Tempestuously cruising through the HSC

[Lumenoria]

OMG!! Super stressful - I had a similar scare with my composition for Music!! From that moment on, everything important was backed up to the cloud. If you download something like 'Backup and Sync' from Google, you can take existing folders on your computer and back them up to a Google Drive (for free). You could also migrate all your stuff to a Dropbox or something? This saved me at university when I had a motherboard fry on a Macbook and I didn't end up being able to recover a bunch of my data

Fingers crossed it comes soon!!

I know right omgg, I'm being serious about dropping out of school if it hadn't turned out in my favour hahaha - I literally can't even fathom going through that AGAIN. I actually have all of it on Google Drive, except it's kinda pointless because I've reached the 15gb limit so nothing syncs anymore!! I'll probably do the dropbox thing haha

[Lumenoria]

OMG thank god you found your laptop, I legit would have cried if they didn't find it! I can't think of anything worse than undergoing all the stress and time again after we all have endured it once (which is definitely enough).

Literally legit me with the reports. Still nothing. Getting annoyed at this point because I am just dying to know my rankings AGH

I KNOW!!! Holy crap, there couldn't be anything truer than that. WHILE I WAS WAITING FOR THAT PHONE CALL, I WAS THINKING TO MYSELF "THIS BITCH HAS MY FUTURE IN HER HANDS" HAHAHAHA

hOly fuck we're literally the same person!! Lmao I was so curious that I literally called the school pretending to be a parent just to find out approximately when they'd be distributed. I might actually complain if they're not given on Friday, because that's just ridiculousss. I'm just curious because I legit have no clue where I'm sitting in those subjects atm hahahahah OMG I'm praying for both of us. We're such nerds my god - literally no one at my school has even really mentioned it... meanwhile I'm practically craving it mentally lol

[emilyygeorgexx]

I KNOW!!! Holy crap, there couldn't be anything truer than that. WHILE I WAS WAITING FOR THAT PHONE CALL, I WAS THINKING TO MYSELF "THIS BITCH HAS MY FUTURE IN HER HANDS" HAHAHAHA

hOly fuck we're literally the same person!! Lmao I was so curious that I literally called the school pretending to be a parent just to find out approximately when they'd be distributed. I might actually complain if they're not given on Friday, because that's just ridiculousss. I'm just curious because I legit have no clue where I'm sitting in those subjects atm hahahahah OMG I'm praying for both of us. We're such nerds my god - literally no one at my school has even really mentioned it... meanwhile I'm practically craving it mentally lol

I am actually DYING for it. It's like I actually need it right now. We seem to have a lot of the same issues which is so funny AHAH!! I also legit need mine for a scholarship I'm applying for so the school better get their shit together!!!!

[Lumenoria]

I am actually DYING for it. It's like I actually need it right now. We seem to have a lot of the same issues which is so funny AHAH!! I also legit need mine for a scholarship I'm applying for so the school better get their shit together!!!!

HAHAHAH OATH!! What scholarship are you applying for?

[emilyygeorgexx]

HAHAHAH OATH!! What scholarship are you applying for?

Well I actually want to do Commerce/Law at UNSW but if I can't get into that then I hopefully will get into Commerce. Then the scholarship I am applying for is Commerce (Co-op) at UNSW just as a back up and second option.

[Lumenoria]

Well I actually want to do Commerce/Law at UNSW but if I can't get into that then I hopefully will get into Commerce. Then the scholarship I am applying for is Commerce (Co-op) at UNSW just as a back up and second option.

Ahh, I see!! I've been thinking of applying for it too just for the off chance it might work in my favour, but I looked at the application the other day and they ask for your bloody year 11 marks - where I dropkicked so many of my subjects hahaha!

