Term 2 Week 4 18/05/19 Hello everybody, welcome back to my mediocre existence
Soooo, i'm feeling really negative this week
if ya can't tell. There are a few reasons but I won't go into all. So i don't know how many other people go through this with this awesome irrationality, but getting back my SAC results even though it was an amazing score, really put my thoughts on overdrive. Okay, so for my biology SAC I did on cellular signals I got a 19/20 (A+). Now..... that's a great result, i'm still most likely at the top of my cohort, but guess what! My brain went into over drive with logic going completely out the window. All i could think about was, that was such a dumb mark to lose (not mentioning the mitochondria for the intrinsic pathway) and beating myself up over it. For some reason, i had two brief thoughts of going this is going to affect everything yada yada
first world problem thinking. So yeah, i think this is just the mind of a perfectionist + worrier, but this kinda brought me down, even though it was a really great score. I've had time to come to my senses, and i know this won't really do anything to my score, so I think i just need to learn that I did the best I can and there isn't anything i can do about it know.
I really hope i don't sound like a pretentious dick with first world problems, but that's just my brain.
So also this week on my self pity party, dealing with my stupid illness. Now i'm not going into what is actually is, but it means i become *extreamly tired. Like all the time. I'm not just talking, "oh, i didn't get enough sleep", or "I could use a nap", i'm talking full on tiredness. Seeing other peoples amount of study can achieve whilst they go to school, do other activities and work on top of that while all i can really do is study 2-6 hours a day with sleeping the rest of it really put me in a mood. I got really annoyed with one my siblings friend, who i told that i had slept 9 hours that day (not over night sleep), and they said that that would have been nice and they wish they could do that. I know they can't comprehend what it is like to live with something like this, and that they where most likely just thinking that having a nap as a regular person would be nice, but it just got to me. I have been slowly getting better, but getting frustrated on being behind or not keeping up with everyone else just really screwed with my head this week. Anyway, sorry this is kind of a sad post, but this was just how my week went.
Biology Oh my god, the amount of work that was shoved into my brain this week was absolutely horrendous. I think i now HATE the immune system. Don't get me wrong, it is very interesting, but with how much work was given this week was bonkers. I did 16 hours of work on this week, learning all about the third line of defense. I still don't understand how B lymphocyte are activated. Like do the antibodies just match up with an antigen on a pathogen and activate, or does that happen on an APC with a MHC I and a T helper cell. I have never been this confused before. I spent SO many hours on google and I still don't know.
I also don't have a textbook and have to get by on Biozone Aside from that got my last SAC back 19/20 (you read my rant above). So yeah that about conclude this week in bio, I am hoping next week is shorter.
Chemistry Honestly bored. I don't mind nanotechnology, but I think i was just flat out zonked from all the stuff in Biology that i had no room in my brain for interest. So I just rushed through it, couldn't be stuffed doing the questions in the textbook, so I was very lazy with this. But I did it non the less.
Next week is the last week on unit 1 for me (unless i do the exam but I think it is optional yay!) so looking forward to that.
Physics Very average week. I got it out of the way quickly with squishing it down to 5 hours! Learnt all about radioactive decay. Very nostalgic, bringing me back to year 8 and 9, so it made for an easier week. Still can't do the calculations though
English Nothing, nada, zlinch, 零. So I haven't done any English. Not because I didn't want to
although that is me most of the time I needed a corrected draft that wasn't given to me on time so this SAC is getting postponed, but it's not my fault.
Maths Methods Going to try get around to that tomorrow. Really wanted to start getting it done earlier, but you know, biology took soooooo long this week. I am going to need to cram 7 weeks into 3. **** Looking forward to the S *cough F*
In other news, my knee is healing up well, and I think I can start doing exercise again. I also believe I have an ANT infestation in my house. The buggers are all over the place. Lucifer season 4 is back on netflix so have just been chilling watching that. Haven't gotten to read much of my book unfortunately, really tired and other priorities. Baked a banana cake and tried to see the Aurora Australis. Butttttt even after waiting 2 hours, it didn't come so
why couldn't you be stronger CME!
Well, no i really don't want that to happen as all of our electrical things would explode and the world would go into chaos Sorry that this post is quite long and a little on the pessimistic side and a bit depressing. Hopefully you guys are having a better week. Till next time 再见.
*If i made any spelling errors or grammar mistakes, sorry!