I recently got my report and realised I had a really shitty semester. I was actually doing quite well up until the last few SACS where I completely dropped the ball. It really is only worth 25% but the ranks are what matter, and despite semester 2 being worth 25% I will find it very difficult to climb ranks. For example, I'm positioned in the 3rd quartile for English which will be even worse after my recent SAC is marked because I just gave up and wrote a story for context, disregarded everything because I was clueless and will be lucky to get 10/30. English is the main subject that I really need to do well in because it is my make or break, but I've just screwed up so badly that it would almost be impossible to even secure a 35+.
I really only have myself to blame however. For English I would have spent around 3 hours studying all year; Psychology 4 hours; Economics 6 hours; Legal 5ish hours and Global Politics around 6 hours as well, however the latter two I'm doing really well in (but terribly in the rest). I don't do homework or anything, I can't just sit down and study because I find it too slow and boring and only work well under extreme pressure and I just can't change. This honestly really sucks. I also feel like I am doing so much work whilst knowing I'm not which makes it so hard to change.
I started off the year thinking I'd get like a 98 ATAR which slowly declined to around 90. Now I doubt I'll even be able to get a 86.05 minimum for Monash Business. This is all while going to one of the most expensive schools in Australia and disappointing my parents after 12 years of private school.
I hope in a few months from now I can look back and have a laugh at how silly all this was, but the amount of time I spend actually thinking about school and work is beyond ridiculous, but an hour of work a week is almost a miracle and I do nothing at school because I just can't focus or learn.
I am sure you are just placing high expectations on yourself, which is healthy.
Can't be all that bad, e.g. I am failing Further Maths at the moment based on percentage (I am below 50%) - certainly not a lack of effort though. On that note, doesn't Monash Business require Further Maths as a prerequisite?
Economics, Aus. Pol, Eng and Bus. Man I am going well, I think...
Either way, if you can do that amount of study and still attain decent marks, imagine what will happen in the next Semester & Holidays. A+'s
It is people like you who make me extremely jealous when I am studying really hard, due to my incompetence
Use it to your advantage, and like you said, only 25% has been done. So much can happen from now and the end of year exams, best of luck