Zhen's VCE Journey

[exit]

Actually having these teachers was quite the obstacle to overcome. Well, when people ask me why I didn’t do well in VCE, at least I have an excuse.  I’ll stay around on AN next, year but I don’t think I’ll be active as I’ve been this year cause I’ll probably have a lot of new obligations and I’ll probably be really busy. I hope I flourish in real life, but being the socially inept, vertically challenged, chubby asian that I am, I probably won’t.  Anyway, all the best to you. Hopefully we end up with scores we’re content with.

socially inept: You mentioned that you've been hanging out with your friends....which you wouldn't do if you were actually socially inept. prob being a it harsh on yourself m8

vertically challenged: ? dunno how this is a problem

chubby: Is this related to fitness?

asian: how is this a bad thing?

I reckon you'll be fine haha

[The Bus]

socially inept: You mentioned that you've been hanging out with your friends....which you wouldn't do if you were actually socially inept. prob being a it harsh on yourself m8

vertically challenged: ? dunno how this is a problem

chubby: Is this related to fitness?

asian: how is this a bad thing?

I reckon you'll be fine haha

100% agree. Not sure why being Asian is even worth mentioning?

[zhen]

socially inept: You mentioned that you've been hanging out with your friends....which you wouldn't do if you were actually socially inept. prob being a it harsh on yourself m8

vertically challenged: ? dunno how this is a problem

chubby: Is this related to fitness?

asian: how is this a bad thing?

I reckon you'll be fine haha

100% agree. Not sure why being Asian is even worth mentioning?

You guy’s are absolutely right. Most of the things I mentioned basically shouldn’t matter, except for the socially inept thing, which I’ve been working on by hanging out with friends more this year.

[Joseph41]

Re: tutoring, I reckon it's just not an ideal time of year for it. Those going into Year 12 next year are probably still concerned with Year 11. I've tried similar things in the past and had zero interest - it tends to kick off in the new year!

[alchemy]

• Start casually studying for fun

 

[Bri MT]

Learning is great & very much enjoyable when it doesn't feel like a competition. When you study for fun you get customised pace and content, AND the extra-fulfillment from knowing you've driven your development. What's not to love?

[Yertle the Turtle]

Actually, zhen has a very good point. If you go into your studying with the idea that you will enjoy the content, your schooling will usually be a) more enjoyable and b) better for your brain, and you will actually find that it has applications that you can toy with in your mind.

[zhen]

Studying is fun when it isn’t forced down people’s throats and enjoying studying obviously helps out for motivation. Personally I enjoyed the texts I studied in English when I read them over the holidays to a certan degree. But, after being shoved into VCE English with the circumstance you’re all probably aware of already, English became a massive grind and just not an enjoyable subject. So when studying becomes independent of school, it can be really fun.

Now to talk about how I’ve spent my time since my last update. I’ve been hanging out with friends and now I’m officially done with school. We had our last school event which was speech night. It was pretty boring in my opinion with long winded speeches. Over the past few days I’ve just been chilling. I’ve also been exercising a bit every day, but not enough. I should probably start doing more productive stuff soon cause I’m getting bored of just chilling every day.

[zhen]

Ok, so I’m getting more and more nervous about results day and stressing out about what score I’ll get, which I know is absolutely pointless, but I still do it. A lot of stuff has happened over the holidays, so I’ve been able to keep myself busy. But, things have slowed down and now I’m stressing out a lot more than I should. I’m just hoping that I get a score that I’m content with. Anyway, right now I should probably be distracting myself with some good shows to watch.

[Joseph41]

Ok, so I’m getting more and more nervous about results day and stressing out about what score I’ll get, which I know is absolutely pointless, but I still do it. A lot of stuff has happened over the holidays, so I’ve been able to keep myself busy. But, things have slowed down and now I’m stressing out a lot more than I should. I’m just hoping that I get a score that I’m content with. Anyway, right now I should probably be distracting myself with some good shows to watch.

What are you watching at the moment?

[zhen]

What are you watching at the moment?

I was watching 13 reasons why, but stopped cause I needed something a bit more lighthearted. Instead, I’m just watching random youtube videos for now, but I’m not sure how long that’ll distract me.

[cookiedream]

I should probably start doing more productive stuff soon cause I’m getting bored of just chilling every day.

I couldn't agree more!! It's funny because I've been looking forward to having no more school exams ever since I can remember, but now that it's here...it's a lot more boring than expected. I remember how sometimes I got through work with the thought 'It's okay, when VCE is over I will watch a tonne of Youtube videos and anime and play all my games again!!!'. But now, although I watch Youtube sometimes (especially gameplays lelel), I'm mostly taking naps and listening to music to pass the time. This morning I did a lot of the chores partly because I got tired of sitting in my room, and now our kitchen, living room and dining room are quite clean! Mum is pretty happy, to say the least

There's this weird emptiness when I realise that it's over. VCE is over. And at the end of this week is gonna be the day. *dun dun dunnnn*

[zhen]

I’m really nervous about atar results which are coming out. But, I realise that if I end up getting a bad result, it doesn’t make me any less of a person. Receiving my atar doesn’t somehow change who I am. Honestly, it doesn’t mean anything other than giving me a place in the course I want to get into or getting a scholarship. I realise that worrying about my atar changes absolutely nothing, but I still worry about it. Hopefully I’m satisfied with the results I receive, but I know that if I don’t get high, it’s not the end of the world.

[zhen]

Ok, so this is going to be my last journal entry. Results came out and I feel oddly indifferent towards them. I looked at the results and saw that I was above 94 (the monash commerce/law cutoff with monash guarantee) and I just didn’t really care that much for some reason. If anyone is looking at this in the coming years, you need to realise that VCE is just the starting point for your massive journey through life. If you get into your first preference course, then ATAR doesn’t really matter anymore other than for scholarships. If you don’t get into your first preference, there are probably many different alternative pathways to get into your desired course or field. I’m not saying that your ATAR isn’t important. Your ATAR is actually pretty important, however it’s not everything. Your ATAR doesn’t define who you are as a human being.

Ok, so I know I said that I felt indifferent towards my ATAR, well actually I did feel a tinge of disappointment. I’m actually not satisfied with how I am currently as an individual, but that’s not necessarily because of my ATAR. I feel like I didn’t study as hard as I should have during VCE and I also feel like I should have volunteered more or worked during my high school years. I honestly feel like I’ve wasted my high school years half-heartedly studying, when I should have done more meaningful things such as volunteering or participating in activities that allow me to experience new things. I feel like I’ve been tricking myself throughout the year and blaming my teachers. I still do feel like my teachers negatively influenced my studies, however I should have been able to overcome that adversity and those bad circumstances. I know some of you may offer me kind words of consolation. However, I want to be a person who can meet the standards that they set themselves, as I ultimately decide how I feel about myself. I’m not judging myself by the scores I received, but rather on how hard I studied. Also, I don’t have crazy expectations of how much I need to study every day, so you don’t need to worry about that. I just feel like if I lower these realistic standards I set upon myself, I’ll be tricking myself yet again. So, my resolutions for next year are to study as hard as I can (much harder than during VCE), to volunteer regularly, to work as a tutor or any part time position that will take me and to participate in interesting extracurricular activities. I want to be able to balance all these things and still do well in university. That’s my goal for the next few years.

Ok, thanks to everyone who has been reading my updates and especially to anyone who posted advice or anything to cheer me up.  I’ve now finished my long and arduous journey through VCE and I’m about to take a step towards my next path in life. Hopefully, I’ll be able to experience new things and make some good friends. Onwards to my next journey...