Bugging thoughts!

[pyro-53]

I have no idea where to start so I'm just going to throw everything in here.

I predicted the other day that I'm going to get 66.67. I know it's kind of depressing right? It's an honest prediction from myself, as well as my sister who knows me best.

I know that all of my subjects are low-scaling so I need to put extra effort to all of them (which are hhd, esl, psych and further) but in the end I think all those efforts are still not enough. I did badly in the exam for further and this is just a slap-in-the-face since I dropped methods in order to do well in further but it still seems worthless    What's even more horrified is that I dropped it right before the last sac on probability, in another words, the final sac for methods. At that moment I couldn't take it anymore. I came down to the decision in 2 days and I went for it the first thing I saw my teacher. Well, my teacher was just kind of amazed and asked if I talked to my parents which I said "yes"(I did talk to my sister so that's still count, right?)

All the process of dropping me out of the class was pretty quick but the outcome is completely painful, at least for me. For days and days after that I went through all the stages: happy (for not worrying about the burden anymore), ecstatic (for choosing my own way, make my own decision) then finally sad and guilty (for feeling happy and ecstatic) and of course regret (for everything).

Now, all the regrets just seem to bug me more and more.

I can't take it anymore! 

[Art Vandelay]

I know this feeling too well, my friend...
First, a ~67 ATAR isn't as bad as you might think - maybe you're spending too much time on ATARNotes - you've 'beaten' a lot of the state (though that shouldn't be your goal). Furthermore, just be happy that you've finished the VCE - I know two people right now that decided to stop their studies, and would kill to be in your position! Your ATAR would let you get your foot into the door of university: just work hard and aim for a transfer... High school is more than just a score - you've probably learnt so much that can't be captured by a number

You mentioned feeling happy, that there's no longer any burden - I think this is still true, dude... Irregardless of score, it's a pretty big feat to even complete the VCE... If you're this passionate about it that you feel this way, you may find solace in knowing that this regret will drive you to work hard next year!

Just take it easy now, hang out with friends or the like... Maybe even disable some sections of ATARNotes if it's getting you that down.

It'll all be OK!

[pyro-53]

I know this feeling too well, my friend...
First, a ~67 ATAR isn't as bad as you might think - maybe you're spending too much time on ATARNotes - you've 'beaten' a lot of the state (though that shouldn't be your goal). Furthermore, just be happy that you've finished the VCE - I know two people right now that decided to stop their studies, and would kill to be in your position! Your ATAR would let you get your foot into the door of university: just work hard and aim for a transfer... High school is more than just a score - you've probably learnt so much that can't be captured by a number

You mentioned feeling happy, that there's no longer any burden - I think this is still true, dude... Irregardless of score, it's a pretty big feat to even complete the VCE... If you're this passionate about it that you feel this way, you may find solace in knowing that this regret will drive you to work hard next year!

Just take it easy now, hang out with friends or the like... Maybe even disable some sections of ATARNotes if it's getting you that down.

It'll all be OK!

Thanks for your advice. It's true that I'll more confident for next year now that I know my mistake.
That is, "Never drop the damn subject when it's so close to exam!" >_<

[nisha]

Whats done is done. Theres no going back now. I have regrets about this year as well. Things that if I dropped, I probably could've done better. But there nothing you can really do. All I can say is just let go of it all. Don't go on ATARCALCULATOR at all (and don't be like me who has it as her home screen) and do something for yourself. VCE is over. Thats the only fact you are sure about Your Atar, you are not. Embrace what is concrete from hereon in. Exercise. Hang out with friends. Watch TV. Have fun.

[pyro-53]

Whats done is done. Theres no going back now. I have regrets about this year as well. Things that if I dropped, I probably could've done better. But there nothing you can really do. All I can say is just let go of it all. Don't go on ATARCALCULATOR at all (and don't be like me who has it as her home screen) and do something for yourself. VCE is over. Thats the only fact you are sure about Your Atar, you are not. Embrace what is concrete from hereon in. Exercise. Hang out with friends. Watch TV. Have fun.

“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”
I put this quote on my laptop but without failed, every night before I close my eyes all the regrets still come back

[nisha]

Whats done is done. Theres no going back now. I have regrets about this year as well. Things that if I dropped, I probably could've done better. But there nothing you can really do. All I can say is just let go of it all. Don't go on ATARCALCULATOR at all (and don't be like me who has it as her home screen) and do something for yourself. VCE is over. Thats the only fact you are sure about Your Atar, you are not. Embrace what is concrete from hereon in. Exercise. Hang out with friends. Watch TV. Have fun.

