What course are you studying and at what uni? People might be able to give more specific advice that way.
A lot of first years experience this. You're definitely not alone even if it seems like it. I was overwhelmed as fuck and really struggled in my first semester but my pride forced me to keep a "chill" face on. I bet at least half your cohort is freaking out secretly like I did. I'm gonna go through what you've said and try to address everything, please feel free to ask if anything I've said doesn't make sense.
Sleepy in lectures:
- are you getting enough sleep? I know it seems obvious, but perhaps you need to re-evaluate your sleeping pattern. I used to think I could get by fine on 6 or 7 hours sleep and didn't realise why I was feeling so groggy all the time. Now I realise I'm one of those unlucky people who needs 8+ hours regularly and I feel much better.
- caffeine? Not a permanent solution but if you can't avoid late nights, it's good for keeping you alert for a short while.
Are you just bored by the subject matter? In which case it may be time to consider a different course. Just think about it - it's better to realise early on, and changing courses is never a waste of the time you've already spent - that is valuable time getting to know yourself and to know what interests you and what you want to do in your life. Hell, I'm in my fourth year and considering a change of course. It's scary but it's not wrong.
Dense textbooks:
- I understand that feeling - as a law student it's so damnably difficult trying to trudge through (sometimes really badly written) judgments. Study guides. Do they exist for your subject? If so, a good one is seriously a lifesaver. Look into it. Otherwise, try to make some friends in higher years and scab notes off them. Sometimes it just takes someone else's interpretation to make dense material less challenging.
Not being able to remember info:
- what kind of learner are you? Tailor your study methods to that. Don't rest on the assumption that what you're doing now is the best method, even if it worked for you during VCE - people change. Take some time to try other kinds - make a poster and stick it next to the bathroom mirror or on the toilet door; record yourself reading key points and listen to it while going for a run; hell, create an interpretative dance if that works. I don't know what you're actually studying but if there's an opportunity to apply what you have learned, I've found that works really well too.
Trouble finding resources:
- again I don't actually know what uni you go to but most places should have mini introductory courses/tours in their libraries, where they teach new students how to find resources. Have you asked about that? What exactly are you having trouble with?
Intellectually superior:
- bullshit. Don't let that kind of thinking permeate your mind. You're defeating yourself before you even give yourself a chance to succeed. You damn well earned your place like everyone else; you are their intellectual equal. Everyone struggles in their first semester, even their first year. I sure as hell did. Uni is a steep learning curve; you wouldn't make a person who's never exercised in their lives sprint up Mt Dandenong would you? You'd tell them to start with a slow walk, then a fast walk, then a gentle jog, and finally when they are fit enough, then try running, otherwise they'll just hurt themselves. Okay sorry for the terrible analogy but I hope you understand what I'm trying to get at here. Give yourself a break; take things slowly. It's not a competition. You're allowed to work at your own pace.
sorry for the essay -_-