Thank you so much for your replies everyone!! 😊 Your support means so much!
I know that feeling so well, and I can tell you you're not alone, not matter how cliche it sounds. Super happy that your feeling more productive again, and don't be so hard on yourself that you've ended up in that spiral, it happens to the best of us. Being the middle of the year, I think alot of people are feeling that productivity go down the drain, it's the equivalent of the Wednesday of the year!
Wearing casual clothing to school is the best! Even though it;s been a while since i've been to mainstream, I always loved how "fancy" and "professional" I looked in the blazers, but they were always so heavy and bulky.... Enjoy it whilst it lasts!
Looks like school and getting back to school is going pretty well, and I know you'll do fine in the UCAT! You have been doing so much prep throughout the year, that once the day arrives, you'll do great.
Thank you Geoo! Yeah, it's the worst when we lose our motivation, isn't it? But we've just got to keep pushing and we'll get there in the end!
Yes, about the UCAT, well I have more time to focus on it now which is G R E A T, since all my sacs are done for the term and I won't be having any anytime soon! Fingers crossed I pull myself together and see some improvement soon! 🤞
I hope you have a great rest of the week!
Hi Evolio! Awesome to see another update! And I'm super glad you're feeling motivated again!
Ahhhhhh Spec. A subject that can be loved and hated at the same time. I'm glad you're feeling a bit more motivated for your SAC, I'm sure you'll do GREAT!! So I'm sending lots of good vibes. I'm in the middle of my SAC right now too, so I know the feeling!
Its so hard to know how well you're doing in spec. Honestly when I find it easy it doesn't feel right because I feel like its meant to be hard lol.
Totally agreed! Those weeks went by quite slowly, but when I went back to school it felt like it never happened. OMG I had the SAME realisation the other day!! Its crazy how much time we spend at school tbh, so in a way a break was nice? But I do feel like I wouldv've preffered it in another year, but oh well.
Hope you have a great week Evolio! And good luck for your upcoming SACs.
Thank you ArtyDreams!
Hope your Spec sac went well as well! Yeah, Spec is weird. I mean it's so painful to do but once you get the hang of it and do bucketloads of questions, I think it gets a bit easier, which is such a relief. Totally agree! Especially when I'm 100% sure I've got the correct answer but I check the solutions and it's wrong lol.
Yeah, that was a very looooong period that we were away from school, but I think it was refreshing in a sense.
Hope you have a great rest of the week ArtyDreams!
YAYYY an update! It's super-duper awesome you are feeling more motivated (my fingers are crossed for you)
OMG! Your school is letting you wear casual! That's so cool I love that for you! It is definitely crazy to think that that was the longest not-holiday holiday we've ever had during our schooling and I hadn't even thought of it like that😱
With reference to UCAT stuff, from what I've seen you've been really consistent and I'm sure it'll pay off
Good luck for your SACS (you don't need the luck tho you're gonna smash it!)
Thank you J_Rho! Yes, hopefully I don't fall into the unproductivity slump.
Yeah, casual's great!! It's so weird to travel to school in these clothes on public transport because it feels like we're adults sort of? Because we're not in school uniform, so they just assume we're adults. 😄
Yeah, it's very strange to think about, isn't it?
Haha, UCAT is the bane of my existence but hopefully I pull through and do okay in the real thing because if I mess up, it's going to get very ugly. 😬
Thank you J_Rho for your encouragement! Haha, I think I would've needed the luck for spec though because that sac was a monster!
Have a great rest of the week!
Ahh, time for an update! It’s been so busy with sacs and all, the last two weeks were pure agony!! 😣 BUT, I
barely survived conquered them in the end so hopefully it paid off!
LiteratureSo, let me break this down for you, I wrote my creative piece in 1 day and I wrote my commentary in 1 day as well when it was supposed to take us 3 weeks to write. I really hope it's not too bad but judging by my teacher's feedback, my creative is okay so hopefully I get a decent mark. Basically, last week, I had Specialist and Psychology on the same day (30 mins apart) so I literally started on the Friday, the day after. BUT, that wasn't even my final draft, which I wrote on Saturday. We did the commentary in class yesterday and we were allowed notes. I wrote everything I wanted to but my expression definitely suffered so that's going to bring me down. 😥 I really need to work on that.
Specialist MathematicsSo, I had my first ever SPEC SAC last Thursday and it went terribly. To be completely honest, I thought I wouldn’t be able to do any of the questions because I’m not exactly at that level of Math Smartness to do Spec questions, added onto the fact that my school’s sacs are so hard...and weird (apparently). It was a modelling task and not questions you would expect to see on the exam, like some questions weren’t even math related but required you to use your common sense lol. Like, what? There was this giant 5 marker at the end, and I completely failed that. I ran out of time!! I didn’t have time to cry and yell and scream and collapse into an ocean of tears because I had to quickly rush to my Psychology SAC which was right after.
