I think I am going Insane

[biy]

Topic says it all, really. I think I am going insane. I am never happy, I never smile, I have nothing to live for. I am reclusive, I literally am only living right now for VCE, I actually cannot see myself doing something else with my life. I am hopeless, that's what I am..

What's the point of it all? All I ever do is study, I have only once been outside my house (apart from school) and that was a trip to the doctors

I feel worthless, I am worthless..

[grannysmith]

You know, and I can assure you, many people, including myself, are going through the same thing. It really is just about VCE at the moment. Most of the day really is just dedicated to studying. But you know, and I can assure you, many people, including myself, do not think you are 'hopeless', nor are you 'worthless'. No one is. And no one should view themselves as such.

What's the point of it all? Well, only you can answer that question. But whatever the answer may be, there must be a very good and most definitely a worthwhile reason behind it.

I think a lot of people are burning out at this stage of the year, and perhaps you are too. Is studying an enjoyment, or is it more a chore - a laborious, tedious task which never seems to end? It's good and most definitely beneficial to take a break from studying, and doing things you genuinely enjoy. Now I'm not suggesting that you perceive studying in such a way, but if I had to suggest one thing, it'd be that balance is the key to succeeding. And I believe this extends to other facets of life.

Right now, you have the ability to be happy, to smile, and to realise your worth. It's your choice - and your choice entirely. 

[sjayne]

Hey there, I'm sorry that things are so difficult and seem so pointless right now. But I can relate to a lot of this because the majority of my  time during VCE especially felt like this.

There is life outside of VCE. I know right? How can there be when this feels like your whole world right now. Well, it does end. And then you have all of this freedom that you couldn't even think about before. You can choose to go travelling or to work or go to uni or tafe and find what makes you, you. You get to learn about whatever you are passionate about and if you don't know what that is yet, I promise that one day you will find it.

You study so that you can have the future that you want, and sometimes it's difficult to focus on this long term goal but when you do it's worth it. I'm enjoying university so much at the moment and I'm so glad that i didn't give up, because I felt like I wasn't good enough to ever get anywhere, but I didn't.

You don't have to finish VCE. You could go to tafe and then uni after that, or you could even drop a subject and make things a little easier for yourself. Nobody would think any less of you. Your health and happiness are way more important than education, and that will always be there anyway.

I promise that you're not worthless, nobody is. Whether it's that you're good at one thing in particular, you're kind and make other people feel better or that you're just a nice person. Everyone has worth. Our education system is flawed and I don't think it really tests everyone's capabilities. The scores you get aren't going to define who you are as a person because you are so much more than a number.

Maybe try and take a few 'me' days where you don't study at all but do something that makes you feel happy and think about what's important to you. There is life outside of school, even now, and you need to experience that too. I hope things start looking up for you soon and feel free to message me at any time.

[Wharton]

Most people feel burnt out around this time of the year, you should just calm down first.

If you want, you could head down to Dandenong for a weekend, then surely you'll feel motivated to study!

[biy]

Thanks guys for your kind words, but the dilemmas never cease to haunt me..

Sure I can take some days off, but that will only make things worse. I have absolutely nothing to do. NOTHING. You cannot say you will develop a hobby, you will find something soon. No, I really will not. What have I to do if I even take a day off? Sit on my bed all day and do nothing? How is that a break? It's not, really, it's probably worse than studying...

I think it's time to give up for me, I really think it is.

[MonsieurHulot]

Thanks guys for your kind words, but the dilemmas never cease to haunt me..

Sure I can take some days off, but that will only make things worse. I have absolutely nothing to do. NOTHING. You cannot say you will develop a hobby, you will find something soon. No, I really will not. What have I to do if I even take a day off? Sit on my bed all day and do nothing? How is that a break? It's not, really, it's probably worse than studying...

I think it's time to give up for me, I really think it is.

Why take a day off just to sit on your bed? You can do whatever you want, go for a walk, go see a movie, take the train somewhere you haven't been. Sure, you could sit around feeling sorry for yourself, but seeing as you've already identified the problem (reclusiveness, lack of fun) you may as well fix it. No one else can, so it's up to you.

[Callum@1373]

It's going to end eventually! All the hard work you have put into study will benefit you! It will end, time won't stop, just keep that in the back of your mind!