After reading Calebark’s journal and heidi’s thread, I’ve decided to *try* do a journal too. I guess I shall help with that ahem.. pesky stigma concerning mental illness (Kudos to Calebark for starting). Actually, it's something I wanted to do for a while but didn't quite have the faith to and just sat on for a while.
Just like him, I’ve had struggled a bit with depression and anxiety as well for quite a few years too. Long story short, my childhood was somehow troubled (Just school issues and a quite dysfunctional relationship with my parents), a very conflicted university journey and tinnitus (horrid high pitched noises in the ear.. which has just done "wonders" for me, by keeping me up awake at 2am.). Trust me when I say this.. tinnitus is actually really horrible. I'll leave it at that for now, because I'm not so comfortable sharing too much, but yeah...
Everything's still a bit of a mess and I am still under the weather but I’m still surviving. I want to be more than just surviving in life, I want to be flourishing at it =). On the bright side I'm glad to have some sort of support (you know who you are) and a few people that I can turn when I don't feel so fine. I have also taken up some AN writing to distract my bad thoughts.
I guess I’ll be just be talking about the good experiences, the bad, the issues etc. I suppose it’ll be more like a journal that makes sure that I’m moving doing something about all of this. Not sure how this’ll go, but I’ll see!
PS. I’ve never really been one to really publish my thoughts, but I guess this will sorta be the only serious/personal thing that I’ll post online (well super serious for my standards anyway). I’ll *try* to add in something positive every post/week =)
Side note: To the current ANers... please please value your ears, because the silence is truly deafening (especially when you're trying to sleep!!!) You can't go back after destroying your ears!