Hello everybody!
Arty, Geoo, Wingdings, Commercekid, Blueycan and Katie - thanks for the well wishes and support!
A tl;dr at the beginning – it did turn out okay. The exams didn’t go too great which was reflected in my study scores, but there isn’t much I can do about it now. I'm so relieved they're over because this exam period was hella stressful.
Today has been a day full of heightened and mixed emotions. I wasn't going to open my ATAR and was just going to get my mum to look at it for me and tell me whether or not it met the lowest selection rank for my first preference. So, this morning, at the grand ol’ time of 7:30am, my mum woke me up and she was the first to look at my ATAR. She started laughing and I was mortified and the suspense was killing me. Apologies for the run-on sentence. It has been a long day. This might be symbolic of my written communication score in the GAT.
I looked at my ATAR to see
Spoiler
A number, to two decimal places, and I think four sig figs
My grandma was more happy with my ATAR than I was, and when I told her, she was elated and jumping up and down with joy. Although, my ATAR was lower than my aunt's ATAR by exactly one point which I was almost as sad about as my GAT scores. Sadly, she has retained the title of 'academic genius' in the family, but she has only had to use her specialist maths knowledge approximately once since she graduated many moons ago, so I don't think she is entitled to flex like that. Some minutes passed and I had an iced coffee, on the recommendation of ashmi, to help me stay awake (ashmi, if you're reading this, it was an excellent suggestion).
My study scores were not too shabby but I know I’ve let my teachers down. Here is a break down of how I felt about my study scores:
EngLang: 😭😭😭 – I thought I did a lot better in the exam than I actually did. The score itself isn’t too bad, but I’m still disappointed.
Bio: 🙂 – okay, but not great. I’m happy my SACs scaled to As and A+s, did not expect that.
Chem: 😶 – could’ve done a whole lot better but I got bang on my shitty prediction. Despite it being my lowest raw study score, it made my bottom two. Should’ve asked for help more in chem and maybe I would have understood some of the Unit 4 stuff a bit better.
Further: 😐 – considering how the exams went, I’m pretty happy with my score, although of course there is a tinge of disappointment and the whole 'I could've done better' sentiment'.
UMEP: 4.0 – got this result the week of finishing my final exam and I’m happy with it, despite not starting off my uni experience with two HDs, or H1s in UniMelb world. It isn’t too hot of a score, but for the amount of work I did for it, I’m happy.
GAT scores: I don't know them.
Past me would’ve been disappointed in my performance and being someone who is usually deemed a high achiever, there was a lot of pressure to get a super high ATAR. However, present me is content and willing to accept lower than that. Despite not cracking my goal of 98 (that, I will tell you), I can reflect on the flaws in my performance this year and (try to) avoid making the same mistakes in uni. My ATAR is high enough to get into my first preference, which, in the grand scheme of things, is all that matters, even though there will be a part of me that will always scream out that I did shit. I don't think I'll rejig my preferences now. Science and Arts feels like the right combo for me at this point in time, although that could change later. I'm eyeing a transfer into Science and Commerce, or a single degree in Science or Arts. Monash, here I come?
Onto the next chapter now. Hope it’s a good one overall. I'm hoping that once this long break is over, I'll be ready to get back into the swing of studying, riding the bumps along the road.
Thank you for being there for me throughout this journey. From the supportive messages to being an overall awesome presence on the forums, thanks for being a wholesome community and an integral part of my VCE experience. A special shoutout in particular to the admins, mods and fellow Class of 21ers
Signing off,
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that was a lowercase L and an uppercase L