I’m probably gonna update this more often from now on. It really helps to simply just write all my thoughts down.
oops. That didn't go well.
Been 2 weeks since my last update. I have literally started writing this entry at least 5 times over the past 2 weeks but each time I have just scrapped it. Hopefully I end up posting this one, lol.
Also, this ones a bit of a rant and not structured like my other onesI saw something pop up on my Facebook timeline the other day "forecast for the next few weeks: extreme procrastination with a high chance of mental breakdown". That I feel like will some up my life until my final exam is finished, so around 39 days or whatever my timer in my signature says.
I have been doing anywhere from 30 minutes - 2 hours of study each day during the holidays. But all except a couple of days I did do something. Again coldturkey has been an amazing help with that but it always just quickly gets to a point where I aren't doing any work anyways and just start playing around with formatting or in the case of methods which I do off the computer I get distracted by my calc discovering all the little quirks that probably wouldn't really help me.
I have done 2 out of the 20 practice exams we have been given for the holidays for methods. So I am kind of worrying about what my teacher is gonna say when she finds out. And I got 42% on my probability SAC, which isn't the best but at least I barely passed, over half the class actually failed it and has to re sit it Thursday.
I have no good reason for not getting them done and the only reason I haven't is procrastination.
Whenever I have been bored instead of just buckling down and getting work down I have instead invited a friend who lives just down the road over to play rocket league. Half the time it starts by him messaging me being bored, and I mean when a friend wants to come over it is hard to say no... I am getting good at playing virtual soccer with cars, but not so good at finding an integral or writing a Language Analysis.
I have a tutor for EngLang, and she is encouraging me to make sure I am getting a heap of practice Essays done which is helping me, I just don't have the motivation for that myself and she is literally dragging me along. I guess that it is helping me though, we are meeting twice a week for an hour.
A friend has also gone a bit too far and I have stood up to her, this probably isn't the best time to do it but there have been a few massive things bugging me about her for along time that I had to let out. I feel bad that I am being mean to her but someone has got to stand up to her or nothings gonna change.
So yeah the past 2 days I have been occupied with that, and that's not good.
While writing this I am in the IT room and there is a year 7 IT class going on in the background. I wish that we could be as carefree with our work in year 12 as what we could get away with in year 7. Their class is the most chill thing ever right now. At least we only have 9 days left of stressful classes left until we are done.
I am finding every possible way to procrastinate it seems, including researching specifics for my trip to Europe next year even though it is 9 months away and I should be focussing on my study not how to get between places in London.
I don't know what has caused it but all of a sudden all 5 of my siblings and I are ALL getting along really well at the current time, which anyone who has grown up with many siblings will know that it is extremely rare for everyone to just be getting along.
I guess I should get back to work though, lol.
As motivation I am going to update this thread every day with what work I have done that day and if I don't post well assume that I haven't done anything...