I think if we're going to express all of our regrets here everything will be better!
I regret for not joining AN earlier, like from last year!
I regret for not giving in to Methods earlier and gave it up sooner!
I regret for reading notes instead of writing essays for English!
I regret for not getting my shit together and be serious more for yr12 from summer!
Be free from me, negative thoughts!
Those things you list above are not worthy to regret at all!
I didn't join AN from last year
I dropped uni maths
I read notes instead of doing prac essays for esl, probably I only wrote 1-2 essays before SACs and exams
I didn't give year 12 a sh** from summer, just went back my country and went out, had fun with friends
We just did the same things yeh?
And because we are both international students and from the same country, I think I need to tell you this fact
1. No matters what ATAR you get, no one in VN cares because they have no idea wth ATAR is
What they ask you is what course you get in. And there are plenty of pathways to get into your fave course.
You also have a back-up plan at Monash college then transfer course in 2nd year, so stop worrying about it too much
2. You won't let your parents down because they always love you despite your low or high ATAR
You are the one who knows most how much money they spend for you and how much they sacrifice so that you can study in Melbourne.
They want you to have a good education in a good country, not high ATAR
3. Remember how many people in our country wanna study in Australia but their parents can't afford, they can't get scholarship or they are not accepted by the immigration department. Remember how hard it was for you to apply visa to study here. Thus, you should feel lucky that your life is so so much better than heaps of people
So why do you have to regret about those things?
You will go back your home country soon and the moment you see your loved ones, I'm sure you won't think of it anymore
Just enjoy the holidays and spend time with your family, friends,... They need you and love you just the way you are
Don't regret for what happened in the past, it just sinks you down and never solves any probs
Not sure if it helps but hope you feel better after reading this
"Its better to let go of something than to hold on nothing"