“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”
I put this quote on my laptop but without failed, every night before I close my eyes all the regrets still come back

Sure. I can understand that. And I can also understand lingering thoughts of failure or recurring wrenches in the stomach because of past mistakes. But thinking about it ISN'T GOING TO DO ANYTHING. Really, you are just focusing on what has happened, rather than was is going to happen. Put it in perspective. After you get into uni, noone asks you what ATAR you got. Frankly, they don't even care. There will be more assessments and exams, where you can truly show your ability and attempt to learn from your mistakes in uni.
i would also like to add a quote:
I don't want to earn a living; I want to live-Oscar Wilde

[paulsterio]

First of all, I'll just say that I have regrets as well, many regrets. Even though some people look at my scores and think that I had the perfect VCE, it's not like that. I've made decisions which I now look back and think were stupid, but in hindsight, what can I do.

One of the fundamental things you need to understand moving forward is that we all make mistakes in life. This isn't the first time you've made a mistake and it won't be the last. It's OK to make mistakes and it's OK to regret decisions and beat yourself up for it. That's how we learn - we learn by making mistakes and knowing not to make them again. That's why those who get out there and enjoy life and do what they love will always somehow find the right path, because experience is the key to life.

I spent a year of my life doing absolutely nothing, but when I look back, do I think I was stupid? Of course I do! But do I regret it? Of course not, because it was part of a learning experience, I am now surer of what I want to do and even then, at least I had fun throughout the year. At the end of the day, why regret doing something that once made you happy? You can make bad decisions, but you never make decisions which will make you unhappy, cause at the time, they seemed like the right decision.

Deciding to drop Methods may or may not be a stupid decision, not doing well on VCE may or may not be the consequence, it's up to you how you view that. But remember that when you decided to drop Methods, you did it because you believed in it and you thought it was the right thing to do.

Now just stop playing around on ATARCalculator and go have some fun, who cares what happens when results come out, there's always a pathway available for you.

[brenden]

Now just stop playing around on ATARCalculator

Best fucking advice of entire forums. On the AN App Calculator, scores = 88, on real website which I checked today randomly = 86. Opening that website was a baaaddddddd decision LOL

[Art Vandelay]

Motivation
Here you go dude. Time spent on reddit will completely overshadow any semblance of regret regarding VCE. Waste your time on reddit, not that stupid calc haha

[pyro-53]

Now just stop playing around on ATARCalculator

Best fucking advice of entire forums. On the AN App Calculator, scores = 88, on real website which I checked today randomly = 86. Opening that website was a baaaddddddd decision LOL

Where is that website! Give it to me or I'll stalk you!

[Art Vandelay]

I think Brenden's just referring to the mobile and desktop versions of the same site.

[pyro-53]

I think Brenden's just referring to the mobile and desktop versions of the same site.

*Facepalm* so embarrassed! 

[Dejan]

I am a similar position as you. Myself I may score a ATAR of 40 or 50 if i'm lucky, meaning I won't get into my course as I need 80.35. I must admit I beat myself pretty hard after my exams as I did bad on all of my exams but my SAC's are decent and I told teachers how bad I did etc...  And my overall ATAR and it made me miserable and sad till the point I sat there crying for hours it hurt so much I wanted to be a top student in VCE and I was very keen on education and I loved being at school, I had a million regrets running through my mind since I have finished exams and I still today I do but i have realized that what's has been done, it's done and dusted and no going back and fixing what had went wrong. So just try get your mind off VCE completely (I know it's hard but please try) you're doing your mind a favor and just live it up so like go out, have fun because there's no going back and let it go and that's what I did and it's been the best thing for me as I am so much happier than before because the thought of doing miserably at school will haunt you for a long time and destroy you inside
 

[pyro-53]

^ Well, it's very brave of you to admit that.
I value my education too, but sometimes grades(or ATAR) are just so discouraging and misleading  I know that grades are designed to tell us how much did our efforts put in study worth, but in the end of course they're not everything. They're not there to judge how smart we are.

[rebeccab26]

i feel exactly the same way
worrying about it and feeling guilty will not change it though so there is no point making yourself feel terrible. just move on and look at other pathways into what you want. you'll get there eventually even if it takes a year or two more than you expected.
and don't read forums on exams - only those who are smart enough to find them and those who are feeling good about how they did will GENERALLY post so it's not an accurate indication
get off atarcalc it will just make you feel terrible as we are not vcaa thus cannot accurately predict out own study scores.
just relax i'm sure you did better than you think
enjoy the freedom!!!