Warning, depressing status update.
I have had it. I give up. You are telling me that I worked one WHOLE year for methods, I spent almost every single day studying for methods, you are telling me that I started practice exams in JUNE, and have done over 80 practice exams and I kid you not all have been 35+/40, that on this one very day of the exam, I get a 32? This can not be real, honesty. One's hard work and DEVOTION can not just pass down like this, its unnatural and its unjust. You are telling me that I studied every single day of this year for methods, literally every single day, I even did methods during my birthday in January, and that I end up with a score like 32? I have actually had enough of this unjust system, I don't understand why this is happening to me (probably others, too), I dont understand WHY the hard work and bloody dedication is not paying off, I just do not understand why....
I dont even know what to say, I literally am fuming right now because I studied all year just for a single exam that would cost you a mark because you forgot to add 2 to the coordinate, something so SIMPLE. Or are you telling me that I studied all year just to go stupid all of a sudden and think 2.5>2.8?
Is this what hard work yields, guys? Because honestly, there is no doubt that I worked hard, and clearly, clearly it is not paying off. This is so unjust and not only for me, the whole thing is just too competitive, yeah alright its VCE, a competition, but surely us 17/18 year olds should be granted mercy, bloody hell..
Anyways, I pledge this will be my very last post on here, ATARNotes, where I met many lovely people, but unfortunately although I sound like I can produce great things, today I found out that I wasted one whole year of devotion for absolutely nothing. Yeah I learnt life lessons, I learnt things that will help me in the future, but why didn't I learn to apply what I really learnt onto the exam? Life is unjust to some of us, and no matter how much this hurts to say, and I know I have mentioned this so many times to strawberries and others, that 'hard work always pays off', well guys, unfortunately, I am living proof that it does not always pay off. There is no denying about it, some just have it rougher than others, and call me a complainer, I have every right to complain after the amount of work I put in and not getting HALF of the results
VCE is not life, grades are not life, but when you put your life into it for the one year that actually counts, I am pretty sure it means more than just a "number".
I apologise for the saddening tone of my departure, but just wanted to formally acknowledge all of your efforts, I hope you all are proud on the morning of 14th December, because you all deserve it! I will be probably here on the day to read of many successes, and to all my study buddies (you know who you are), I wish you all the best. Good bye AN, and gg methods, you broke my heart...
RIP Cosine: 12/10/2014 - 04/11/2015
What's funny is, exactly 361 days ago I posted my first comment, expressing my excitement of what VCE was holding for me, back when I used to think hard work and dedication was what It took. I guess I thought I was ready, but clearly, actions speak louder than words. I am a failure, not even worthy of being cosine anymore, as its quite ironic that I name myself cosine, and in fact a cosine identity lost me another 2 marks on the exam, because hey, squaring something just for no reason is smart right?
gg VCE, gg methods, gg biology exam that scammed me, gg to my school, gg to my teachers..
I am done, I refuse to write 1 word on tomorrows exam, whats the point, anyway?
Sorry for the long depressing update, but I just wanted to explain my disappearance from this site, as I have formed many loving friendships, and just know that I tried to conquer vce, but it destroyed me, because its not for everyone, clearly.
Even if your ATAR is lower than you want it to be, it really, really does not matter.
I worry sometimes that ATARnotes is something of an echo chamber which encourages people to tunnel vision so hard on their study scores and their ATARs that they forget what the actual purpose of an ATAR is.
An ATAR gives you entry to a university course. That's it. After you gain entry to ANY university course, your ATAR becomes completely meaningless. All those study scores in Year 12? Meaningless. How you went on a methods exam? Meaningless.
Ask yourself, why do you care so much about getting a high methods study score? Presumably, it's so you can get a high enough ATAR to get in your dream course. But going poorly on one exam and getting into a high ATAR course are not mutually exclusive events.
I remember after I did my specialist exam in Year 12. I did so poorly that I probably didn't get any higher than 5% on it. Just like you, I was distraught and so, so disappointed.
But did that mean I was condemned to endure in a university course that I had no interest in? No.
I spent one semester in a 'filler' course, and then transferred to my dream course that had an ATAR requirement that was nearly 20 higher than what I achieved in VCE. I wasted no time as I received credit for all my previous study. There is absolutely nothing stopping you from doing exactly the same thing.
Basically, I am trying to say that while
I do understand why you feel the world is ending because you performed disappointingly on one exam, that if you just take a step back and look at your situation
in it's totality, then you will see how much of a minor event it truly is.