Hey guys! Now time for a massive update.
So yes, Trials are officially over! Before you ask why my trials finished so late, last Friday was technically my last exam (legal). I came after Wednesday (2 exams in one day, both 3 hours long). I had only a day gap to study and revise for Legal. I crammed the entire day, slept late, woke up early to study, only had a banana for breakfast and went off to do the exam. And you guessed what happened...I almost was close to passing out from exhaustion and anxiety within the exam. Instantly when I opened the booklet, I felt the facts trickling out from my head. Anxiety forced me to write whatever was in my head and head started hurting, my throat started to close up. Pretty soon I found my head leaning against the table as I put up my hand and told the supervisor that I didn't feel so good.
He led me out, and then I met with my Head Teacher of Welfare, and he was super kind to me about it. I started tearing up in front of him because I was so mentally and physically exhausted from having 4 consecutive trial exams in four days straight, and also because I was so anxious that I could barely remember the things I studied for the test. He took one look at me and was like, "there is no way I am letting you do the exam, you look terrible." he called my dad who picked me up, and I went home, ate cause I was weak, and then slept for 2-3 hours straight.
On the bright side, I was able to rejuvenate myself for the next three days. I studied as much as I physically could, and for the first time ever, went for a movie with my sister the day before the exam. I have never given myself a moment to chill right before a test, usually I would be cramming. but I guess it worked for me.
I finished the rest of the exam today, so finally I am officially done. It felt good to end things on a right note. I am so glad I told the teacher how I was feeling, instead of sucking it up and just getting it done. If I kept on continuing, I would have failed for sure. The only minor downside was that I had to study and keep up my motivation for the next three days. But weirdly enough, it didn't seem so bad. My mental strength kept me going and now I am chilling, so happy that they are over. Trials were the roughest period ever. I am really proud of myself for having gone through it only minorly scathed. I was able to handle a whole lot more than I thought I could, and I was a lot more prepared than I was for my half yearlies. Regardless of how my trial marks are, I would not stress about it. I am just happy I got through Trials and did the best I could with little to no regrets.
On a positive side note, I got into Macquarie via Global Leadership! I am so happy!!! Honestly, it doesn't even matter what my ATAR is, because either way I will be studying the course of my dreams without any stress at all. A lot of people I know talk really bad about Macquarie because it is not as highly ranked and prestigious as UNSW, hence why I have been a bit hesitant to tell people that Macquarie is sounding a lot more appealing to me
A- because it is closer and takes less travel time than UNSW
B- It has the major I want that UNSW doesn't have
C- Apparantly Macquarie is less stressful and more of a peaceful environment whilst UNSW is more competitive, IDK that is what my friends who go to Macquarie tell me
I feel like the main reason why I wanted to pick UNSW was because it is more prestigious, everyone I know is going there, and cause I like the campus (stupid reasons I know) And also cause it has high employment rates. I want to study business at university, and apparently those who go to UNSW have an edge and are more sought after than those who go to other unis. I have been told that a employer is more likely to pick someone who goes to UNSW than someone who went to Macquarie, because UNSW is better ranked. Is that true?
Can someone please give me advice on what you should consider when choosing a university? Cause seriously I have no clue on what to consider.