8/5/19
Help me. I've lost my sense of humour. Life has gotten too serious, and I feel that I don't have enough fun. I still hang with a good group of friends at school, but their "jokes" don't amuse most of the time. You know that kind of fake laugh you make when you don't want interactions to be awkward? School and studying is just too serious, and honestly I can't really see that changing with a barrage of assessments coming my way.
Sleep is ok, but I did have a lapse on Tuesday night when I could not get myself to fall asleep until about 2.30am. (Mainly due to the cold weather, funnily enough). Relaxation - ah. What does it really mean to relax? It's so hard for me to take my mind off school and studying, even on the weekends. I've kind of forgotten how to relax as well. I'm also having difficulty incorporating a substantial amount of physical exertion into my daily routine. Like, I have to use the car to get to and from school, and it's too cold and depressing outside to even get me to think about walking in that kind of weather. My diet is ok, I suppose. Just crave anything hot, given the weather.
Self-discipline and perseverance: When I'm not told what exactly to do or else face the consequences, I struggle to get myself to do some work.
Social interaction: I am incessantly encouraged to start the conversation. But heck to the no. I hate starting conversations. I kind of just wait around until my friends get around to discussing something interesting.
Mindset: The little things are just that. Microscopic and oftentimes get lost in the sea of seemingly larger, more important matters. But I've got a home, a loving family, a (somewhat (nah jk it's pretty good)) quality education, an internet connection, a heating system, warm clothing, and hot food.