A creative piece for a SAC that got perfect A+.
It's on Whose Reality? as you might guess. Context piece is A Streetcar Named Desire. Also will post as an ATARnote.Our experiences prevent us from seeing the truth.Floating in the air were words. I remember, from 20 years ago...they were the eloquent, magnificent and final words of a dying man. They were the sounds of a clarity to which I'd rather remain oblivious. These words came under the pretence of casting an explosion of light on the world, but I've always found that lights that are too bright can be blinding.
As I regain consciousness, my senses again enter my vision, and I realise where I am. The crowd in front of me waits with anticipation, as I dramatically shuffle around this stage that I've built on the concrete pathways of this city. The foundations of the platform I'm standing on are decorated with the neon lights of the sign that says 'Magic Show'. The stage itself was built by me, but regrettably there is an unsteadiness and fragility about it that marks the very floor of what I'm standing on.
My eyes briefly catch the metropolitan marvel of the city's towers, and the the water of the cascading river in front of me. However, I quickly revert my concentration back to my magic tricks, less so out of necessity and more so out of a desire to maintain the quality of these illusions.
I skilfully execute a classic now-you-see-it-now-you-don't performance, to the thunderous applause of the crowd. That is, except for one child in the front who doesn't seem to believe in my acts. There is an eerie distinction between him and the rest of the crowd; by his expressions, he seems to know exactly what I'm doing, a feat considering that even I don't know how I did these tricks myself.
And then, seeing an old man in the audience merely move his eyebrow, memories begin to envelop me from all directions. The crowd and city disappears, and replacing it is an unwanted sharpness.
The hospital. This is where I was 20 years ago. The plaster white walls, which are normally painted with a calm sterility of emotion, are today covered with urgency and desperation.
"Why wasn't anyone with him!?"
"How did this happen...?"
"You told us the medication would stop his heart from going!"
Questions transformed by panic turned into statements, then more questions, then accusations, all amidst the treacherous sea of tears and foreboding grief. Whilst my family continued like this, I met eyes with my grandpa, lying o the bed with the cold tentacles of machines that were supposed to keep him alive.
Like two lone sailors on a solitary boat, I looked to him and him to me. He was barely conscious, but he was still thinking...and then he dipped his eyebrow, and then I felt trepidation. Being so close to him, I knew this eyebrow well...it was the eyebrow of deep consideration, the very same wrinkled brow that told me my dog had passed away, or that my father was going on a 6 month trip overseas.
Amid a tsunami of chaos, I thought for a moment that he could see only me and I him. He urged me closer. I could do nothing but go to him, preparing for what could be the lats thing he ever said.
Then he started speaking...with a fold in his brow and a twinkle of starlight in his eye, he said:
"My grandson...our time together is short." I couldn't help but let a solitary tear escape from my eye as he said this, my ear hovering above his face.
"But...I want you to know something." His voice fading away increasingly.
"No matter what hardships you may face...there has, and always will be, magic in the world."
And then the glitter in his eye vanished, before I even had the chance to ask him what he meant. Then, a flatline...with its sharply cruel pitch ringing out...and then, silence.
I didn't want him to die, and when he passed away I felt that the empty spaces which he left in my life turned into the darkest of voids. The only thing spared, now, are those words...they brought me to where I am today, in the eternal pursuit of magic. It was by this magic that Grandpa was never truly gone. I believe he's still somewhere, in this world, waiting.
Magic will bring him back...I'm sure it will, it must. He said there was always magic in the world, and I cling on to the fact that a miracle may happen...he may come back, with the grinning face and light in his aura that he always carried...as long as I believe in magic, I earnestly believe he'll be back. I don't want to lose him; not then, not now, not ever.
I feel an omnipresence staring at me from all around, and I realise that all this time I was still on the stage, performing in front of a crowd. Their roars urge me on as movement starts to re-enter the muscles of my body.
I perform one last trick for them; it was one of the first I learnt, and yet the most blindingly dazzling. In a flash, the chains which appear locked together in my hands are separated, then re-attached, then re-broken. The crowd gasps, but prematurely; out of the chains, I procure a white dove from out of nowhere. The trick was so well executed that I get to the point of convincing myself it was almost real.
Ten minutes of applause and a standing ovation later, the crowd departs...except for that one child, who remains. on one hand, he appears to have seen through all my illusions, but on the other hand, he has a more complex expression on his face. I can't tell if it's anticipation, fear or happiness, but with that look he shuffles his way across to me, as if wanting something.
"Hello there, young man," I say almost as if I were talking to a younger version of myself. "What can I do for you today? Did you like the show?"
He shook his head, indicating no. That's right...he saw through my illusions, or at least I thought he did.
"Is that so..." I sigh, disappointed. Then, to surprise him, I produce an Ace of Spades out of thin air and try to amaze him once more.
"How about that?" I question, now attempting to prove to him my magic out of my necessity rather than his satisfaction.
He again shakes his head. Then, I pose a question to him, somewhat in childish desperation:
"Isn't this magic good enough for you?" It was after I said it that I realise that I don't just want this magic to convince him, but to convince myself.
With a sudden nervous but enthusiastic vivacity, he materialises from his jacket pocket his own set of playing cards.
"Oh...so you want me to show
me some magic," I say as if I had a minor epiphany.
Nodding energetically, he quickly shuffles the cards and asks me to pick one as he fans them out. I dutifully do so, and then he takes the card I picked and tries to execute his magic. However, as an inexperienced magician, he moves his hand much too quickly and fumbles all the cards in front of himself. They fall to the ground with majestic movement, but I am too busy laughing to tears to notice.
Then, with indignation, he fires out the first words I ever heard him say; "It's
still magic!"
Then he starts smiling, then laughing with me.
After calming down after one of the jovial moments I have personally experienced in years, I contemplate what he said a bit deeper.
It's still magic...
I abruptly realise at once exactly what my grandpa meant. He wasn't talking about illusionary magic like I thought he did, but the magic of happiness that I failed to realise was around me all along. It was this magic that was supposed to guide me, not my denial of his death that for all these years I desperately believed in...he's well and truly gone now, contrary to what I previously desired to and did actually believe...but maybe, now I can accept it.
I need to pursue another magic, now.
"Thanks, kid..." I say, confounding the boy with my words. All around me, the neon lights of the city crisply come into my vision once more, and I begin to hear the melodies of the city in full colour. I step off the stage and onto solid ground. The river in front of me flows like it always has been, but now...I can finally appreciate its forever flowing nature.
Written ExplanationI wrote this piece as a first person interior monologue (with occasional dialogue) directed at a general audience. The purpose is to show that reality can be denied in order to prevent pain, but ultimately there is a possibility of a greater happiness in acceptance. The unnamed narrator is similar to Blanche in that he is almost delusional in the death of his Grandpa, both propagated by a desire to believe that what they had was not truly lost. The child is meant to almost be a confrontation of reality, with implications of seeing through his illusions somewhat in the same way that Stanley from Streetcar does, compounded by the effect of New Orleans on Blanche. However, these elements conversely impact the narrator in a healing instead of destructive way. The repeated metaphors of light/sound represent reality whereas the magic tricks represent illusion. The "unsteadiness and fragility" of the stage represents the state of the narrator's psychology. There is a large ocean metaphor to both illustrate the vastness and solitary nature of his situation. The river at the end represents change and the flow of time, and the narrator's appreciation of that river signifies the appreciation of such change.