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Alrightyyyyy where do I start... I've just wasted the entire school holidays so far, and I'm starting to
become super stressed about school. It's sort of just hit my how actually difficult it is to get into a
uni like Monash for under-grad medicine, or any uni for that matter. In less than 4 months I'll be
in an examination room, writing my VCE exams for two subjects that I hardly feel prepared for at
all. It feels like I know nothing. Not to mention all my other subjects too - I was supposed to post on
atarnotes' argument analysis club page and start practising for English but I forgot and now I'm not
sure if I can even do all my VCE subjects well anymore. I wanted to study really hard this holidays
and revise and get ahead. I have no idea how I was so optimistic at the start of the year when I used
to think I could get a 50 in both my 3/4 subjects this year. Little did I know how difficult it actually is.
I got my psych sac result back before term ended last week, and I ended up getting the highest mark.
It's not very comforting to know you lost 7 marks on it, no matter where you're ranked in the cohort. I
want to do super well in psych and I was aiming for a 50 but I don't think I can anymore. It's not like
I'm good at any of my other subjects either.
Medicine seems like such a far away goal I'll never be able to achieve no matter how hard I try.
You don't just need to get a 99+ atar, but you need a UCAT score that's amazing as well as smash
the interview to even be considered. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore and honestly I
feel so alone and lost. Everything seems too hard and I've wasted 6 days of my holidays playing
video games and sleeping and going out with friends that I haven't even studied at ALL. Like 0%
studying. I don't know where to start to improve and I feel like I'm just doing so bad and come exam
time I'll just end up failing. Call this catastrophic thinking (for those who do 3/4 psych, you'll get this)
but I know it's a very possible outcome. Holidays aren't supposed to be for playing around, they're
supposed to be for studying and I've done none of that. I have friends who have studied so much
this holidays and it makes me feel so guilty but I can't seem to sit down and get ahead in everything.
I don't know what's wrong with me but nothing seems possible right now and I don't know what I'm
doing and I think I've said that a billion times in this post and everything is just falling apart but I don't
want to fail and I want to do really well but I don't think I can and thank you for listening to my rant.
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Hey whys!
I'm sorry that you're feeling this way but hopefully you can get out of it soon! I feel this a lot as well and it just makes me so depressed that I don't feel like doing anything.
I totally feel you when you say that nothing feels possible anymore. I got my Methods SAC back and it was so bad, I cried. It was a horrifying result. It was not the goal I was trying to achieve. Sometimes, I think that I won't even get above 40, as my goal is that raw 50.
You are doing so well in Psychology! A massive congratulations for getting the highest score in the cohort!
Your SAC ranking matters, not your score, so you have nothing to panic/worry/be sad about! It's an amazing achievement since you go to a selective school!
It IS okay have some rest in the holidays and it's completely fine to be hanging out with friends and just having fun. You need a break from all that hard work you did in the term so that you are refreshed and ready to tackle term 3! Holidays are like a refuelling station.
Ah, undergrad Medicine at Monash seems so faraway. But look, just focus on doing the best you can and believing in yourself, not giving up and getting back when you fall down. That's what matters and that's what will put you on the correct path to achieve your goals.
See you around.