December 24th 2019Some reflections on chem:I remember thinking I’ll never get a 40 given my school’s track record for chem. I remember thinking how screwed I was given my atrocious U4 sac grades.
So the old saying is true that your SAC scores doesn’t ‘really’ matter (it does in terms of ranks but not in terms of numbers I guess). So don’t be disheartened by a bad SAC grade. I remember getting a 76% on the experimental design (the poster one) and then putting all my hopes of a 40 down the drain. That time seems so long ago and I can’t believe how long it devastated me for. I remember thinking that I really screwed myself for not getting into a selective school and that my school’s previous performance will reflect mine. Thankfully, I put that aside and tried my absolute best and it all paid off in the end.
Anyways, I’ve ordered the statement of study score. To those interested, for GA1 my 95/100 was scaled to 100. I got 76/90 for GA2 which was incredibly scaled into 86/90 (ty vcaa). I lost 13 marks on the exam putting my GA3 score 214/240. Ultimately my exam performance saved me and I’m really keen on getting a copy of the exam to see which ones I got wrong. I think I got such a high ss due to the apparent difficulty of this year’s exam. I’m highly grateful for it though.
So that’s chem done. For my sanity and yours, this is probably the last time I’m going to rant off about chem.
In terms of holiday homework, I've been pushing to get my set homework done. Hopefully, I can get a break to start a marathon read. Then I'll start getting ahead on the first few topics and getting organised for the year!
Not only that I finally have a job which I will be juggling throughout Year 12. Some people told me that having a job during Year 12 is a death sentence but I’m determined to have that balance. I’ve only just recently experienced how hard it is to be employed without work experience and for my sake and my ATAR I hope I’ve made the right choice.
Then there’s this fear that I won’t perform just as well for my other subjects. Of course, I only had one 3/4 this year so there is no way I can match such performance with 5 subjects but as always I’m plagued with doubt. It’ll be interesting to read these entries in the future.
Regardless, I’m really happy with life at the moment. My personal life and matters are slowly looking up but I have to be prepared to when it comes crashing down once more. It’s crazy to think that three months ago I was in a really bad place emotionally and mentally. 3 months ago I felt like living was a burden and everything felt sooo heavy from just solely existing. I’m soo glad I continued to march forward and life is looking pretty great at the moment. If you’re in a difficult place rn, remember that better times are coming, I promise
Lastly, I just wanted to say what an awesome community this is. I’m often too shy to reply to people as I have trouble trying to put feelings into words or I'm scared I'll come off differently as the way I wanted to be... guess I'm just being weird. Anyways, it warms my heart to see people being so supportive of each other and I wanted to say thank you to all you wonderful people in AN
I've also realised how messy my entries are,.. oops.
That’s all for today! See y'all next year haha