on me in a really passive way. I suppose I was kinda in the wrong, but it didn't directly impact the customers or anything, PLUS it is something that we all do to save time and is usually not even paid attention to. I actually would've rectified it, but seeing as my co worker was on break and there was noone available to make the food (there was already a major queue), I didn't think it was worth it when it was so insignificant. Anyways, I had gone through a fair share of shit that day, and just having that happen put me in a position that reminded me of a really traumatic time in my life. It wasn't even because of him tbh, I can usually take a yelling without giving a shit, but he made me feel so shitty that I began questioning my integrity and myself and everything - so I didn't speak up about the circumstances. I was just quietly apologising in awkwardness while he was patronising me, and I didn't even show any emotion in that moment. But as I started doing the bowls, I could feel my tears coming but I was trying to resist. When I was yelling out the names of the customers, I was doing it much quieter than usual because I was afraid someone would hear it in my voice. As soon as I had finished making the queue of orders, I left the premises to have a good cry lol. Honest to god, I'm still angry at him for fucking me over like that - because we usually have a really good relationship and he always trusts me with everything at work. It was fine after, but yeah that was debilitating to have to live through.