I haven't posted here in agesssss. But I'm in the eye of the storm right now so I need to express everything. I have one more trial examination to do (for drama), and I have my drama IP and GP due in less than 2 weeks! So I'm basically focusing all my effort on drama right now! Plus, I also have to give my attention to art because my major work is due in a bit less than 3 weeks! That's basically me right now.
BUT...THIS WAS MY TRIALS: btw I had a whole week of exam after exam ughhh
I felt so shitty after my ancient exam. I'm pretty sure I ranted about it in the ancient forums thing hahahah. Essentially, I fcked up one of the 10 mark questions and I know for sure I got a multiple choice wrong. That's 11 marks down the drain already. Every mark counts. So I was basically depressed over the weekend but I feel a bit better now because I know that others didn't even finish. I guess I felt like I was the only one that went shit, so when others feel the same way it puts things into perspective
That sounds so bad...but it's true. I guess if I bombed out in this ancient trial I'm hoping that my ranking (4th) will hold me up there, at least in the top 10. Even though I so badly wanted to be in the top 5 for ancient. But after that exam I feel like I can't get my hopes up.
I also did modern but I don't even want to talk about that. To sum it up, WW1 was great, USA was good, personality sucked, and Indochina was satisfactory (passable). Not overly impressed with the exam. Again, hoping that my rank will still hold up.
For english, I feel confident about it! Not my creative though. I feel like I stuffed that up. Hopefully not as bad as my last discovery exam where I only got 9/15. I'm hoping I improved because I worked my ass off to improve. I took all the feedback that I could and applied it ALL. I just feel like where I went wrong with it was that I didn't adequately use the 'statement' which was to write about a discovery that isn't immediately known and recognised by the character. The scene when my character did the discovering, it was realised, but before hand it wasn't. I didn't realise this until I left the exam. So I'm pissed. But, it all comes down to just practicing that creative as much as I can. I have a feeling the modules were fine, I was really pleased with my Wilfred Owen response! Except, I had the worst pain during the exam, my fault for not being on top of that, and I definitely felt like it may have hindered my performance.
For my artwork, it's just not turning out how I envisaged it. I think I except so much from it, like I want it to be hyper-realistic but that's not going to be achievable for me, as it's more of an expressionistic style with rougher brushstrokes. I also wanted it to be a lot darker than it is. But my art teacher suggested lightening it up, in order to achieve this effect where the 3 thirds of the painting are all in a different tone, the first and last are bright and the middle is in shadow. Whereas, I wanted the first two dark and the last to be bright. I have this one 'focus' scene in the middle of the painting, which I want the viewer's eyes to be drawn to, but because the painting is so light it doesn't really stand out. I'm working on these things though and it definitely needs A LOT more work.
As for drama...I received my marks from trials and I'm pleased with how I went. I received 29/30 for my IP, 25/30 for my GP and I have yet to do the written exam. With the GP, I'm happy considering the issues we encountered and how we still have a lot more work to do with it. We know where we lost marks, and we've already worked on correcting one place. We're determined to push ourselves up to a band 6 level group performance.
That's trials summed up! So overall, there's loads of room for improvement. I'm just trying not to get my hopes to high before we get our results back. I don't want to be devastated. So, I keep reminding myself that there's still a chance after trials and that I have to keep ploughing on.