I have no idea what next year will be like or even what after November will be like and that scares me a little.
I have a rough plan, buuut it's sketchy at the moment.
I want to defer study. i need time to save up money so I can move out into college interstate. At least that's what I think I want right now.
In the meantime i have 16 months to do whatever the hell I want, money and time permitting.
I'm scared of meeting that void, and filling it with stuff that isn't school. And I'm afraid of being lonely and a bit lost because I'm not in a system anymore; I'll be finding my own way. But I'm also really excited!

First of all I really want to write the first draft of a novel. It's been something that has been bugging me for years and years, but school has taken priority. I think that next year is the year it's going to happen. I'm going to write so much, with short stories and poetry on the side. I want to know if I could really make something of my writing if I focused on it for a year. ( This makes me question the PhB and plans to move to Canberra, because what if being in the academic world isn't something that want in the end? Maybe i just want to be creative...I don't know haha)
To help me out, I'd really like to buy a fountain pen and a typewriter and a new laptop and phone.

I want to see live music, and become obsessed with a group I haven't heard of before. I want to watch movies and follow a series. I'd love to enter singing Eisteddfods and focus more on my singing and performing.
I need a job, preferably full time. I'm going to tutor Lit ( and hopefully English) as well. ( heads up guys for anyone interested!) I want to become more worldly before I shuttle myself off to another educational institution. Maybe if there's enough money left over I could travel as well. I want to go back to Germany and try out my speaking skills. I'm even considering a working holiday in Europe. There are soo many possibilities.
I want to read more books. I want to immerse myself in words. I want the luxury of going to the public library for a day and spending the whole day reading.
I want to keep making art. I've had to keep a folio for three years in school and not having one would feel quite strange to me.
I want to get fit and join a gym or a running club or a netball club.
I want to go to more parties and socialise more and build up new and old relationships I'm not sure if I'll be disconnected from my friends as they find new pathways and meet new people at uni. I'm sure I'll still keep in touch with many of them, but I'd like to meet new people as well, somehow. BUT HOW IF I'M NOT AT UNI?
I DUNNO GUYS I'M EXCITED/ ALSO SLIGHTLY TERRIFIED