[Lumenoria]

I was lowkey really pissed at my Multimedia teacher today - he's such a fucking slacker. I feel bad for saying it so bluntly, but there's nothing more true than that. All he does is sit there while all of us are chipping away at our major works - we NEVER go over the written exam component until there is an absolute dire need for it (i.e. 1 week before the exam). The whole cohort is basically dropkicks - so no one really cares besides me, which doesn't help. Mind you, I completely understand the onus is on me to learn the content - but surely the teacher is partially to blame here. Because most people aren't inherently academics in the class and there is practically an absence of discipline, hardly anyone is passing except for me. I'm not even speaking from a position of weakness - I'm 99% sure I'm topping it anyway - but it would be nice if he weren't so fucking lazy, for the sake of everyone else. We've been handing in our major works every 2 weeks at his command, yet receive NO feedback on it whatsoever. Like, legit, he never even mentions anything about it after we hand it in... just more deadlines. It's frustrating.

[Lumenoria]

Omg the legal excursion today was so amazing!! It was so interesting, we were practically all fangirling over one of the judges we watch in class HAHAHA. It was so freaking good, but we kept getting pulled out of the courts for lunch and recess so we never got to hear the outcomes of any of the cases. Some of them were pretty funny to watch as a viewer, especially the self represented ones haha. It was definitely worth the wait.

I have barely done any work back at home though. I've caught up/gone ahead with most of my subjects anyway, so I've just been chipping away at my major work - which is going good! I've been doing 4-5 hours of study per day, but I only did 3 ish today haha. I'm fucking craving Criniti's though omgg. I need pasta so bad ah.

[Lumenoria]

Got my report, finally!! Honestly, it's not horrendous but I'm still disappointed. My marks were as follows -

English Advanced - 86 - 5/36
Maths - 88 - 4/54
Legal Studies - 95 - 3/30
Economics - 87 - 3/18
Multimedia - 88 - 1/18

So, they're decent, I guess. However, I felt as though my Advanced English reported mark, and hence rank, were wrong, because my friend got the EXACT same marks as me for the respective assessments, yet she ranked 2nd... while I came 5th. However, her reported mark was 87 - whilst mine is 86 - which doesn't quite make any sense, so I have a feeling either: My teacher told me the wrong mark for my Module A assessment; or they put my marks into the system incorrectly. Either way, I was super confused (although I'm pretty sure the major disparity between 2nd and 5th were accounted for by multiple people tying due to the relative gap of merely 1 mark between 2nd and 5th). So after report distribution, we had English - which is when I brought my concern up with my teacher (who is the head of the English faculty). I felt so fucking petty even mentioning it over just 1 mark, but tbh I wasn't even expecting them to up my rank or anything - I just wanted clarification. She asked me to show her my report - which I did - then looked something up on the computer whilst we were doing questions. Then she was like "I'll fix it. See me on Monday about it because I'll forget about it once I walk out the door". I'm not sure if that means I'm actually supposed to be 2nd, but it should.

On another note, I've been through absolute torture psychologically because of my home life. It's just so fucking difficult and I really really want to consider independent living but there is no way I'll be able to achieve my academic goals if I'm working even more to support myself. It's already hell as is. I feel so isolated though because my friends have gone through some bloody rough waters, so I have to stay strong to support them. It's just so hard to feign strength and confidence, when I'm being shattered into a million pieces inside. I think I'm relapsing because I've grown to become addicted to cigs; however, this is not the path I want to be heading down. I can't help it though. And I worry where this addiction will take me coming forward - because I grew into a lot of bad habits last year and it fucked me up. Recovery was practically impossible. Fuck my life, literally.

[fantasticbeasts3]

Hey, congrats on those marks! Those are some great results especially for this time of year :-) I hope the English mark thing gets fixed up for you.

A note about home life: I don't know exactly what's going on, but I really hope it gets better for you. If you need anywhere to chat, AN has got your back. Also, it's okay if you can't feign confidence and strength; you're human, and if you feel like crap - you feel like crap. Sometimes it's good to have a bit of a cry and let everything out.

All the best!

