Hey guys!! I was wondering if you'd be able to read my creative draft... I feel like it's far too conceptual and not eventful enough as I struggled to try to make it cover all areas of the discovery syllabus.. Anyway, any feedback would be amazing, thanks so much
The melancholy breeze disseminated our myriad of resentment through the rows of blush roses. Inconvenience flourished at our feet in the form of weeds, as if to rectify themselves from previous endeavors of their eradication. “You’ll never have a pretty rose garden if its filled with weeds,” he would say through an enduring grin, “Pick up a shovel. Start digging”.
A sharp gust of wind spat implacable drops of salt water onto the crimson roses. “It’s getting dark,” Emily asserted. I turned my head to the diminishing, effulgent sphere and thought about the last time he’d seen the sun. It had been 10 days since that cheerful orb, due south, peeped above his beautiful garden and dipped from his view forever.
As twilight set in, Emily and I gathered ourselves and started home, placidly observing the ripples that imbued the murky water. As she plucked one of the crumbled roses from its prickly countenance, she turned to me, “He wouldn’t have wanted it like this Sarah. He would’ve wanted us to keep busy, keep helping Mum out with the shop.” The sound of her voice reverberated in my ears but I couldn’t hear her. All I could see was the decimation of the garden. 10 days and it was almost destroyed. The soil had been eroded by the escalating tide, other crops had infiltrated the beds strictly reserved for roses. Children trampled the garden beds in search for their soccer ball and left the roses lying forlorn across the lawn, emaciated by their neglect.
Suddenly, I was one of those 13 year old children again, crusading against the monotonous perils of my naïve existence. I was helping Grandpa water his cherished shrubs as Ma cooked the supper inside.
“Emily!” I yelled angrily, “Get me the shovel from the garden shed!”.
“Sophia, ask nicely please. You’ll never get anywhere in life by losing your temper,” Grandpa interjected. His blue eyes, brimming with knowledge and benevolence, crinkled congenially as he looked back at me.
“Sorry Grandpa,” I replied, as I shrunk down embarrassedly.
Another gust of wind chilled my bones as I continued to walk, 10 years on from my 13 year old self. Tears began to sting my eyes as the amplitude of my loss emanated throughout my body in waves as we entered my home.
The mid-Autumn chill radiated throughout the living room. No amount of warmth would thaw the frost in that room. Not even Emily could warm me, as she attempted to placate my quivering with a multitude of blankets.
“I just can’t believe he’s gone,” I said to Emily, my voice wet and cracking. As tears obscured my vision, I closed my eyes.
Suddenly, I was 14 again and Emily and I were running through Grandad’s beds of beach roses. The incessant pitter patter of our feet liberated me from the burden of school, of homework, of any struggles a 14 year old could have in the world. As we ran inside we would shovel Arnotts cookie clusters into our mouths, letting the delectable biscuit disintegrate into nothing inside our mouths. Grandad would sit there and listen to our troubles, about anything that was wrong, and inscribe his wealth of wisdom into our minds forever.
“It’s like there’s nothing to fill the void. We saw him almost every day for the entirety of our lives and now he’s just gone,” I sobbed as Emily lulled me to sleep.
Now, its ten years later and not a day goes past where I don’t think about him. His wry smile, his hardened integrity, a facet to the beauty and charm of the human experience. But maybe his departure was a message. Some underlying, didactic message about the inexorable nature of life. Because that’s the thing – it goes on. It continues in its perennial cycles, regardless of the ephemeral humans that encompass it. And maybe that’s where the importance of the roses lay. Controlling something external like that – it gives us space to breathe; gave him space to breathe. Opened his mind up to the multitude of opportunities we have in our privileged perception of the world. And maybe that’s the purpose of loss. To remind us of the transience of our existence, the sub-ordinance we hold in the natural environment – as transitory and evanescent as a rose.
And so Em and I started tending to our own rose garden. Grandad’s elusive roses ceased to exist, but they lived on to us. For weeks and weeks after his passing it rained. The deluge dripped perpetually from the moiling sky and the days were dreary and cold. But eventually it got easier. Our loss became more and more tolerable as we honoured the knowledge he morally instilled in us, and we grew, like the beautiful roses in his garden.