Term 3 - 23/08/19Look i'm posting yay! So these past three weeks have been quite hectic for me, and I have also been in a burnout slump, which isn't very helpful. I have had a SAC every week of august, and I am going to have a few more in September. These have been really time consuming, and have been stressing me out alot. Not much else is going on in my life at the moment, and I have yet again failed to try start exercising again. I really need to put my health first, but I jeep putting school work first. I have had a teacher warn me about overworking myself and to slow down, as i am not doing so great at the moment with my health. But apparently I don't listen, cause I keep doing it.
The good news is, is that the school holidays are only 4 weeks away, which is such a relief. I can't wait to have a small rest, and then get into exam revision. I am also going to one of the biology ATAR notes lecturers which is exciting. It's my first one, so it should be good to check it out, and see if it is a resource I can use for my other subjects next year. I have been feeling a bit weird about my ATAR and future prospects lately. I just kind of feel like this is all pointless, and I am pushing myself way to hard to a point where I am just compromising health. All i need is an atar to at least get into a bachelor of science, and maybe biomed, and that's about it. I am not aiming for high 90's, but low 90's or high 80's. I am just really frustrated, as I have a health condition that is really holding me back, and (i know I shouldn't compare myself to others) compared to others in my year, everyone is doing well in school, whilst having a job and a balanced social life. Unfortunately for me, with being so fatigued, I can only really put my energy into my studies that are the main priority right now. So it is getting me down a little at the moment, and I think I am just really worn out and not in a good mind space at the moment.
SubjectsBiologySo the poster SAC has finally come to an end. I have sent it off today, and boy oh boy is it a relief. I spent so many hours on this, as I had to repeat the experiment after the lab day because of bad results, then record everything in the lab dairy, then finally write the goddamn poster thing. This was so annoying, and took so much time, I am just glad it is over and done with. I feel like I didn't do as great of a job I normally do on these posters. To me, I just struggled with using my words, keeping all the background information in line with the word count, and getting PowerPoint to listen to me. The next four weeks are the last weeks of content for biology which is so exciting! I can't wait to finish up so I can start revising everything.
I am still a bit anxious for the exam as this is my first VCE type exam. I am also scared at how my health will go on the day. I didn't do the GAT, and the exam centre is an hours drive from my place, which means an early morning for me. I just didn't want to do my exam at a school. With being an online student, walking into a highschool with people you don't know, who are in uniforms when your not, and just a new environment, I think that would make my anxiety go through the roof. I don't even have much anxiety, but I think that this would be a bit much with the exam day jitters. So I will just have to drive the 1 hour there.
I also got my first unit 4 SAC back, which was a lovely 29/30. I have pretty happy with this, but a bit annoyed I lost a mark to an ethics question of Bt corn. To me, ethics can be quite opinion based, so I found it hard to separate my opinions from VCAA's. But so far, this unit is off to a good start.
ChemistryI am about 2 weeks behind in chemistry at the moment. I have just prioritised other subjects so this has just snuck up on me. We have finally moved on from water, and are doing acid and bases, redox reactions, and doing some titrations. I was able to go into the lab 2 weeks ago, and I felt that we did a real chemistry experiment, not just a mentos and coke experiment. I have done so many mole and ion calculations my brain is going to explode soon, so yeah.... My teacher decided that putting all 3 chemistry SACs in 3 weeks was a great idea, so that is coming up in a week, and I am not looking forward to it. Aside from this, I haven't found this unit of chemistry very interesting. I would definitely rate unit 1 a 8/10, but so far, unit 2 is about a 4/10 for me.
EnglishEnglish just makes me sad at this point. I am so over it. I have so many books I want to read, but I am stuck on reading what s provided. I had to do a comparative essay the other week for the first SAC, and it went quite well. I managed to score a B+ which is a great score for me. I am moving onto doing a final copy of it, then I will send it off and start on the opinion essay SAC coming up next week. I am also about to get in contact with a English tutor. I think it would be great to refine my writing, and try get above 80's on average. So that's about it, for this boring, never ending subject.....
Food StudiesJust had my first food studies SAC last week and it went great. I had to prepare a recipe based on a design brief, that I then had to go an answer many questions about. I had to write up yet another HACCP plan, and I also got to make a dish. It ended up being a healthy snack bar, which looks awful but tastes quite nice. It has every health food trend you can imagine in this recipe, so it definitely ticks those constraints. I managed to get an A, which is fine, but I was hoping for a little bit higher. I wish I got feedback on it too. All I got was a mark and that was it. No rubric marking or anything, which was so annoying. And just a mild rant, MY TEACHER WON"T CONTACT ME. I have tried to call this person 5 times with no response. They have no email address, so I can't contact them be that, and I have tried the built in messaging system on the school website and nothing. I have given up. This has gone on for three weeks. I have tried to call, but if you won't answer, you're not getting the work as I can't do it at this point in time, and since I can't contact you, I can't find another solution to do the work. End of rant.
Maths MethodsI started it. I finally started to catch up. I am up to week two now, which still isn't great, but some progress is better than none.
Thanks for reading, and i hope you all have a great weekend. I will try to post weekly again, but sometimes things come up.