I think this period allowed me to be really introspective about my life and support network. I’ve grown to be immensely grateful for my small group of friends, who check up on me, share random shows and casually forward memes. I’m appreciative of my family and especially my parents, who make sure to talk to us after their long at work and prioritise talking about feelings. (This seems dumb and slow, but I’ve come to realise that they are also people with their own vulnerabilities, tough days and hopes for the future, and not just my parental figures.)
I have grown a bit in self-confidence, I partially deleted Instagram, meaning the account is still there and I check for messages via my laptop but I no longer spend hours criticising and comparing myself not just in terms of appearance but mostly in terms of how much people have done at such a young age.
In terms of uni and study, for a long time, my way of thinking has been quite narrow; just figuring things out myself and not asking for help. So, when I’m stuck, I tend to spend hours trying to find a specific answer to that assignment/ question, whether that be through reading so many unnecessary research studies or watching videos and reading Quora, just to find that the protein was simply made in the liver. This changed quite a bit, this semester; I, ate some humble pie, pushed my ego down and I booked several one on one meetings with my tutors, to ask for help in the tricky areas. I’m really hoping this continues on because there’re zero disadvantages and invaluable benefits.
I think, I also have come to appreciate a good cry. During the lockdown, I have cried quite a bit before submitting an assignment and ngl, this high key helped; getting all the negative anxious feelings out and coming out fresh with a better mindset.
Overall, this has been so so but definitely has been a time of realisations and slight change.
