I have no motivation. the thought of studying makes me physically ill and I feel even if I start i will pack it up in 15 minutes and realise that I dont give a shit anymore. What the fuck can I do?? Ive been so sidetracked by everything in the last 3 months I no longer care. Im not looking forward to going to uni and I have little motivation to get into any of my preferences. I feel like a normal student now when a few months ago I was more driven than anybody.
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I think the problem is your approach. You say, for instance, that you can only study for 15 minutes and you feel bad about yourself because of it. Realistically, those 15 minutes though were better than doing nothing. When you're unmotivated, working is really hard, but somehow you managed to be able to work for 15 minutes despite it.
Everyone has that moment of 'I don't care anymore', it's pretty much normal, especially in year 12. Just because you feel this way, doesn't mean that you'll feel that way forever, after all, as you said, you started the year feeling really really motivated. This is something you can work through, and something that can improve.
I think that you should focus on how if you do work through it, you will feel really proud of yourself later. You won't regret anything you do this year, you'll know you did your best. Things you shouldn't focus on are your potential score and your dangers of doing badly. Those things don't actually matter, because chances are, you are going to get into a course you want anyway. What matters is how you'll look back on it later.
Some ways of coping with a lack of motivation involves:
- doing small tasks that don't take a lot of effort, but need to be done anyway (e.g. re-reading English books, arranging your notes, doing practise problems that you know you can already do).
- focusing on a few subjects and getting those down, rather than trying to concentrate on all your subjects at once.
- breaking up what you need to do into really small chunks.
- doing something that will absorb your attention, where you won't even look at the time until you finish it.
- taking a day off from study (you'll feel really refreshed after that).
- decide to work for 15 minutes before giving yourself a break. Since you know you can work for fifteen minutes, work for fifteen minutes. Take a break for as long as you want, even an hour or two if you really think you need it, then go back to studying for 15 minutes. You can actually get quite a few things done in 15 minutes.
- studying with friends, since one of the worst parts of study is the fact that you are completely isolated a lot of the time, and so any doubts you have might actually fester when you don't have anyone to bounce ideas off.
Lastly, you obviously do care about it because otherwise, why would you post a question asking for advice on how to improve your situation?