I literally keep thinking that its 2019 still.
I spent new years with my friends, one of which is moving to QLD. We all almost burst into tears even as we have spent the last year away from each other but now its going to be even harder to see each other. My best friend said she's going to come visit me in Newcastle in March (As I did to her last March) but at the moment I'm literally thinking 'how the heck do I make friends?' 'Will I like my flatmates?' 'I hope they don't steal my food'.
It nerve wracking just thinking that I have to pack and leave my home town. As much as I say that I want to leave this boring ass town I think I am going to miss it. Like no traffic. I'm going to miss that. My double bed
. All my books. My mum. It's made me think that last year was about treasuring everything that I have and knowing that I won't be living at home permanently anymore. At least I don't think I'm going to be living in my home town after uni after all I need to find a job. Looks like it's going to fun being a proper adult.
What did I learn in 2019? - That I'm adult and actually have to pay for food now.
- I'm strong and can set my mind to anything I dream of.
- I can be confident, I just have to put myself out there.
- I like to learn new things. I craved to learn. I'm not kidding.
- That my parents are going to buy a kitten after I leave.
- Life isn't made for us to sit and do nothing (I do that plenty of times) and I'm ready to start running towards my goals.
- I'm allowed to make mistakes. We're all human.
What are my goals for 2020? - To put myself out there. We're only young once!
- To be even more confident than I was in 2019.
- To make some friends.
- To enjoy uni and not get bogged up with assessments.
- Be organised! To be honest, this will never happen.
I think that's it for now. The farthest I have thought about uni is the fact that I'm moving in next month and I haven't packed a single thing.
I don't remember if I told you or not but I have been learning French online since the middle of October. Every night I hope online and do 15 mins of French. I have no idea if it's actually working but we'll see!
They've started advertising for my job at the bookshop now so it's all starting to get real. I can't help but wonder who their next trainee is going to be. I know we are all very different people us past/present trainees but we all get along very well especially with our coworkers and bosses. Apparently there's usually around 30 applicants for the job but then they've gotta strike out the people who aren't gap year people leading them down to 12-15 people. It kinda made me go WOW how the heck did I get this job?
Then 5-6 people are interviewed. I think some people don't get chosen because they said they can't work Saturdays but I guess that is a turn off for an employer when hiring. My boss said picking between the last 3 or 4 is like picking a name out of a hat. All sound good but you never know.
I officially finish on the 31st but I'm using up some of my leave to just relax as I leave on the 8th of Feb. So three full weeks of work left. Gah it's gone so quickly! Some days may have felt like three years but many days felt like three hours. My coworkers have really guided and helped me grow this year and I think I'm really going to miss them.
Anyway I have written an essay so the next time I check in will probably be on my ATARNotes 2 year anniversary which I know is really cheesy but who cares.
I'm also trying to decide if I should make a University journal. I'm thinking of keeping going as I have already poured my soul onto these posts. Opinions anyone?
Au revoir for now!