The Depresso Expresso (fun_jirachi's HSC Journey)

[clovvy]

Another week is over which means im a week out from prelim, and the dumbest assessment task i've ever done (video essay like why please explain to me how this helps me achieve anything)
and though i felt really great after the 2u exam, hearing everyone getting their results during first period made me realise that 95+ was super unrealistic despite my feeling right after the exam. everyone in my year that did the exam was accelerating (so its an expectation you hit a band 6) and then a class's average was 64??? the others were 78 and 82, but i was so shocked like omg i might not hit my goal after all the preparation
lo and behold i don't (what a surprise) and last period rolls along and i see my paper and i get a 90. NOW THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT PLEASE I AM HAPPY WITH MY MARK AND I AM NOT COMPLAINING ABOUT A BAND 6 but seriously i was super cut (maybe i set myself up for disappointment by aiming too high???) like i mean it felt really bad. I did get above class average (approximately 0.5 standard deviations above the mean) but seriously when i looked through my paper i did the dumbest stuff ever, like i probably deserved only to lose 4-5 marks legitimately, the rest were dumb mistakes i made in the heat of the moment under exam pressure. literally full of regrets, disappointed in myself
Take Exhibit A for example. Q11, the first question after multiple choice, and in the very last part. I did everything right until i got down to 1/3(64-1) and somehow i wrote down 64/3 as my answer. like why please send help
My rank might be terrible because its a very competitive environment, but I think I'm looking at a rank about 20-30? where I've always been for quite some time now but yeah kinda happy (good mark, its all over) and kinda disappointed, but honestly ill cop it, theres nothing i can do now. All i can do is improve for the yearly next week and the HSC.

mod marks on monday, rip me

Hope you guys have had a great week!

Given that you are in sbhs and that their standards are usually much higher than hsc standards (know this from doing your schools' pastpapers), you'll be fine...  And most will smash the hsc anyway and I know you will (getting 90 on sbhs paper ain't easy)..

[fun_jirachi]

been copping L's all week
i don't know why but i literally just realised i hate modern send help please
maths is trippy af, exam pressure gets to me every time and i do dumb stuff like 64-1=64 also send help please
english is dumb, 'nuff said
and chem and phys like kill me please don't cram module four of both into 2-3 weeks WHY

[fun_jirachi]

Another week goes by... and i realise its been a hell of a week, but up ahead in 5 days is my first prelim exam.
The difficulty of these exams is hard to predict, like i mean physics was crazy hard for the half yearly, then they played nice for second assessment so its a real conundrum here. Chem is deceptively easy, so i don't know how that'll pan out. english is dumb, 'nuff said.
But this week was really great, thursday was trivia night and that was amazing, junked on pizza and mountain dew, had a great night. today was quite solid as well, played 'ball with the boys after school, then watched first grade debating. good week i'd say, apart from modern history results

Hope you've all had a great week too!

[fun_jirachi]

not quite a feeling or life update but still a really good story
so in modern we got free food like WOW free food tEacHeRs nEVeR gIvE sTUdEntS fReE fOoD but when we got into the staffroom (yeah its tiny, but our class shrank from 21 to 10 kids) teacher was like OK GUYS HERE WE HAVE SOME CORNED BEEF LIKE THEY MADE IT IN WW1 everyone was like ah crap we actually have to eat that?!?!?? and then it came out of the can and it was all oily and soggy and eurghegjg. like she couldnt even cut up the beef properly because it was so soft. so we got a cracker each and had some beef and ngl it tasted like ass. like really crappy tuna that's actually beef, but saltier and super oily. but the crackers were nice (small consolation), and we went back to class and nothing happened after that.

[jamonwindeyer]

^ that was a rollercoaster 

[fun_jirachi]

I'm really nervous for tomorrow's physics exam , and it's not like trials either, for some reason its worse?!?!?!
I know I know most of the content, but thinking about the exam makes me nervous, and everyone always tells me 'everything's on the reference sheet' or 'year 11 doesn't count' and 'you know more than you think you know' but that doesnt help
and i have one day to study for chem which is on thursday, and then a 6 day break for two 45 min exams. hopefully all goes well

Spoiler

I'd just like to take a moment to insert an apology in here.

So yesterday, or a few days back (but I'm pretty sure it was yesterday) I posted something in the Thoughts About Marriage thing and it got deleted, because I had an opinion that was worded terribly badly, and it could have been interpreted in an offensive manner by some (which it was). I'm sorry if I hurt anyone with my comments, and I take full responsibility for having posted that. In the future I'll do my best to prevent this from happening again. I feel really bad for having even said anything of the kind in retrospect.

TLDR: exams making me so damned nervous

[fun_jirachi]

it feels like I havent updated in ages, but maybe that's because i havent updated on a friday in a while 
but today i finished all my prelim exams, and it just felt great to get off my back. i have an extra two days to do nothing before the holidays start, and it feels really really good. however there is that sinking feeling in the back of my head that i probably didnt do as well as i'd like to in prelim and that my marks are taking a skydive from last semester.
there's a lot to look forward to though this week, what with the long weekend and the rest of the holidays where i can just put off the fact that im starting the hsc and lie on my bed doing nothing for about 2 and a bit weeks , and also i can get back to drawing
hope everyone's having a great week

[Joseph41]

CONGRATS! That's an awesome milestone to get through.

