Hi pans,
It's great to see that you've started a VCE journal!
I'm sorry to hear you are having a bit of a tough time at the moment, but glad that you feel that this is a safe space to share your thoughts and feelings.
Reflecting back on my own year 11 & 12 experience, one thing that stuck with me is that these two years are a marathon, not a sprint. Two years is actually a lot of time, if you think about it. On the err on sounding cliche, not one mark defines you, nor defines your VCE outcome or ATAR, and it does not define all that you are bound to learn along the way in the next 2 years.
It is definitely ok to be feeling overwhelmed, but if this is the case, I would encourage you to reach out to teachers and classmates, and let them know! Although it may seem like year 11 & 12 is all about competition, at the end of the day, school learning is designed to be collaborative and being able to share the joys and stresses of the journey can help to sustain you through it all.
My advice would be to investigate different study styles that perhaps you haven't tried before. There has just been an influx of helpful info posted on this forum about study skills and styles, which I would encourage you to check out
here. Take it one day at a time, one small task to the next. If you have any more specific questions about studying or subjects, make use of the amazing resources and advice givers on Atar Notes.
I look forward to hearing more about your journey.