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Wow, check me out - it's only been what, 2 and a half weeks since the last update? Damn my procrastination skills are withering.
or I'm procrastinating cleaning by writing this but shush let me feel good about somethingWell, happy holidays everyone! It's December and as much as I despise Christmas, things are looking up.
My dad and I drove 11 hours to NSW and back to see my grandparents on Saturday, because it was my grandmother's birthday the day before and my grandfather's cancer prognosis isn't good. I was expecting the worst but I was so glad to see colour in his cheeks and light in his eyes despite the struggle he's facing. We're meeting them again on New Year's Eve for their 60th(!) wedding anniversary too and it's great to have something to look forward to after not seeing them since January.
After that I'm going on holiday with Erutepa's family again and I can't wait! I need to get new bathers for the creek :p
Still struggling with putting my head underwater - stress exacerbates everything so I've been really struggling to even shower lately because I get panicky. Hopefully holidays can help me relax and enjoy myself. PTSD kind of sucks sometimes but it's not going to stop me from living the life I deserve.
This week, I have a lot to do! I'm finishing and delivering a drawing commission, meeting with my DES worker, having dinner with my sister (yay!), track training, and doing a physio reassessment to put me onto power work (lifting weights and training my anaerobic capacity) because I've progressed from Pilates a bit. I also have to sign up to compete in AVSL Round 3 on Sunday!
Now to look at the goalssssss
Things I've done/been doing well:~ Exercise every day
~ Don't bite your nails
~ Try drawing by myself at least twice per week.
~ Take risks
~ Compete in athletics competition for the first time
~ Wear a put-together outfit out of the house
~ Go travelling after Christmas!!
~ No self-harm for the rest of the year
Things I've been working on okay:~ Positive affirmations
~ Call youth employment services
~ Practice controlled breathing
~ Talk to myself more positively.
Things I haven't done:~ Use public transport by myself
~ Talk to other people in the squad/pilates class
~ Take photos or get photo taken in public
~ Go swimming and put my head underwater
~ Record myself singing and post it(?)
So, things that should be prioritised this week:
~ Talk to new people
~Talk to self more positively
~ Keep taking risks
~ Controlled breathing! Remember you've got this and it'll be okay.
Alright, love you guys. Let me know if I can help anyone with any of their goals! Keeping accountability is important.