"What'll It Be?"a post-ATAR post by BeaI woke up today with a throbbing headache at 8:43am and first thing I did was check the HSC 2017 Discussion page on Facebook to check out the pre-ATAR memes. Though it came to my surprise when people said that the ATARs were already out. I was planning to get ready and to film my reaction but realised that my shift started in one hour so I had to get this ATAR out of the way. I typed in my student number and my pin and came out my ATAR of
bea's atar lol
89.50 lol. My HSC marks are in my signature lol
At first I was a bit disappointed because the ATAR calculators said I could get 90+. After reading my ATAR, my headache got worse. I called my parents and they were a bit sad at first because of how close the ATAR was but they didn't mind because they already knew I got into the film school I've always wanted to get into. Afterwards I took a shower, ate leftovers from last night and put on my work uniform. I walked into work with the worse headache in the world. I took a tablet of panadol, though the headache never went away.
Thirty minutes into my shift, I was fixing a display when I overhead a conversation between my boss and another co-worker in an aisle next to mine. I heard them say the words 'HSC' and knew they were going to ask me about it. They walked past me a second later and my boss said "Hey Beatrice. Apparently your HSC marks are out?". I told them my ATAR and they started congratulating me. Although, I was like "I was close to getting that 90+". I pretty much told every co-worker about my ATAR as a way of explaining why I had the worse headache in the world. The pharmacist recommended me Nuromol. Took about two hours for Nuromol to sink in. The headache was finally gone. But the thought of being so close to a 90 never went away.
As soon as I finished work, I called up my friend (who went to my school's morning tea) to ask how everyone went. Our school didn't get into the top 100 (as expected but I was really hoping to get into the top 100 like our 2015 cohort), therefore scaling didn't really favour anyone. However, all the teachers were super excited to see everyone again and congratulate us on our performance, regardless of ATAR or HSC marks. A couple of my friends got 90+ ATARs and I feel like such a proud mum. I'm also proud of those who got a Band 6 and everyone in general. I haven't got the confirmation letter but I'm pretty sure I will be invited to my school's high achievers assembly next year (thank you my Band 6 in Visual Arts and my ARTEXPRESS 2018 selection!). I hope that my achievements and the other achievements of my fellow high achievers can inspire the girls at my school. Good luck to my school's 2018 cohort. I'm confident that they will get amazing ATARs and can beat our school's ranking for this year (I don't mind them beating us. They're a lovely cohort)
It's currently 10:26pm and I'm typing this up. I guess it hasn't fully sunk in that I got (_____) for my ATAR but I have to accept it sometime soon. Everyone here on AN did such an AMAZING JOB with their HSC marks and ATARs! It blows my mind how intelligent people can be! I want to give everyone a hug. My ATAR doesn't really matter because I'm going to AFTRS next year anyways. I will be surrounded by my fellow filmmakers and I'm so excited. But I will miss learning my HSC subjects. I will miss writing essays about Marcel Duchamp's innovative 'Fountain' artwork. I will miss proving if a turning point is maximum or minimum. I will miss learning all about Darius I and Xerxes' pettiness towards the Greeks during the Persian wars. I will miss watching social experiments and discovering the impact of the Stanford Prison Experiments. I will miss exploring the world of Billy Elliot and his capacity to defy social and gender expectations. But most of all, I will miss my school. I will miss seeing the office ladies when I leave the school early. I will miss turning up late to school and being marked absent in homeroom (happened so many times already. Think my homeroom teacher hates me tbh). I will miss sitting in the common room with my friends. I will miss taking photos for the school as a media representative. I will miss talking to my teachers when I walk past them in the corridor.
Despite graduating back in September, I guess it has finally sunk in that I've graduated. My HSC marks and my ATAR are here. It's probably gonna take me about 2 days to feel fully satisfied with my ATAR, but I just have to keep remembering that there's a lot more in the future. I will be doing a Bachelor of Arts Screen: Production at AFTRS for three years. I will be attending my ARTEXPRESS exhibition in Orange in August next year. I will be discovering new paths and I can grow more as a person. I'm excited to experience more life experiences and events that I never experience during my time as a high schooler.
I know this entry sounds really cheesy and is super long but I thought my last(?) entry for my HSC Journey Journal has to finish with a BANG.
So that's Bea signing off. She's no longer buzzing through the HSC.
See you next year at the University Journey Journal forums
I shall be buzzing through film school soon.
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