Hey everyone,
Glad to finally be starting a journal here after being a longtime lurker! I used to use ATAR Notes throughout VCE and had an account on here (my username was geminii) but I've forgotten my password so I can't get in, lol. Now I'm in university doing a Bachelor of Mechanical Engineering (Honours) and a Bachelor of Biomedical Science (as a double degree) at Monash University, and I'm halfway through my second year. Yes it's pretty tough - especially the engineering part.
The main reason I decided to start this journal is that I haven't been doing as well as I used to. It's caused my confidence to go down, I often find myself telling myself that I'm not smart or capable, or that I can just never reach my goals. It's been very difficult. I feel like I'm stuck and I'll never become unstuck.
I failed a subject last semester and that really hit me hard, basically cementing my belief that I wasn't good enough. This semester things didn't go too well either - results come out in 7 days and I'm petrified. I hate feeling this way every six months so I've decided I'm going to slap myself out of this autopilot way of life that I adopted since graduating and start actually trying to do better, and ignore the negative voices in my head.
Starting tomorrow I will start studying for all the subjects I'm doing next semester. They are:
- MEC2404: Mechanics of Fluids
- ENG2005: Advanced Mathematics
- BMS1062: Molecular Biology
- BMS1042: Public Health & Preventive Medicine
I'm especially concerned about MEC2404 since it's engineering subjects that I usually struggle with...I've also looked at the textbooks and they don't make much sense to me. So that subject is definitely my focus.
I'm least worried about BMS1042 since it seems pretty similar to the VCE subject Health & Human Development (from what I can tell). There's limited resources online for all these subjects so I can't completely tell what they're about.
Anyways...signing off for now. I'll detail all the study I do tomorrow. Wish me luck.
EDIT: just realised I typed my own username incorrectly in the title. wow. great start huh? please if there's a mod that reads this, it would be awesome if that could be fixed!! thank you