Haha, well once I got to the end they kind of stared at me for a while, and then one of them said "Oh damn, I completely forgot to take notes" haha
OMG THAT IS AWESOME!!
lie, I'm struggling. Finding it hard to get the motivation, and I always feel like whatever I do is inadequate 
I don't know, I hope I get over it soon, I just feel so overwhelmed and... lost? gaah!
Thisthisthis. I don't feel like I'm working hard enough, haha! I'm sure that'll change.
Yeah I think that's pretty natural Simby
. I think as far as advice goes the biggest tip I can give you is to remain calm within the chaos. Almost detached to a degree, but not in an avoidance way. Focus, in the middle of the warzone, if you will. Right now it seems like whatever you do, there's some enormous gap between where you are right now and where you're aiming to be, and it's like no matter how hard you chase it the distance never lessens. It's definitely okay to feel this way. There are plenty of people that have felt that way, are feeling that way, and will feel that way in the future. You've two options, really. You can battle the feelings and just shower yourself in positive thought, or you can accept your emotions but intellectually recognise them as untrue, and continue to do what needs to be done regardless. You've already got two great scores, one of them unarguably exceptional. Just
know that it's been done, you have already personally done it, and recognise that you can do it again. Just keep moving forward in your mind. You feel lost, I definitely understand that. For me, instead of 'lost' it was a sort of 'trapped' feeling. As if I were in the middle of a huge, huge marketplace and everyone was hustling and bustling around me, jostling me, surrounding me, and I knew where I needed to go but this absolute sea of chaos was making it impossible. That's what I mean but sort of, accept it, but intellectually keep going. On one hand, I felt the chaos, and on the other I picture myself in a little bubble, sort of unable to hear what was going on around me and half ignoring it as I steadily kept moving through. On motivation... It's up to you. What's the reason? (Don't actually answer that)... Keep it close to your heart. There is a passion, a reason in there somewhere that means even though failure is an option, you will continue to choose success. It can be shallowly answered, "It would be nice to score highly", but within everyone is something more deeply seated. Find it, and don't let it go. Ever. During the times I felt like my bubble was popping and I couldn't get through the chaos, I'd intellectualise it by saying "Are you going to tell your future students that you gave up? You need the awesome story to tell your students, they need the faith and trust in you." and on another hand I needed it personally, to show myself I wasn't a screw up. That was my passion. Sometimes I lost it and I needed to resort to motivation (for they're two distinctly different things), and that was okay, so long as I kept going. It also gets better. Year 12 becomes habitual. At the very start for me was the worst (as well as Shenzy from memory). To the point I cried my guts out at the end of Term 1 because it was just, insanely far too much. Term 2 was different, I was more calm amongst that chaos.
Loz, perhaps reevaluate the way you are working? You either aren't working hard enough or you just feel like that. Try to be objective with it. I'd bet a lot of money that it's the latter. You could either up it to the point where you feel like you're doing enough (which really, I just don't recommend, maintaining that level for a year would be superhuman), or just recognise that the first term is NOT as dense a workload than say, the end of term three. See it as you're maintaining your reserves for the final battle. It's okay to not feel as if you're giving your absolute hardest, because you really won't until SWOTVAC when you supersede your own perceptions of what your 'all' actually is.
Trust me, you'll look back at VCE and ask "Why did I study so hard when I could have been doing <insert enjoyable activity>?" 
"Because now I am in second year med and can now do <insert enjoyable activity> without having to worry about the GAMSAT".
Probably haha
I just feel like I won't even be able to scrape 30's in my subjects! argh
Intellectually recognise this as false. Because there's nothing further than the truth. You've already smashed 30s in two. By the way, I recently found out that I scored 20/20 for Twelve Angry Men - I've got your back. If you can't have faith in yourself, have faith in me
Methods has really taken me down. I struggled with a few basic things, that I needed for the whole chapter. Few classes later, I was a chapter behind. But I did finally get help, and now I'm up to date with methods. But because of all the work, I'm behind on some other subjects, but I'm getting back on track with them too
Motivation is still as high as it was at the start of the year 
It's getting better actually. Since I was an idiot last year (arguably still am hahah) now I've been doing so much more work and feel a lot more confident.
The fact that I bounced back in methods is a sign for me that I can sorta get back up if something goes down south. Which is always reassuring
Good to hear buddy. Keep at it! You can always give more than you think you can give. It's good to have your own back and no that no matter what happens, you've been through worse and you'll go through worse and this is just another stepping stone. That served me well and some very critical moments of the year, including the English exam when I had thirty minutes to write a piece I hadn't started hahaha.
So far, it hasn't been very stressful yet because I worked ahead quite a bit during the holidays. However, the school work is catching up so in a few weeks I might start feeling stressed.
Don't throw away your disadvantage. Keep going steady right now. Don't leave it to the point where you have to play catch-up.
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