This will probably be my last post here
I think I've gotten over the disappointment of my marks and ATAR. I've included what I wrote about it below:
Was feeling pretty down about it for 1-2 days after, but I got a job (at Boost) so that helped I've also gotten into the course I wanted, which was another bonus! (see sig for deets)
I'm still deciding whether I should make a uni journey journal, as I'm pretty bad at keeping one 😂
Hey Jess
Reaching out only to say I had something quite similar. I was devastated when the results and ATARs came out. When I got my marks, I was thinking "Yeah cool this is pretty good" but the reality is, I knew it wasn't what I wanted? But that denial meant that getting my ATAR the next day was an even ruder shock. And it was not even a half bad ATAR, in fact, it was an excellent ATAR. But I had worked too hard and I thought I'd played the game well enough that I'd be able to get figures back that reflected what I thought I deserved. But the same as you - I got a new job shortly after and I got into my first preference. So, nothing in the end was bad. But I had honestly never wanted to bury myself into a hole more than I did the day the ATARs came out. How had a system I worked so hard for, tricked me? Or at least that's what it felt like. For days I was feeling quite heavy and in the dumps about it.
In the end, though, I got almost everything I wanted. Even though I tortured myself for a bit wondering where I could've improved, now I can rest assured that I gave it my all. I'm sure you can find peace in this soon too