Cat in the 🎩
oops your right....maybe 6/10 is a little generous! Also you don’t need my 4/10 advice Miss 20/20
'20/20' I wish
Update: sad again, got 71% in my last experimental design Chem sac, 71% in the ACCESSeducation trial exam I did at school yesterday (are these hard or am I just dumb?) and to top it all off my SEAS application didn’t go though yay 🙃
Just remember, 71% is still a good mark!! I could
never get that (which is why I dropped Chem...). Everyone has different strengths. Maybe yours just isn't highschool/academia; you just need to find it
The SEAS didn't go through?! Oh dear...
Spoiler
The will to live is low right now. Maybe this is a sign from the universe this world is useless. It’s so annoying that no matter how hard I try I’m still an idiot. I don’t care about my study scores or getting 40s anymore but it still hurts to know I’ll never be good enough. What’s the point of having “good work ethic” if nothing comes of it. Honestly throwing myself into a bridge is an attractive option, I hate my life so much and it just never gets better, I just wanna be good at something and school is all I have
no friends lol, I’d take all the friends in the world considering how dumb I am. But nope lost out on both fronts
Please just stick at it. 'Idiot'?
Excuse me? Unless you're getting someone else to write the rest of your posts or something,
you're not an idiot. 'Never be good enough'? Um, you must have a really
really high bar for 'good enough'. Please. Don't beat yourself up about it. Maybe academia isn't your thing, or maybe you just need a break.
And nothing comes of good work? It
does, I assure you it
does, even if you don't see it now. This is good for the future, laying good groundwork. You want to be good at something - perseverance like you appear to have
is something that's really good! Maybe it doesn't show now, but stick at it and you'll do well. Far better than the insanely smart people who slack off all the time and don't put in consistency.
'Considering how dumb I am'. Just saying, you're not dumb. And it probably sounds cliche but there are people on AN who care about you.
Finding life hard, struggling with it and sticking at it is a real way to grow - a bit like a caterpillar and a butterfly - you have to be trapped in the cocoon (how do you spell that word argh) before you can burst free into what God really wants you to be doing.
School is not the end of the world, the end of life. There's uni, work,
life; friends don't have to be made during school. Please don't think school is the end of the world. This is the crunch time for school, the end of one era and the start of the next. It's understandable that you're stressed, feel down and maybe even feel useless. Remember,
ATARs are temporary. They
don't define you. High school and what marks you get means
nothing in the long run. Do your best, and then you know you've done that much.
Oh, yes, and I agree with brothanathan, take some time off if you need to, please do, but if you want to hang around we (or at least I) are genuinely interested in the culmination of your VCE journey.
Stay safe.