So I still haven't heard back about the asthma thing - I called recruiting today, and the nurse said they received the report from the asthma test, so I just have to wait for the doctor's to make a decision... yikes. I'm not sure what's going to happen, but guessing by other people's experiences, they'll put me on a 3 month trial of meds then ask me to redo the test. I didn't really have a problem with this, but last night it occurred to me that 3 months is a LONG time.
Long story short, I still have to do an OSB (a round of interviews in Canberra - these are only held in the school holidays for ADFA so they don't affect your HSC. The last ones for the 2021 intake are in the October holidays, but you have to do a separate one for each service.) I've applied for civil engineering in both the army and the airforce. I had army as my first preference. The army OSB requires the medical things to be cleared - meaning I need to wait until my asthma is cleared. After 3 months, I would miss the last OSB opportunity and it would be too late. However, the air force OSB doesn't require you to have medical cleared prior to sitting it.
Long story short, I'm hoping to get an air force OSB booked asap, so I can secure a spot for ADFA next year. Most likely, I would have to do this OSB during the October holidays (right before HSC ahhhh!!!!). That's ok though.
I guess I'm just worried that what if after all this hard work, time and energy I've put in (and will continue to put in) to my application, what if I don't get accepted. What if they fail my asthma or I don't pass my interviews... I doubt I would fall short of the ATAR (it's only 85), but that's also a possibility.
ahhhh
SO yeah, idk. I know it's out of my control, and all I can do is try hard at school, keep my fitness up, keep contacting DFR and trying to push my application. I'm also scared of what if I go to USYD or another civilian uni, then regret not going to ADFA. Or what if I go to ADFA thru airforce, then regret not going through army?? I've been thinking soooo much about all this. Bottom line is, I can't regret missing out on something which I tried my best to achieve. If I don't get into ADFA knowing that I couldn't have done anything different, then so be it. Aaand this is so much easier said than done! I KNOW I would be devastated if I don't get in, but for now, I will keep my options open and keep trying really really hard and doing everything I can to increase my chances of getting in.
This goes out to anyone else also applying for uni, especially if you have a fixed goal in mind - it's so easy to get set on that one goal (I know I certainly am...), and let it consume your mind. Literally I don't even want to consider other options (I know I will have to, better to plan and be prepared) because it means I have to consider the unwanted possibility of me not getting in to where I want to go. And that's painful, who wants to look at the negative! We just gotta be smart and plan for the worst...
So even though this application process is stressful and uncertain and scary, I'm gonna keep pushing through. Don't give up guys! Feels good to write + reflect on all this
Just gotta keep pushing on.