[fun_jirachi]

Okay so this week was pretty solid
it was the first week of holidays, so that is always pretty good, but then again i have to study to not die at the end of the month for maths and modern, but this week i screwed around like hell and did absolutely nothing. I did start rerunning Pokemon Platinum and watching the Good Place which is back up again yay, and I watched all of Brooklyn Nine Nine season 5 in two days. but outside of that it was pretty mundane, just messing around and eating toasties for lunch every day.
Most interesting things that happened this week:
Saturday was my birthday
Tuesday went on a boat and stared at the ocean instead of socialising
Thursday went to the city and read the Communist Manifesto and ate Nandos

I probably hope to get some study done next week

Hope everyone is having a great holiday/study break/whatever you're having

[jazcstuart]

Thursday went to the city and read the Communist Manifesto and ate Nandos

Just some light holiday reading? 

Also happy birthday!!!

[fun_jirachi]

feeling good
literally cannot stop watching the first minute or so of B99 S5E17, cracks me up every time
Also can I just say I'm pretty damn happy today, those lectures were ace (shoutout to Jamon and Emily), looking forward to more tomorrow hyped

[fun_jirachi]

So this week was pretty mundane (apart from getting torn apart here)
I raked in some cash working, and it was fun seeing some work friends I havent really seen in a while because they usually take different shifts during the term, but other than that I just screwed around instead of studying which I really should be doing, since exams are in 2.5 weeks 
I also havent been sleeping too well, its getting harder to sleep for some reason and i don't know why but its back to school on monday and its under the bus straight away with year 12, so this'll be a great year ahead

Hope everyone's had a great week!

[fun_jirachi]

OK so it's the end of week 1 of Year 12  and a lot of bad stuff happened this week
1. Most of my results from prelim came back and I'm not happy. Skydived from the half-yearly, and I'm really disappointed mainly because I didnt try as hard as I probably shouldve or couldve. Hope this doesnt happen any time during the coming year, because my ranks are garbage
2. I got  D R E N C H E D  yesterday now my jumper and my bag smell like rain ewwwww
3. I'm getting constantly reminded I have 10 days until modern or however many it is on the current day and it's pissing me off, im losing motivation
4. I did not do any physical activity over the holidays so when I trained this week I got so sore someone send help 

On a more positive note, got new books for Physics and Chemistry and they look great, amazing, however you want to call it, but it's really good, really excited for both those subjects despite screwing up pretty hard in prelim. The content looks amazing and hopefully they aren't error ridden like the ones we had in prelim.

Hope everyone had a great week!

[fun_jirachi]

End of yet another week! Time is going really quickly and a lot happened this week and had mood spikes everywhere
So on Monday I injured my quad and on Wednesday I reignited a niggle in my calf. Hopefully they both clear up for tomorrow so I can play tennis.
Tuesday was totally uneventful, but on Thursday I had 2U HSC. Largely that went okay despite the fact that I was being stupid, hopefully bag a Band 6 that won't even count to my ATAR. Still disappointed though
Today was kinda sad as well. Had my last ever Modern lesson. Right now Modern kinda makes me sad and want to die, but I think after the exam it'll be really worthwhile. Had loads of great moments doing the subject, and I have to concede it was sorta fun despite the struggle. Doing the HSC for Modern on Monday, and I have no clue what I'm going to do about that. However, the light at the end of the tunnel is that our whole class is getting shouted pizza Thursday Period 2, so uh 
And Chem is really getting into the good stuff. We burnt a ton of stuff today, but the best parts of today was looking at reversible reactions. We burnt some hydrated cobalt chloride, rehydrated it, and burnt again and the colours were so damn cool. Also burnt steel wool with a 9V battery and I would post videos but it likely won't fit.
Also getting reports next week  , not gonna end well (especially because of my rank 82 in english)

Hope everyone had a great week, good luck to everyone on exams!

[fun_jirachi]

Okay apart from nearly falling asleep at work yesterday and watching literally 80% of people seenzone me when I was doing a volunteering collection today in 35 degree heat, this week was pretty solid

Saturday I played tennis, and the team that showed up were two grades above my team because they got the wrong game time. So obviously we got destroyed but our team two grades up destroyed their team because the team that was supposed to play us showed up to that game. Weirdest weekend of tennis I've ever had.
Monday feels so long ago now. I did the Modern exam but like I feel like I did it last year, its so weird. Anyway I probably screwed up an MC, and I did go on autopilot for a lot of the exam because I got a headache halfway through, but hopefully everything goes okay (I'm still sure I answered the questions). Mostly I'm glad that it's over and that I actually like history again, and just the relief makes me feel like accelerating was worth it.
Tuesday and Wednesday were relatively uneventful except for the fact that I got my Prelim report on Wednesday. I jumped down the overall ranks a bit (as expected) but I'm a little disappointed in myself that I didn't even make the top 20%. To be fair I didn't put an equal amount of effort this semester in my other subjects mainly because of the HSC for maths and modern and to that end I sort of deserve it, but honestly still disappointed. And then I get my estimated ATAR which is below 99 and I get told 'you wouldve definitely gotten 99+ if modern wasn't there to drag you down'. So hopefully big things next year, and I put in a hell of a lot more effort in than this semester.
Thursday was great and terrible. The first half of the day was great - pizza party for modern and watching Forrest Gump. It was all great until I got to work and then I got super fatigued and nearly fell asleep.
And then today I did a collection. Best part of the day was seeing this guy chuck a 50 dollar note into my friends collection tin, but it was so demoralising saying 'hello' and 'good morning' and 'would you like to donate' and just getting the smiling seenzone, the 'i'm on the phone' trick, or just a regular seenzone. we didnt have anything to give away so it was just donations, and on other collection mornings when we have merch to sell I could get the 5 times the amount of money in the same timeframe. knowing this just sorta pissed me off because a lot of people I feel wouldve donated if we had stuff to sell ie. that you need to get something, anything back when donating money like that's so stupid, you should donate because you want to not because you want a stuffed animal or a brooch 

That's all from this week, hope everyone had a great week!