Anyways: all jokes aside, I don’t feel sad? Like, I should be crying and being very sad, but I sort of felt numb after it happened? since I’m pretty sure I failed. But, I did so much prep: the Atar Notes topic tests, all the extended response from the chapter reviews, checkpoints. But that still wasn’t enough. What’s it going to take for me to get a 41? Like, I hadn’t ever studied so hard for a sac anymore and this went badly. What do I do now? Yeah, I know I can’t give up, but it’s so scary because all that hard work went to waste. But then again, I shouldn’t be anticipating great results, when I just realised what went wrong last year. But then again, I DID try to UNDERSTAND rather than quickly finishing the questions and remembering the formulas. I DID spend much more time, desperate to achieve the impossible. But, it still wasn’t enough. People say it’s not the end of the world, but for me, it is. Like, IT REALLY IS. If I don’t get the study score I want, I’m afraid I’ll actually break. And that’s just who I am and I can’t change that.
Then, I had my last part of the SAC yesterday and it was so easy lol. I'm saying this now but when I get my marks back, it'll be terrible. Really though, it wasn't even application?!? They were questions you'd find in the exercises. And half the questions were multiple choice...I was able to check over the whole thing 2 times but I'm unsure of these 2 MCs so that was saddening but I'm over it now. BUT, I didn't make any silly mistakes so hurray for that!
I'm actually really starting to like Spec! I don't know if that's because my remaining brain cells are fried but like, it's actually fun?! Also, I did the 4 recent VCAA Exam 2s and they were better than expected! I mean, I didn't get everything right, but they were actually okay! I found the questions waaay better than methods exam 2 questions. Like, the questions are very straightforward and they ask you directly whereas in methods (in my opinion), they were much less straightforward and there was so much writing and deciphering required.
PsychologyYeah, after Spec SAC Part 1 ,I rushed to Psychology and it was in the hall so I was late. Anyways, it went excellently. It was pretty chill to be honest. I have no regrets about it, as in I think I answered every question adequately which is a major plus because our teacher’s a very harsh marker and if you don’t add something, then you’re done for lol. ALSO, I didn’t run out of time!! That’s probably because of the fact that it was ONLY out of 27 marks and we had 5 mins of reading time. For some of the questions, we had to write a full on essay, and while I was answering the questions, I was like ‘Is this Literature or Psychology?!’. I’m aiming for 90% or above so fingers crossed I’ve achieved that!
ChemistryHaha, LOL. Is this even a subject? The only chemistry I’ve been doing is in class. We’re just working on our practical investigation and we're conducting the experiment in groups so it’s pretty fun as we’re literally just chatting the whole time as we wait for our experiment to
blow up run it's course. We just need to submit a logbook each week but the real fun begins when we need to write our report, which won’t be that hard ( I don’t think) anyway although I will be annoying my teacher for feedback lol so I can get FULL marks!
UCATYeah, this doesn’t exist so let’s move on, thanks.
ThoughtsAnother edition of Evolio’s repetitive reflections about how horrendously last year went! Who’s excited? Feel free to ignore this if you get bored easily. Methods
Studying for Specialist has made me realise how if I had studied how much I did for this spec sac, I actually would’ve gotten higher. I strongly believe that, however presumptuous that sounds. I know Methods is DONE, but it hurts so much knowing that I could have done way better. That 38 hurts so much that it makes me want to travel back in time to Year 11 or Year 9 even where I could have started studying for my VCE subjects. This may be a bit dramatic but that's what I'm feeling every. Single. Day. Call me crazy, but these are desperate times and this is how I roll. Spec is so much harder than Methods,sometimes I wonder why oh why did they make this a VCE subject? Like, it’s that hard. But then again: I shouldn’t give up just because it’s hard, ya know. That sucks so I need to keep fighting even though I know I may fail Spec.
Biology
Same. This could have gone way better. Biology was easier than Methods last year but I got a pretty similar score for methods.Where was my mind at last year? Sometimes I wonder whether I have a small brain, because I feel so slow compared to EVERYONE else around me...they understand things much more easily.
Year 12Year 12 being so stressful is an understatement. It’s like holding up the sky for the entire period, afraid that you’ll be crushed under the pressure, but you still need to hold it up to achieve what you want.
Not a smooth transition, but have a great rest of the week everyone! 😊