Yeah had to do a sac today and bombed it ://, was averaging in the 90s but this is gonna push me down to the 70s...
I feel you fam, but don't lose hope yet because you know you're more capable than the expectant '70' and that should drive you more and more till the raging fire within you has no way to way lose flame but only burn more and more till your hunger is satiated and every paper you wrote it feels your intellectually superior wrath.
I'll be honest, I was not expecting to write all that but today I was just feeling so low and after reading your post I just felt even more depressed because I can definitely relate to you, and I wanted to change that- not just for me, but you too. Because I definately know i am way more capable than my current standards, for god's sake I pulled straight 90's from year 7-middle of year 11 and then year 12 comes (with an extra package of anxiety which my body has never felt) and all the walls of high standard habits and intellect has just clashed and there's no way of returning it back. And the fire in me is just so angry that I needed somewhere to just let out it's thoughts (I'm not weird, I promise), and your post was lucky enough to be my victim
🎶 I wish I can turn back time, to the good old dayss 🎶
Keep grinding and keep faith in your self. I believe you can do it because I know you can push your self to a point where every sweat will pay off with justice.