[emilyygeorgexx]

Got my report, finally!! Honestly, it's not horrendous but I'm still disappointed. My marks were as follows -

English Advanced - 86 - 5/36
Maths - 88 - 4/54
Legal Studies - 95 - 3/30
Economics - 87 - 3/18
Multimedia - 88 - 1/18

So, they're decent, I guess. However, I felt as though my Advanced English reported mark, and hence rank, were wrong, because my friend got the EXACT same marks as me for the respective assessments, yet she ranked 2nd... while I came 5th. However, her reported mark was 87 - whilst mine is 86 - which doesn't quite make any sense, so I have a feeling either: My teacher told me the wrong mark for my Module A assessment; or they put my marks into the system incorrectly. Either way, I was super confused (although I'm pretty sure the major disparity between 2nd and 5th were accounted for by multiple people tying due to the relative gap of merely 1 mark between 2nd and 5th). So after report distribution, we had English - which is when I brought my concern up with my teacher (who is the head of the English faculty). I felt so fucking petty even mentioning it over just 1 mark, but tbh I wasn't even expecting them to up my rank or anything - I just wanted clarification. She asked me to show her my report - which I did - then looked something up on the computer whilst we were doing questions. Then she was like "I'll fix it. See me on Monday about it because I'll forget about it once I walk out the door". I'm not sure if that means I'm actually supposed to be 2nd, but it should.

On another note, I've been through absolute torture psychologically because of my home life. It's just so fucking difficult and I really really want to consider independent living but there is no way I'll be able to achieve my academic goals if I'm working even more to support myself. It's already hell as is. I feel so isolated though because my friends have gone through some bloody rough waters, so I have to stay strong to support them. It's just so hard to feign strength and confidence, when I'm being shattered into a million pieces inside. I think I'm relapsing because I've grown to become addicted to cigs; however, this is not the path I want to be heading down. I can't help it though. And I worry where this addiction will take me coming forward - because I grew into a lot of bad habits last year and it fucked me up. Recovery was practically impossible. Fuck my life, literally.

Omg dude you finally got your report and so did I!!! Even though your english rank is wrong (and needs to be fixed on the ASAP) it is legit still so much better than mine, I am so jealous!!

Also I am sure whatever is going on it will get 100% better soon! You just gotta believe in yourself, give yourself that extra little push and hopefully you'll come out feeling like a new woman (so cliche I know).

Let me know if you ever need anything!!

[Lumenoria]

Omg dude you finally got your report and so did I!!! Even though your english rank is wrong (and needs to be fixed on the ASAP) it is legit still so much better than mine, I am so jealous!!

Also I am sure whatever is going on it will get 100% better soon! You just gotta believe in yourself, give yourself that extra little push and hopefully you'll come out feeling like a new woman (so cliche I know).

Let me know if you ever need anything!!

HEHE yay!! Were you happy with yours on the whole though?

I god fucking hope so. I'm trying so hard to come out of this alive haha, but you're literally so nice - thankyou girl!! Xx

[Lumenoria]

Hey, congrats on those marks! Those are some great results especially for this time of year :-) I hope the English mark thing gets fixed up for you.

A note about home life: I don't know exactly what's going on, but I really hope it gets better for you. If you need anywhere to chat, AN has got your back. Also, it's okay if you can't feign confidence and strength; you're human, and if you feel like crap - you feel like crap. Sometimes it's good to have a bit of a cry and let everything out.

All the best!

Aw thankyou - I gotta admit though, I try pretty damn hard for them haha!!

I know, I'm trying so hard to stay away from my home. I can't even cry because I've been worn down by this so many times already, you know? Yeah, for sure, just ranting on this HSC journal is kinda cathartic tbh haha! Thankyou so much for well wishes though, all my love x

[emilyygeorgexx]

HEHE yay!! Were you happy with yours on the whole though?

I god fucking hope so. I'm trying so hard to come out of this alive haha, but you're literally so nice - thankyou girl!! Xx

Yeah I was pretty happy!! I ended up coming 1st in 3 subjects, 2nd in 2 subjects and then 12th in English (gonna be honest I was literally expecting to rank 20+ after the atrocity of my Paper 1). But overall, I think it's pretty good considering the amount of time I spent doing study.

Aw you're too cute and nice as well!! Xx

[Lumenoria]

Yeah I was pretty happy!! I ended up coming 1st in 3 subjects, 2nd in 2 subjects and then 12th in English (gonna be honest I was literally expecting to rank 20+ after the atrocity of my Paper 1). But overall, I think it's pretty good considering the amount of time I spent doing study.

Aw you're too cute and nice as well!! Xx

Omg what the hell, HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE?? Those ranks are insanely good haha, how much do you study per week would you say?